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#463

2010-04-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

something..somewhere is wrong ah.hahah.i feel so unlike myself lately luh.and i dont know why -.- somehow, i think i made very good friends with sleeping once again.OOOPS.maybe i need to really get a job lah.4weeks w/o any income already.terrible.zZz

anyway, into 败犬女王 lately.hahah.am so tempted to chiong finish this drama.but where on earth can i get so much time uh.. =.= unless i dont eat (which is IMPOSSIBLE), dont sleep (possible), dont bathe (possible, but at least must let me brush teeth and wash my face.LOL).then, i might complete the entire drama in a day! :D but i wont be so crazy though.i'll just take my time to watch it.hahah.i still have my ANTM and GG!^^

feel like baking alot of things leh.but thinking of the ingredients costs makes me @.@ and that really sucks.why cant money just have sex and multiply like mad in my bank, my wallet and my drawers )):

#462

2010-04-14T11:30:00.002+08:00

梁静茹 - 没有如果

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱
如果我说爱没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果如果
如果如果如果最后变路过
我们不能接受
错过错过
错过错过错过我们一定能过
不会一错再错

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

别怕太快了别怕失去我
如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手
快牵起我的手...

#460

2010-04-02T15:06:00.003+08:00

Good Friday people! haha.so much that i love production, i actually love holidays too.haha, especially public holidays when i dont get to have a term break last term.LOL.and despite it being a holiday, i still woke up at 8am to bake today.i know that might sound crazy.but, i just feel like baking? lol.anyway i woke up coz i was craving for bread and swissroll.i cant believe i ate bread and milk last night and i still ate the same thing this morning.fcuk.then after baking sweetpaste and swissroll, i still cleared the leftovers.this kind of behaviour should stop seriously.coz i am feeling damn fat.but kinda hard to control.zzz.thus, i shall go for running soon! right after this post! hahha.seriously serious.at least i will feel abit healthier? XD

anyway, i was wondering what's wrong with the internet lately.everybody seems to have changed their homepage? from MSN to Twitter.still not used to their new layouts uh.so much changes lately which i cant seem to adapt that fast and well.ohno..dont tell me it's because i'm OLD already? @.@

anyway, i finally tried out my matcha cheesecake today.teeheehee.i love matcha! i was totally in heaven when my kitchen smell of matcha fragrance just now.i was totally *.* hahahhahahh.and i love baking too much le.i even talk to my ingredients! haha.i've got big sugar grains and small sugar grains today.lol.so i was telling my big sugar grains to dissolve fast fast in my sweetpaste but sadly, it doesnt lah.baking shouldnt use such big sugar grains actually.but my house no more sugar liao.bobians.and my cream cheese! haha. cute eh.was telling it to cream properly, no air bubbleees.lol.i think i might be crazy in some way.but i think it's the love in baking! haha.can i seriously go ROM with Baking =X

pictures time.before i really go for a good run and my mahjong tonight.new month, i hope everything will be good! ((:

see my pretty cheescake in baking.no cracks, no bubbles.so obedient^^

baked.

after unmoulding and assembling.4 mini ones..

and the big one!

closeup!((:
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that's all.shall try out my white choc matcha muffins next time.and also my muffin tarts! haha.another crazy idea.but i think it's cute eh.hee, shall try them out when i am free -gone for running-

#459

2010-03-31T01:06:00.002+08:00

ohgreat! i had such an enjoyable time watching GG episode 16 and ANTM14's 3 episodes just now.haha, so you can tell how long i have been sitting in front of my lappie, doing practically nothing productive.lol.but i satified my online video watching fix! heh.pure bliss~ i like! haha.chuck's so vulnerable in epi16.and imo, that makes him so so hot! i never liked him so much before in any other episodes in any of the 3 seasons.and eleanor waldorf is soooo sweet and understanding towards blair.and seriously, i like her even more for being so honest to her mum.as usual, serena and nate, perfect couple.i still remember how happy i was for serena and dan when they were together in season 2.at that time, i really thought they were meant for each other.i mean mr nice guy with a bad-girl-who-turns-good.but well, not so much into dan now.i prefer nate with serena now.hahaha.and jenny! glad that that damien is out of her life.she deserves somebody better.but..maybe not nate uh.although both of them will look cute together too.haha! i know the GG books are so much different than the dramas.maybe if i read the book, i would have lambasted the drama like what most readers have "war" against the viewers.anyway, i am more of a visual person.i cannot read books.too wordy for me.hurhur

and now, ANTM! haha, i think i love cycle 14 alot! it's like the cycle i love the most? even more than ANTM9 or 11.hahaha.probably due to the contestants ah.there's soooooo much eyecandies in cycle 14.coz i was watching from epi1 to 3 just now.i was soooo depressed that aimee didnt got into the top 12 eh.i think she has the allison feel from cycle 12! and that's cute.haha.and it also means alot of hidden potential to be discovered along the way? too bad she didnt get through ): nevertheless, i think majority of the top12 are not bad leh.i think i like 10 of them? hahahahhah.i know that is crazy.then so sad that danielle got out in the 1st epi ): and naduah got out in the 2nd epi.i kinda like both of them? lol.so it was kind of sad to watch this cycle because you like too many people inside liao.the probability of them getting out is HIGH too -.- ren is not bad actually.but she kinds of freaks me out with her sanity and stuffs? lol.and yea, she got out in the 3rd epi.i dont like alasia and angelea actually.the rest are all fine with me.haha.all thanks to christine who recommended me to watch ANTM14 today, while i intro-ed her to watch GG season 3, epi14 onwards.hehheh.bet she finished until epi16 already.true enough, jessica is really pretty.haha.no wonder christine keep telling me that today and asking me to watch! haha.simone, raina, tatianna and anslee are <3-ed too! hahaha.aiya, this season all very good.all should be america's next top modelS.dont need to fight.or i will feel sad for almost all the episodes, which is very depressing uh.but i will still catch and watch them.hehheh.eye candies galore.why not((:

anyway, production was alright today.eric is really good at doing demo.he can finish it super fast? haha.making me abit jittery for the next demo on coming wednesday.hmm..lol.tiramisu and pannacotta.sounds so much cheemer >.< so practically half a day was spent at doing demo, watching the students do demo, helping them to whisk the cream mixture darn lots of times (like zZz) and washing up the pastry IS kitchen (i really REALLY miss pastry IS kitchen loads).after lunch, it was production timeee.haha.macaroons again and then swiss rolls.macaroons was a success today! but piping skills still cmi ah.i dont know why i wont pipe within the circle.hahaha.duno where's the problem man -.- and swiss roll is totally wow.machiam like my snack food.i ate so much until i think the amount is equivalent to one tray of sponge le bah =.= i find it nice leh.as well as the macaroons.hahah.but tml we shall do a better swiss roll.change tray, change recipe.hopefully it turns out better :DD

alrightts.quite late already.and i didnt have a powernap today.and amazing, i dont feel sleepy/tired? lol.but i better sleep.coz every morning i need to drag myself out of bed to school -.-""||| tml will be a hectic day~ haha.but looking forward to it! nights people~!~!

#458

2010-03-30T00:12:00.003+08:00

first day of production today! it was fun imo.haha.i have never enjoyed doing something that much before.and i know some people think i am crazy.some people just dont understand why can a person like baking so much? some people feel that there are other things out there that are more suited for me? =\ i only know i live life ONCE.and i wanna live it happily.who cares about anything else seriously.i just want to work towards my dreams, that's all (:

the only item i kind of baked today is macaroons.lol.abit failure i think.my piping skills sux.and honestly speaking, it is my second time making macaroons (the milk powder macaroons R&D cannot be counted) after chef goh's IS on it.and the production recipe really tastes so much better than the one we tried during IS.haha.zavier's recipe is indeed good! i shall bring a small notebook tml to kapo recipes liao.hahaha.i shall search for a pretty notebook later.and i must bring a pen to school tml! feel so paiseh to keep borrowing pens from my classmates >.< shall conquer macaroons again tml! i believe practice makes perfect (though i am not a very big fan of macaroons =X)

will be helping to do a demo for si ling secondary school students tml.chocolate chip cookies and bread & butter pudding.to be honest, i am actually pretty looking forward to that.coz i can get to "feel" how chef bernard gives us demo in the first 2 terms.haha.and it seems quite fun to me? chef pok (i dont know why chef jaymie calls him that, i prefer calling him eric or chef eric though, coz he's my classmate ah, so funny to call him buy his surname >.<) will be doing to the demo tml~ i bethe will do everything.and i will just sit there and enjoy his demo bah.or wash the utensils.LOL.and next week demo for tiramisu and something else.doing with caiyi next week.he damn nice luh.come back to help.if not i will just die of stress i think.haha, eggcited leh.omg.i think i love baking too much le (if you can tell).hahaha((:

sometimes i wish i can turn back time..and sometimes i wish time can just stay as it is.i love how things are before, and now too.why in such dilemma huh? is it just you or me..

#457

2010-03-27T02:05:00.002+08:00

exactly 12 hours from now, i will be a very very VERY happy girl! haha.i shall never ever EVER sit for an exam anymoree.like yay!!! hahah.and i am kinda looking forward to production this coming monday.hee.had a briefing with ms jaymie after school and it sounds like our production term will be really doing quite alot of production.no longer outsourcing of bread loaves from gardenia and tart shells from i dont know where.so everything from scratch, which is something i love alot! haha.hands on omg, i like leh.i dont know why.and i am so eager to try baking all the matcha items.hahaha.i got my matcha powder from darius, our dearest executive chef, today.yesss~must bake sooon.hahah^^

i cant stand my slackness for these 2 weeks.ughs.not working + keep eating is taking a toll on me.shit man.i need to do something about it.haha.desperately looking for jobs eh.and i saw some really good jobs out in the market now.like totally can tell that the economy is picking up? hahah.why isnt it our internship period now.. >.< hopefully there are much much better job openings 3 months from now? hahah.that baker job opening at petit provence is so tempting.ughs.so much so that i think i will give that person a call to ask if they want to hire part timers.i am seriously damn interested in learning to bake breads.if i have the opportunity, i will fly to taiwan and learn their bread making skills leh.soft and fluffy bread i <3 and adoreee!~ hahah((:

alrights, i think i need to start my revision for my last paper later.although i am wayyyy into holidaying mood liao.hahah.like, since my beverage paper? lol.revise abit then i guess i'm off to sleep.luckily it's afternoon paper tml.teehee.i can wake up lateee.like not the usual 9am.tsk :p

#456

2010-03-25T15:53:00.006+08:00

yesss.2 more days to go.i cant wait for saturday to come((: getting sick of nua-ing at home already.lol.not as if i got study at home this week when i'm not out! ughhhs.but it just makes my conscience feels better.coz staying at home is like a gazillion times better than being outside.and it also means that i'm so so much closer to my books, and hence, a higher possibility of me picking it up to revise.LOL.what an excuse.haha! like wtf lah.being at home = no income.zzz.worse, i keep eating and eating.dammit.it sucks.tsk.i guess the only way to control my diet is not to keep food outta my sight.is to get my arse out of home.HAHA.if not..i think the fridge and my store will be empty sooner or later (i think it already is now.. =.=)

i cant believe i survived 4 gruelling days and the toughest paper, bev knowledge, today! haha.i am so screwed can.first time in my entireee life that i left blanks for my exam paper.hahaha.eh, please, i cant crap up a name if i dont know right.like what different brands of GIN are there.so tempted to put Chloe I, Chloe II and Chloe III.what, i cannot sell GIN in the future meh.and the last question damnnnn wtf.i wrote Bourdeaux leh.dunno why my itchy hands go cancel it and put Burgundy.fcuk sia.haha.3marks gone.hurhur.totally feel like banging the wall just now T.T anyway, it's over lah.hopefully can get a B lah hor.A is too far-fetched liao =S

3more papers left.2 more days.teehee.imo, it's quite relaxing liao :D like so fast coming monday i'll be in production.hoho.and i cant wait to try baking matcha sweet buns, matcha cheesecake and matcha muffins.haha.i'm such a matcha fan~ i'm like so eager to bake all of a sudden =O must have been influenced by my Grp A classmates doing comprehensive today =\

i have got so many wants lately - i want a dog, i want to get driving license, i want to learn French, i want to learn violin.arghhs.why can't i have more time and most importantly, more money?! >:(

#454

2010-03-17T20:42:00.003+08:00

ohmy.fat.been eating non-stop for the past few days.ughs.so terrible can.i need some control >.<

anyways, i'm not sure whether it's a good or a bad thing.i have no more term break this term! which means no more 1 week holiday from 27th March till 4th April.lol.luckily i didnt buy air tickets and book hotel for Taiwan 2 months back? XD anyway even if i buy now, the air ticks and hotels are like 100+bucks more expensive.not worth uh.i rather save the sum for future good uses =X

and no holidays means my production term will start immediately after my exams.my last paper is on the 27th (yes, it's a saturday.i have papers for 6 consecutive days from monday to saturday next week.gayness) and my production term starts on the 29th.which means i only have one day holiday - 28th of March.and guess what? 28th of March is lady gaga's birthday! hahah.i know i'm crazy XD and i'm so happy that her birthday falls on a 28th too! 28 rocks ah.HAHAHHAHA.see, i cant believe i remember ladyg's birthday next week and forgot my elderbro's birthday yesterday.lol.didnt even know he was celebrating with my relatives until my lilbro told me.and i wouldnt even "celebrate" for him if not for them coming over to my house at night to sing birthday song and cut the durian cake.and i dont eat durian.lol.kind of like just show face, sing the birthday song in korean for him and not directly wishing him a happy birthday? dots.so sad ah.

and i guess i will be learning to drive sooon.my mum has been asking me when i wanna learn.ok, it's a skill.even if i dont drive/have a car in the future, it will be a skill that is gonna be stucked with me forever? lol.and i hope i have the time and determination to go and learn ah.hahah.why need to go through all those theories and practicals to get the license.so ughs ):

sadddddddd.can anyone understand how it feels when you feel like chatting to somebody yet you dont know what to chat about? lol.friday come faster please((:

#453

2010-03-08T01:29:00.004+08:00

yay! finally got some time to blog.hahha.but well, suddenly dont know where and how i should start.lol.maybe from what happened just now lah.i lost 100bucks in MJ.gayness.lol.and i believe it is my retribution for being late for MJ! and it is okay seriously.i dont feel an inch of sadness at all.amazingly huh.not that it's not a big amount or what.maybe because i broke even afterall.so it doesnt really matter to me.anyway 钱财乃身外物, so yea, happiness is what matters isnt it? and i am really happy.hahah.maybe could be even happier if the result was the other way round.but still glad that everyone's happy.hahah.and i lose until very happy -.-|| and i got a feeling that it is because my lucky month, feb, is over.so since it is march, hurhur, i should try and control abit.hahah.what kind of logic is this right? lol

and i cannot believe that i drank so much water at chalet yesterday.i think the amount of water i drank is equivalent to the amount of water i drink for 2 normal days can -.- i am not a water/liquid person ah.lol.really a nightmare to play that game leh.and i am so glad that darren helped me to clear 6cups of water.if not i really will vomit water =X anyway, too much water in the body will die de leh.coz the red blood cells will burst due to osmosis.i am fcuking serious.lol.we learn that in bio dont we >.< maybe that's why i am always skeptical of drinking 8glasses of water a day.it is really too much for me.lol =X

i think i am such a baddie today.arghs.i feel sorry to make my aunt and cousin wait for me, and also feel bad for not meeting my customer in person when i promised to.sad.i feel really bad leh.and i dont know why.it's like i didnt keep my promises and my conscience is hurting? ): and my attitude over the phone is abit over too i know.hurhur, so sorry to those that i have hurt directly or indirectly (whether or not they know how i feel, not to mention reading this post =X).i feel really really bad.yet i cant do anything about it besides apologising now.i will reflect on myself i promise! and be a better person next time round(:

so yeap, i have baked lately.you know what, i finally tried out my milk powder macaroons.HAHAH.and i learnt something new! though it wasnt very successful, i wouldnt call it a failure either.if you know, macaroons are made with almond powder.i replaced that 100% with milk powder.and obviously that will affect the structure of the entire macaroons isnt it? and what structure can there be anyway.no glute, no whatever shit.lol.but at least i tried out a brainchild of mine.haha.i swear it is delicious.but i'll prolly still need almond powder for macaroons.milk powder can be used as a flavouring, not the full 100% of it.it's totally cool.haha.pictures speak louder than words:

i know my piping seriously sux to the core =.=

macaroons in baking.so plump, so cute XD

the top of the macaroon (looks like coconut macaroon right?)

the base of the macaroon.well, i basically have no idea why my macaroons look so tanned.maybe because my oven dont have top and bottom heat.so i just set the average temp at one go.so hard to aga aga the temperature sia.not to say the timing, which got to be so super exact -.-

then most importantly is of course the chocolate espresso mousse cake.this is a slice of it.the whole cake is totally cui.i should have taken a nice pictre of it at home, if i knew the cake is gonna melt so terribly on my way to costa sands.like wtf can.haha.i was seriously damn tempted to throw my entire cake away.but i just..tolerated? =.= i swear i was super emo.coz..i dont understand why SG must be so hot! the first time i understand the importance of cambros (i guess that is how u spell it) in RWS.lol.it keeps your cakes chilled and set, so it doesnt melt! damn sians when i see my cake melting.if only the travelling time isnt that long, and the distance aint that far.my cake will have hope leh.sigh.but well, it is a lesson learnt.haha.i need improvements! like more improvements.i must better hone my baking skills (: never been so serious in my entire life before.lol.and i think the reason is because of you^^

#452

2010-02-17T20:18:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year to all! I'm not late coz CNY lasts for 15days.haha.this year's CNY is so different for me.it's the first time i didnt go visitings and collecting angpows (although my mum collected some of them on my behalf) didnt really celebrated CNY partly because my grandmother passed away last year and also because of the tempting Resort World Sentosa (RWS) job offer.it is a rare opportunity to work in the RWS kitchen.even if my grandmother didnt pass away last year, i would still forgo CNY and work at RWS.well, that indirectly means that i am using my grandmother as a shield all along =X argghs.but i love working in the kitchen too much le.seriously.and i dont know why leh.lol.it's in my blood.i'm not a workaholic >.< i have friends who are more hardworking than me(:

oh, did i forget to mention how wonderful it is to work at RWS? i enjoyed it aloottttt.like, omg, really love it.time really flies over there (maybe because there is no clock in the cold kitchen for me to check the time!) you just keep doing things non-stop and before you know, voila! it's lunch, and voila! time to go home.haha.it wasnt easy navigating the central kitchen on the first day (saturday).but on my second day, i knew my way around the central kitchen already.now, i wish i can explore hard rock, boulangerie and deli21.i'll probably get to visit these places when i work in the pastry kitchen this weekend.heh.and i know i will definitely miss cold kitchen.i miss straining zucchinis (my first task on my first day of work), making sandwiched and baguettes, doing mis en place, peeling fruits and slicing them (i did a very bad job in slicing the damned rock melons) and not to forget picking and counting cherries.omfg.it is my worst nightmare i tell you.it was my last task yesterday.and i have been facing those darned cherries after my lunchbreak till i got off from work.how great.it's like 4hrs of looking and touching of cherries.wtf seriously.and i thought all will be over after i pick out the Perfect Cherries, Good-but-not-perfect cherries and rotten cherries.but it wasnt over yet.i had to count 560 perfect cherries and put them into 2 inserts @ 280 each.and those cherries must have their stems on.you know how fragile the stems are? worse still, there isnt 560 perfect cherries after strict picking for the past 2-3hours, opening boxes after boxes of cherries.in fact, there is still a lack of 20 perfect cherries.luckily mk was helping me all along.we then had no choice but to pick out the better 20 cherries from the not-so-perfect-batch.and if you think that is over, it is not! we still had to count 700 cherries and put them in a transparent insert for fruit cups the next day (which is today).we were like @.@"|| and we really counted 350each so we could finish it faster.and i was so grateful and thankful that our beloved belinda came to our rescue.because she came to look for us to ask if we were done and if we could leave.then we had an excuse to say that it is finall time for us to get off from work! not that we hate to work there or what.it's just that LOOKING and PICKING cherries is too mundane already.i cant stand it seriously.and it is super cold in the kitchen.i am really on the verge of crying if not for mk who keeps disturbing me and making me stay focused.my fingers are so super numb.the kitchen is cold, the cherries are even colder.at one time, i really could stand it and i had to run my way out to the loading bay to literally "defrost" myself.i am freaking freezing cold lah.and those people there think i'm siao running and hopping around.and if they didnt know that, my fingers are still freezing numb even after i hopped and jumped about.i was so unwilling to leave the warm loading bay after around 5minutes? but i had no choice but to return back to the cold kitchen to help mk.if not counting and picking the cherries will take forever seriously.i think you can tell how pathetic i was at that time after digesting this big chunky paragraph.i really really hate the sight of cherries at that time.summore it really seems "never-ending" at that time.i really felt like dying.however, i still love cold kitchen.coz i like making the tuna sandwiches (i love tuna, omg), the chicken sanwiches, ham and cheese baguettes and stuffs.and the smell of pickles are so heavenly! haha.i like how all the ingredients are place together to make pretty sandwiched, wrapped, stickered and put into cambros (i guess that is how you spell them) and delivered to deli21, boulangerie or universal studios.absolutely cool and enjoyable.i will miss cold kitchen alot.really.cold kitchen aka gardemanger is the only thing i like about culinary.hahah.coz it's all the sandwiches, salads and healthy food^^ and best thing is that it is colllddd.but yesterday was really too much.the frist time i complained that i cannot stand the cold.hahah

then the day before, monday, i probably didnt feel that cold because after lunch, i was in the main kitchen (warm).slicing burger buns (it's 414 of them!) for stephanie sun's concert last night.and it was my first time getting hurt by a knife.the blood oozed out and my gloves are bloodies.but the bun is perfectly alright.no worries.hahah.and i was like wtf?! it was painful really.and chef leo is like omg, why so careless?! but he was unable to attend to me coz he was bringing those stewarding staff around (if i not wrong) so he brought me to chef michael (he's a pastry chef! woots!) and he helped my to dress my wounded left ring finger.haha.he's such a nice guy.and i'm happy that i will be working alongside with him this weekend! and chef jackie too.in fact, all the chefs at RWS are nicee.chef jeffrey also.but i wasnt very close to the CDC of cold kitchen.not much contact time with him =X and oh, i must say that the angmoh chefs there are sooooo damnnnnn hot! especially chef david! haha.i believe he's an american sia.i loooovvveee his accent soo much.and the fact that we chatted...LOL.shit lah, i am like hahahhahahha.so hawt omg.hahah *loves* and he teaches me how to butter bread, do things correctly and stuffs.damn cute i must say.hahaha! and while we were walking to the central wardrobe yesterday, we saw him and i said goodbye to him! and he replied "see you and thanks for helping out"! of course i said it was my pleasure.hahahhahah.wooo! XD and the other chef was hot too.i forgot the name already.i must ask mk again tml.hahah.and i will remember the name for sure.wahahaha :D

and i seriously miss the thousand island sauce, cherry (ops) tomatoes and sliced cucumbers at bagus cafe.i am so going to eat them this weekend.hahaha.die die must eat ah.i am having cravings for them now sia.i cannot believe it.and i should really stop eating.been having too much lately.fattening sia.why must there be festive season.and why must human beings gain weight so easily.sucks man T.T and i was so dumn to accidentally throw my lunch coupons for monday and tuesday into the central wardrobe laundry together with my aprons, uniform and hat.and i didnt even realise that until i was on the staff bus leaving sentosa with mk.and he keep laughing lah.wtf.summore my $1 angpow from chef alan was inside too T.T and i suddenly realise that $1 isnt a bad thing afterall.i wont feel geksim dumping it into luandry XD and i thought i am gonna to "eat air" for lunch on monday and tuesday liao.a good way for me to diet too.lol.but the coupon lady in bagus cafe very nice.she let me take the coupon for me to exchange for my lunch at the stalls.i am seriously grateful for that.and i was still asking if she remember me workign for the past 2 days or not.lol.and i explained that i lost my lunch coupons.and she just tell me it's okay, fill in the form and just take the coupon.wah, i am so touched can.hahah.and mk was telling me "so good ah".hahha.then i chionged for my western cuisine and of course, my thousand island sauce and salads! haha.happiness leh seriously^^ i feel so happy typing this entry.hahah, siao liao.i can never ever describe finish how happy i am working there.it was as if i am in heaven.mygawd.hahah <3s

#451

2010-02-06T07:55:00.002+08:00

omg.i feel damn sinful now.i took pineapple tarts before sleeping last night and the first thing i woke up is to eat pineapple tarts again.LOL.finished half a bottle liao.how great.no wonder i am going to fall sick real soon.at this rate i'm eating, not only will i grow FAT, i will get heaty and fall sick.dangs.anyway, the pineapple tarts seems to be delicious leh.i wonder why it taste like shit when they are just baked.maybe coz i'm hungry so i think they are nice =X but i am so gonna use SCS butter next time instead of the goldlion de.SCS will taste so much better >.<

i missssss my dyed + cropped hair all of a sudden.hurhur.but i am so determined to grow my hair now.lol.sian ah! i must control.i must keep scissors away from me lest my hands turn itchy and start snipping my hair again @.@

workinnggg later.teehee.happy leh.coz i can seeeeee youuuuuuuuu^^ you know what i mean.XOXO~

#450

2010-02-04T21:17:00.003+08:00

wahpiang.cant stand the stupid attitude on the Popular service staff just now.lucky i made my way down to Popular before taking my dinner.if not i cant buy those materials for the KO poster tml =X i cant believe i chionged into Popular when the metal railing was halfway through closing.lol.any idiot will know that they are closing liao.of coz i will chopchop and buy my stuffs very fast lah.if not why the heck will i run into Popular.too free meh =.= i wasnt that pissed at first until she really got on my nerves.but i tolerated lah.what else..i can still remember what she said vividly sia.

"excuse me, we are closing already."
"okok, i will be very fast. may i know where is the double sided tape?"
"there there *points* we are closing already" - i was like I KNOW YOU ARE CLOSING.if you want me to do my shopping faster, you should have showed me where exactly the double sided tape is located? not just THERE.there where?! what kind of attitude sia.then i LL go explore myself lor.when i was browsing through the tape area, she suddenly appear behind me and ask how she could help.to think i thought that she might have felt bad treating customer (me) badly so she returned to offer help.so once again, i asked,
"where is the double sided tape?
"there *points DIRECTLY this time round*" PLUS, she added on
"we are closing already"
like wtf?! i know, i understand, i understood-ed can.she dont have to repeat the same phrase to me like thrice within a minute?! it is bloody hell irritating.and its not that i am taking my own sweet time.i am hurrying too ok.i haven even take my dinner.and as you know, a hungry person is an angry person.to think i can still control my anger.tsk.anyway i didnt have time to show my anger too.all i wanted is to quickly go pay at the cashier and get my ass out of that place.i dont want another "we are closing already".wtf can.and when i exited Popular, this other service staff still say "thank you, see you again".sorry, never will i ever enter that stupid place again.unless i am goddamn desperate to get stationery.i rather travel to lot 1 or JP or even town to get my supplies =.=

then something really WEIRD happened when i was on my way to wm.i received an sms which states something along the line like, "heyhey, i told you the virus is super strong liao.you see lah.remember to take mc ah.take care and see you tomorrow".then i saw the msg was from ST.but like abit weird when she msged me that.so i asked if she sent the msg to the correct person not.then she reply if i send the msg to the correct person not.so i thought she sent the msg correctly and of coz i replied her previous msg.knowing the fact that i knew she was sick this morning.so her first sms kind of "got link" and i thought she think i was sick too so i didnt stay in school after noon.but the fact was that my teacher was on mc instead.so our last class was cancelled and we ended school at around 11.30.then finally comes the weird part.she called me and asked about my msges.i was also blur.i told her i reply her msg.then she say she never send.and the weird thing is that when i check back my inbox, the "heyhey" message disappeared.like really POOF-ED those kind.i SWEAR i saw this msg.i mean if i didnt see it, why then when i hit reply, the msg was directly to ST? hmm.damn weird lah.i still duno why the sms disappear leh.summore she say she didnt sms me.then...then..i really dunno.she say i scare her and i think she scare me too! lol! really very weird sia.and i am still wondering what went wrong =.=""|||| what the hell is that msg and aiya, i dont know lah.just pretend nothing happen.if not it's really scary @.@

anyway i baked pineapple tarts today.it doesnt taste good at all.lol! i am very honest.and i dont know why.maybe coz it's not SCS butter =X but the eggwash very pretty.i like XD

#449

2010-02-04T00:33:00.002+08:00

i feel damn bad yesterday.and maybe on monday too.i know i have not been attentive in class for this week.and i am feeling really bad.that's why i am trying to make up by doing some good revision.haha.trying to make my conscience feel better.but i doubt it will make the teachers feel good since they are unable to see my "revision" effort.lol

i have totally no idea why i had insomnia last night.hahah.anyway, insomnia is a nice song! (so sorry to sidetrack XD) so i was kind of in a semi-conscious state in school today.i dont think i was behaving normally.machiam like sleepwalking and sleeptalking? and seriously, i cant even remember what i said and what i did.i only know all i did was dozing off on the table.and also drinking consomme which i thought it would perk me up like what chicken of essence does -.- i didnt meant to skip IS.i mean, i am so exhausted.even if i attended, i think i might prolly get into some unforeseen kitchen accidents? lol.i am not exaggerating or finding excuses for my absence (although i know the possibility for the latter is so so high =X) anyway, i didnt regret my decision afterall.coz i know my body really needs sleep.and i hope i dont insomnia tonight again! i had better sleep.if not my conscience is going to feel so terrible for this whole week =X

i have no idea why i yearn to see you everyday.like 24/7.every minute, every second.lol

#447

2010-01-21T01:02:00.003+08:00

i finally had a good sleep.and it's not those 6 or 7 hours straight sleep from night till the morn.it was a short nap from 7.15pm to 9.45pm! after my dinner some more.i feel damn fat.until now, i can still feel my dinner in my stomach.and i seriously feel like jogging to make myself feel less sinful now T.T

actually i am not really concerned over whether i can sleep tonight.since tml i end school at 3.although it's not considered very early for most people, it is the earliest time my school ends.so i am still happy for that.i can like take afternoon nap or whatever.hahah.not forgetting that i must iron my clothes tml.i simply cannot stand crumpled clothing in my cupboard.it just makes me sad ):

finally done up my playlist for my blog.and i updated it for a reason.i know this will sound dumb.but i did it for the sake of listening to music during my computer lab lessons in school.coz i cant stream z100 from my school's computer.i'm not the bloody admin so it doesnt allow me to install the latest adobe flash player.wth.and i am still amazed at the fact that we are still using floppy disk (YES, YOU DID NOT SEE WRONGLY, IT IS FLOPPY DISK) to save up our exercises every week.and i was even tempted to take a photo of the would-be-extinct-floppy disk when i first attended the computer lessons last week.hahah.sooo happy that i'll get some good music during lesson tml.hehheh :p

after today, or maybe i should say yesterday's culinary IS, i think i am not cut out to cook.i am seriously an idiot at cooking.i cant gauge how good a taste it.for me, when i think it's good enough, it's like tasteless to my chef.and to make things worse, my classmates find it tasteless too.i think only i find the soup flavorful.lol.maybe my soup will appeal to the taiwanese who loves to eat food that are not so 重口味 =X why ah.maybe my tastebuds got problems ah.and i dont even know what to add and how much to add to make something taste better.it's so hard.and i couldnt believe that i can feel those salt and sugar crystals at the bottom of the pans when i wash them up.i think i better not cook.or people might just as well be eating spoonfuls of salt/sugar/pepper directly from the respective containers.what a failure can =.= and i seriously feel like vomitting after my lesson today.i think i got an overdose of salt.lol.i am very sad.and i feel bad whenever i cook too.coz i will be wasting so much resources.so not environmental friendly ): those ingredients can be put to better use rather than being wasted under my hands.why cant i cook! dammit.9 more weeks to go and i cant imagine how many ingredients i am gonna waste and how guilty i will be feeling after every lesson T.T

i think i am just a coward who is afraid of failure.

#446

2010-01-19T02:07:00.003+08:00

hurhur.it's 2.10am and i am still awake.shit.i am supposed to be in lalaland now =.= all because of watching ladyg's interview on oprah that my hands got a lil bit itchy and it got me to google.then i happen to chance upon a website with loads of ladyg goodies.lol.and here i am, d/l-ing her monster ball tour dvd videos.lol.and i dont wanna sleep because of that.i think i am gonna be so dead tml =X and the website got loads of her pics.like really pretty ones.LOL

i think i better sleep.got presentation tml and i haven even thought of what to say.terrible.so eggcited to d/l finish the videos and i can watch them tml.teehee.but i cant d/l part II unless i finish d/l-ing part I.irritating =B

anyway ladyg is so cute on oprah.i dont really like her appearance on the interview till she started her performance.and i only like the ending part of the performance.lol.she seems abit frustrated and sad though.i believe it's because she's disappointed with her performance? coz that bloody outfit of hers keep slipping off her shoulders =\ and that kind of affected her.plus she's sick.still got to attend interview and performance.poor thing ): can she like take some good rest? T.T

i really love my baked and chilled cheesecake.lol.although i must admit that i didnt really do a fantastic job with my method.but it's not bad liao ((:

andd i cannot dont post a picture of her @.@

or maybe two.LOL.that's my current hp wallpaper :DD

#445

2010-01-17T19:40:00.002+08:00

it has been bloody long since i last signed in to blogger.so long that the typing box didnt even have my email dropdown when i attempted to sign in.i even hesitated a while trying to recall my pw.lol

i miss taiwan so.i like the environment there, especially how environmental friendly the people are over there.environmental friendliness seems to run in their blood.singaporeans are like "forced" to be instilled with these knowledge since young.and honestly speaking, how many of us practice them in our daily lives.the only thing that's bad about tw, especially in their commercialised states, is the air quality =X

anyway, i am so bent on going to tw again.i shall go there in during my 1week holiday at the end of this term.LOL.and i shall stay there for a week.shop till i shiok.and i wonder - it feels heartwarming to eat piping hot night market snacks in the night.if i go there during march, where it'll be their spring period, i wouldnt enjoy the snacks as much as i did during dec? =X idk.but i miss their nigt market snacks so much.especially their 大肠包小肠 XD

so glad that i dont have school on sat this term! haha.finally a 5day study week.and finally i am able fork out some time for work.it's great to be working.to be able to work for money for my tw trip, and also to gain some experience at the same time.even though it is not really pastry work, i still feel happy to be working in the kitchen.though it's a hot kitchen, i still enjoy it alot.hahah^^

alrights.short entry.no idea when i'll blog again.lol.oh, and i hope ladyg can get well soon! really dont wish to see her working overly hard on herself, and for her little monsters.it pains me ):

#444

2009-12-22T15:06:00.002+08:00

avatar is a cool movie.end your 2009 on a high note by watching this movie.the 3D version will definitely be so much better.although i only watched the 2D version, i was so engrossed in the movie.i can totally feel myself in it.and uh, not embarrassing to say, i nearly teared at certain scenes.it has been quite a long while since i last enjoyed a really good movie.usually i will exit the theatres with those "the movie was alright, ok, kind of feeling".but avatar was really good.maybe sam worthington gave this movie another pluspoint.hahah.as i sit through the two and a half hours, i am beginning to feel attracted to jake sully ((:

and this movie is so metaphoric - in my opinion.i dont know what others feel after watching this movie.but i somehow sense that the movie aptly describes what humans are doing to Earth.it kinds of sadden me when the intelligence of human creates a vast disparity and unfairness when they use machines and explosives to fight naturals.i sound as though i hate myself being a human.lol.but seriously, look at what we have done.everything can be so simple.but it is human greed that is so detestable yet uncontrollable that drives us to harm things around us.what are we actually? hmm *ponders*

oh, did i forget to give credits to the wonderful special effects in the movie? it was awesome.and i really am feeling the urge to catch the movie again, but in 3D version :D

not worth.i believe it is all over.just that this will forever be within me

#442

2009-12-09T20:10:00.002+08:00

survived another term in shatec.lol.did i just make it sound as if studying in shatec is a killer? =X in fact it is.given that we not only have practicals to do, we even had theory to attend to.to a certain extent, i find it tougher that poly life *boinks*

kinda lazy to update my blog for the past weeks/months.not much happening i guess.besides school and more school? i dont really remember.all that i know is my holiday starts tomorrow! seriously i am not very sure how long my holidays is.so i dont even know when is the exact day and date my school reopens.lol.i shall just wait patiently for next term's timetable to be out :D

i am so going to go with my heart this holidays.do whatever shit i wanna do.coz i wont get to enjoy such similar long holidays in the future.and that's very sad leh.i cannot imagine a holiday w/o going overseas.it is the only time i can get out of singapore =X not that i hate singapore, but hmm.maybe i just enjoy the idea of travelling and being in a foreign country where i dont feel stress?

as usual, i intend to bake this holiday too.this is something that i cant be deprived of.lol.and i intend to try alot of funny stuffs too.so that's gonna burn a big hole in my pockets.and sad to announce, my account balance is ZERO now.officially a bankrupt that is not viewed as one under law.coz i've thrown all i have into some stupid investment thinggy that can recover in two years time.thus, i need to find some way to earn money to survive now.how i wish cny can come faster so my angpow money can let me pull through a few months, at least =S

sometimes i wonder if i should go for something i like.but i fear the consequences.if it turns out right, obviously it will be wonderful.but if it doesnt, i am really asking for trouble.given my determination, i know i will hang on if i kickstart it.and i will try, by hook or by crook, to get what i want.tell me it is not naive to believe that where there's a will, there's a way.sincerity can move..even the Gods right? =X

#441

2009-11-20T19:18:00.003+08:00

laughed my ass off while reading the comments on MSN's interview with Ris Low: http://lifestyle.sg.msn.com/commented/article.aspx?cp-documentid=3711344&page=0.

i tried to control my laughter.but i cant help to LOL.hahahhahahah.piang eh.and her ambitions are very entertaining too.hahah.maybe i am one of the sicko netizens who likes to read about her news.but hey, i just happen to chance upon it.i'm more into gg's celebs gossip (:

oh, and her blog is very entertaining too: http://www.lowyimin.com/.now i know where i can go when i need to train my face muscles and probably my abs :D

#440

2009-11-15T18:23:00.001+08:00

so in love, so amazed! hahah.woo! call me crazy.if only happiness can last - for as long as possibleeeeeeeeeeeeeee =\

#439

2009-11-09T20:21:00.002+08:00

so sick and tired.i want nobody but your attention.which makes me wonder if everything i did was for you.and i guess i was living life subconsciously for you all along.so scarily infatuated.you won me hands down, and you never knew that.

#436

2009-10-22T21:28:00.002+08:00

i like epi6 of gg3! so thankful to the person who uploaded the episode to tudou yesterday.so i was able to catch it early in the morning at around 1+a.m. while eating maggi mee.lol.sound so pathetic >.< hmm, no idea why chuck looks so mesmerising in this epi.blair should really be contented with chuck and cherish him.i know she does but i understand how hard it is at times =\ but it is no doubt that blair is in the wrong.i can totally understand the kind of feeling when you get so overwhelmed by emotions to achieve something and unwittingly hurt people around around you.i believe everyone will experience something like this in their lives before.it's not being selfish or what.somehow you get blinded by what you are looking for.and it's just so difficult to explain.maybe we dont expect the consequences? like real.i think we probably do know the consequences.but we try to not think of it or to a further extend, we try to prevent it.in short, i think the 2 words, "overwhelm" and "blinded" are scary.they can really make you do things that are over at times XD

enough of crap.i wanna go watch project runway, antm and simple life.mwahaha.i better wake up for school tml! =X

#435

2009-10-20T13:29:00.003+08:00

1-2-3, cover your nose *huffs and puffs and BLOW away the thick layer of dust*

lol.been so lazy to update lately.and i have the urge to update today.coz i think this is seriously a fcuk up day.i think nobody would believed what happened to me this morning.i seriously wonder how come my alarm tone will be switched to something that is so super soft.so soft until i might as well dont call it an alarm.coz it doesnt ALARM me at all =.=""|||||| and i didnt know that the alarm doesnt work until i overslept again the 2nd time today.WOW.to think i still set the alarm last night at 6.30am.i should have known that if i were to wake up, the sky should be still dark.so will my room.but when i woke up, it is so bright liao.obviously not 6.30am.yet i can still double check my hp to see the time.i literally JUMPED out of my bed when i saw 7.55am.like OMFG?! to be honest i wonder how come i never hear the alarm rang.i remember that i DID set it last night after watching Fringe.i didnt thought much about the alarm.instead i wonder if i should go for the morning practical.if i woke up at 7.30, i confirm chiong down de.lol.but 7.55..unless i dont need to wash face, brush teeth, fold uniform, change in school, maybe i can be punctual.lol.damn sian when i wake up lah.i am like so AWAKE yet i cannot attend practical! i am very sad leh.i wanted to bake so much today >.< and i still dont understand how come my alarm tone is not lady gaga's just dance.i set that as my alarm tone one leh.and i dont think anybody changed it for me? how come it changes to some weird and soft tone.tsk.stupidly cost me an IS.although i intend to crash into group A to make up for the missing practical next week =X i still feel bad though.i wanted to be a good student from today onwards de.seems like God wanna play a prank on me.never mind.i think i am already making good improvements by not playing my HP during AHC today.but chef niwaz..lol.i tried okay.but i cant seem to be attentive.sialah.i am really interested in doing well.LOL.although my actions and behaviours does not seem to tally with my words.hahahaha.that is very sad actually XD but i swear i will attend all the lessons from now on.heh.the least i can do is to be present i guess.and i will try very hard to be attentive.hoho.sometimes i really feel like smacking myself in class.so that i can kind of wake up.lol.but it's just kinda hard.and i dont know why =S

and to make up for my inattentiveness today, i brought back my manuals to study! YAY~ hahah.i swear i will revise later.and i MUST.and hopefully my conscience will feel better =X

#434

2009-10-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

nothing much today.but Chloe just wants to say sorry to all her customers. The unexpected Korean holidays that caused a delay in shipment made her head big last week. Sorry for not replying emails coz having the parcel on my hand and replying emails seems better than saying "I also dont know if they have mailed out the parcel". Not sure if this is the best handling method. Maybe there could be improvements communication wise. I sincerely apologise and i hope my customers can be understanding^^ Schooling is tiring for me. But I will mail out all the items on Monday. Please be patient! One week from now, all of us will be happy kids :D

PS: I know my blogshop is quite dead. I haven been visiting it for the past month.lol.dont even feel like visiting it coz i dread to see how "dead" it is =.=

#433

2009-10-09T22:24:00.001+08:00

What should you do when you feel so sick and tired of something and there is nobody to turn to for help. So sick and tired that you wish to put everything to a stop. But it is just too hard to pretend that nothing has happened. How I wish I can turn back time. I quit. Maybe a simple life will be good.

Feverish Chloe. Just too lazy to see a doctor. If i can, i will sleep my way to recovery. zZz.

#432

2009-10-07T03:58:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey.you wouldnt believe what i'm doing, being still awake at this time.hahahaha.i strongly believe that i had taken too much tiramisu yesterday.the coffee and coffee liquer is still acting in my body *boomz* lol.now you know why i couldnt sleep.LOL

anyway, i was so engrossed in watching mcqueen's paris fashion show just now.thanks to lady gaga of course.hahah! happened to saw her tweet mentioning her new singles premiering on her idol's show.and it's live streaming from the internet summore.but it was so laggy that i couldnt hear a single shit.the entire video was so pixelated.and i know how many millions of people are streaming that particular website.it was pretty much expected that the streaming will crash.why must gaga debut Bad Romance on the fashion show.hurhur.now that i missed it, i cant sleep.my mind is like full of Bad Romance now.is that her marketing technique? if it is, it seriously works on me.hahaha.maybe not just me.coz Bad Romance topped Twitter's most discussed topic chart.and i made some good contributions too.ohmy, how crazy can her little monsters get =X

the thought that gaga's updated twitter on web and streaming the video like i do, totally perks me up.hahahahah.oh, did i forget to mention that mcqueens models are all so STICKTHIN.and they are wearing such killer heels that my eyes are glued to the heels instead of the pieces of art they are wearing.i call them art coz it's full of "PREENS".lol.i can totally imagine what lady gaga's next costume will be.i am so prepared for another shocker @.@ and i cant believe i see some resemblance between queen's design and hers.lol.the power of influence? =\

i wanna hear the actual version so badly.coz her acoustic sounds damn nice! haha.you can hear the chorus of Bad Romance in this video below:

i was actually dumbfounded when the orb hit gaga's face at around 1min.come to think of it, it was actually quite hilarious.ops.maybe i should say *ouch* but her performance was bloody GOOD.ohmy.i think it was her best acoustic? HAHA.please tell me why all her music are sooooo nice.it's like regardless they are sung in acoustic version, or with those disco, techno or whatever beat you call that, they sounded great too.ohdear.so lookin forward to The Fame Monster, 24th Nov ((:

and i watched GG's epi4 too.lol.i think as days pass, i'm beginning to like B more and more.maybe coz i dont like S as much as before.she's not that gorgeous afterall? =X no idea why, but i guess it's how cute B&C are together.hoho.alright, i shall turn in soon.tml's gonna be a looooonnnngggg day.need to bake, need to iron uniform.and oh, if time permits, i will upload my tirami-sai too :P

#431

2009-10-04T21:58:00.005+08:00

cant wait for tml's episode of GG.BC look so cute together! and i wonder why chuck and vanessa are couple in RL =\ but i'm happy that Dan and Serena are together in RL.coz i love to see them together in GG XD although they cant be together in the serial as they are "siblings" now ):

baked today.lol.u didnt see wrongly.i had the urge to bake in the afternoon.thus i went out to buy some hotdogs and baked hotdog buns.and my mum wants me to clear the cornflakes too.thus, i baked cornflake cookies using school's recipe.i think it turns out so much better than our own recipe =X i need to start baking my fruit cake soon.lol.probably some day in this coming week.then i can complete bernard's project report ((:

hotdog buns and red bean buns

cornflake cookies

and some other products that i've baked this week:
my ugly icebox cookies.a pity i cant try baking that at home.if exam is testing this, i hope i can make really pretty ones :D

chocolate spongecake for my blackforest cake.i like the diamond design on top.LOL.it is not done on purpose.it just happen to have that design when i overturn it twice at different times on the cooling rack XD

blackforest cake after creaming, piping and decoration.loves! so proud of my end product.just the thought that i did up the entire cake makes the cake so delectable XD

how the cake looks in the inside

i cant wait to try baking more cakes with different flavours.but first, i need to know where to buy the vivo topping cream! lol.already having some stupid ideas running inside my head.mwahaha :D

hot kitchen tml.arghs.i can foresee myself perspiring like mad in the kitchen tml *wonders what we'll be learning and cooking tml.hmm*

#430

2009-09-29T21:16:00.003+08:00

stepping into the hot kitchen this semester.honestly speaking, i have never expected myself to be cooking desserts inside the hot kitchen.i thought pastry and baking will be all about cakes, breads, pastries, cookies and all the baked stuffs.gula malacca (melaka), keuh dudok (i realise i dont know how to spell this dessert), and more other asian desserts will be learnt this semester.interesting huh? i think it's really another aspect of pastry and baking which i have never ever thought of.but i know hot/culinary kitchen is really not for me.i can really die perspiring inside the kitchen, standing in front of the stove, cooking things.seriously, i am so glad that my passion is in baking.at least the pastry kitchen is airconditioned.lol.aircon is my life man.haha.been having ice kacangs for 2 consecutive days to cool myself down.and somehow, the auntie likes to make super mountainous ice kacangs for me.scary, but i like :D

i realise i didnt take any photos for the 2 items i cooked yesterday.kitchen too hot for me to relax and take photos liao.and the umm..lol.i better not comment.hahaha.maybe those items wouldnt look very nice on photos unless there are some sort of plating bah.delicious can liao.haha!

then this morning, we have another new practical module.elaborate sweets and dessert if i not wrong.lemon meringue tarts.sounds yummy right? but i think the lemon tastes so much like some sort of detergent.and while i was bathing just now, i realise that the smell of the lemon curd is the same as my hair conditioner.and i feel damn gross whenever i recall how i ate the tart @.@ i think technology is so advanced these days that companies can really extract the essence of fruits and incorporate them inside their products to make them more appealing to customers.somehow i wonder if things might go overboard at times.if the smell is so similar, it feels abit abit..i duno how to describe in words.it's just arghs, you know.lol.anyway, photos more important.haha.i like the baked meringue! it's niceeee :D next week, tiramisu! woo~ i like mascarpone cheeese, omg.lol

lemon meringue tarts

my plating.it's ugly.i know i need more practise >.<

this is a new squishy i bought today.it is not the squishy i wanna get actually =\ i think that the 扭蛋 machine cheated my feelings.the squishy i got isnt on the photo of the 扭蛋 machine.but the more i look at it, the cuter it looks.but i still wish to try my luck again tomorrow.i wanna get that pure white and cute squishy.mwahaha XD

icantwaittogetthetbparcelonsat!woot!

#429

2009-09-27T21:05:00.003+08:00

believe it or not, i am looking forward to school tomorrow.haha.so looking forward to school that i just baked some apple tarts and a new creation, apple custard tarts.now i realise what chef meant by "you can put anything you like, as long as you dare to eat".

a few days back, when i ironed my uniform, i forgot about my nametag =.= i am pretty lazy to iron it on now.maybe i will sew it on my uniform if i have the mood later.lol =X or wait till next weekend then i iron and sew :D

i cant wait to see how this week will turn out to be.hopefully not as hectic as i expect it to be.and lesser projects please! >.<

#428

2009-09-26T02:32:00.002+08:00

gayness.just saw my timetable for the coming semester not long ago.woo! it is worse than last sem! haha.please call me god after i survive the next 10gruelling weeks.i am like so afraid of school now.i dread recalling how i pass my pass 10weeks of school.i hate it when i cant sit down, relax, and watch an hour of teevee everyday.lol.not exaggerating.it's true! and i am so glad that i have finally finished watching gossip girl season one and two, catching up with season 3 which is still airing in US now.and my mum thought i was crazy chasing the seasons for the past 3days.if i dont, i doubt i will have the time to watch when school reopens.and i dont wanna snowball all the dramas and shows i wanna watch till the next holidays.i will be way tooo looonnnng for me to take it.hahah

but the idea that i will be learning how to bake danish just makes me so eggcited for school.ironic huh.i'm just too much a fan for danish.hahha.i cant wait to bake them and eat them up! LOL.i sound like some psycho >.<

i cant believe that i choked up 14items during 2hours of taobao.if i were to buy them all, i swear i wont buy anything else for the rest of the year.LOL.they shall last through christmas and umm..probably CNY.oh, why didnt i win the 9.7million toto draw just now?! XD

#427

2009-09-24T21:40:00.003+08:00

i am sooooooo addicted to GG now.hahah.am chionging it so i can catch up with the current season which is showing in the US now (: watching teevee has become part of my life again.haha, wow.all thanks to holidays! i know all these will come to an end when school reopens.like arghs =\

tangxinfengbao.project runway, antm, and top chef later.and i guess i still intend to chiong gg after that.already at season two episode 5.yes.i cant wait to watch season 3 tomorrowwww.but i wont be home tml.sad.somehow, i am so afraid that i cant finish watching gg by the end of this week.i know that sounds dumb.but i am indeed feeling that way now.if i cant finish, i dont feel like baking! lol! shit.once i start on something, i need to finish it.is that something good? or bad >.<

why cant holidays be 2 weeks?!

#426

2009-09-22T18:40:00.003+08:00

i amazingly killed a cockroach today.lol.and i'm kind of proud of that.hahah.coz it's the first time i killed a cockroach by whacking it with a baton.mwahaha.i dont know where i got the courage to kill the cockroach though.coz i dont even dare to kill a cockroach even when i happen to see one in the middle of the night, in my kitchen, when i am hungrily looking for food.lol.i will just curse and swear that stupid roach, return to my room, and force myself to sleep =X

maybe i'm afraid that it will hinder my baking session.lol.and i'm the only one at home at that time.so arghs, i have no choice but to kill it.and i cant possibly spray the pesticide coz it is wrong to spray that at that time =.= already halfway through my baking session.bread is out and i am about to knead my tart dough -.-" stupid cockroach coming out to tour at the wrong time of the day sia.you not only gave me a big shock, your stupid tour also cost you your life.hahha.but be proud of it! coz you are the first cockroach that die under my hand XD but if i happen to see another cockroach in the kitchen again, i doubt i will ever have the courage to kill it.unless..i am halfway through baking again XD

red bean sweet buns again.but it's a lil different today.coz i modified the recipe =X i wanna try to see if something works.haha.and amazingly, it does! *using cornflour does makes your bread softer (:* and i find if much more delicious too XD

next is custard tart.lol.a new recipe.not bad leh.quite nice.i think it tastes nicer than eggtarts =X the custard recipe is from phoonhuat.and the tart shell recipe is from school de.now i have alot of the tart dough.i think the dough will be able to bake me around 12tarts per day until school reopens @.@

finally got the delayed taobao parcel today.omfg.went i saw the parcel, i really thought i saw gold bars.lol.maybe even more than that.totally happy beyond words.i am so going to clear this batch of orders.drag for so bloody long.drag until i also very sian and tired.zz

#425

2009-09-21T15:41:00.003+08:00

baked muffins last night.haha.chocochip banana muffins^^ it's yummyyyyyy.omg.haha :D

my uncle won 30k for 4D last night.lol! i think it is really true that when your close ones pass away, you get to stike 4D by buying your unit no. and stuffs.my grandparents stay with my uncle mah.haha.and it's not the first time le.previously it was toto.and another aunt of mine strike 4D last night too.2k.see the big diff between buying from government and from private.lol.supposed to have pasta tonight.and bake tarts too.but they are gonna throw some celebration tonight.so yea, yew tee has really became my second home XD if i not wrong, tonight toto 1.5mill.i guess everyone chionged for it.LOL

shall bring some muffins over to let my relatives try too.heh.can clear stocks at the same time XD woo~!

#424

2009-09-20T14:49:00.003+08:00

baked alot of things yesterday.LOL.and i am so tired to bake today XD in fact i wanna have some good rest.got more important things to settle on hand too =X

so gladddd to be able to eat sweet buns again! with red bean paste in it some more.hahaha.i finally knew where clementi's phoonhuat is.hoho.went all the way down to clementi to purchase all the ingredients yesterday morning.as usual, it rained =.= got myself a little drenched and earned myself a fugly scar on my left knee.grr.and ironically, it is damn sunny today.wth.zZz.but all the effort was worthwhile afterall.i enjoyed baking! :D

red bean sweet buns!

choc coffee bun

choc chip banana bread recipe cake? LOL

choux pastry

my mum's fruitcake

and i am constantly eating the buns and cakes lah.cannot resist the temptation whenever i walk past them in the kitchen.LOL.very sinful but too delicious to resist liao sia.to think i intend to make everyone around me fat.i scared it will turn out the other way.shit.that is why i need to incorporate exercise in my life liao.hahahha.but most of it went to my grandpa's house last night.teehee.felt such a great sense of satisfaction when i see the smiles on my relatives and cousins' faces.hahah.i think baking is really my life.without it i cannot survive @.@

i was sooooo super tired last night/this morning.lol.but i still manage to bathe and eat 2 buns before i fall flat on my bed at dawn.hahaha.seriously i thought i will just go to sleep straightaway.but i stink so badly.first time i wanted to sit down so badly coz my legs were tired! haha.it's the first time i complain that my legs were tired.it's either i'm old liao or i think i seriously need some fcking exercise.hahahha =X

and i wake up pretty early today? not as shag as i thought.maybe coz i need to settle some bs things.i think after this week, i will be less shag liao.all the taobao items will reach this coming week.lucky it's holiday now.i will have more than enough time to organise, pack and mail everything out.i feel so damn bad for the delay.stupid customs stuff.anyway, it will be the last one.so i dont have to fear that the customs will ever confiscate my stuffs again.scary experience.i even dread thinking of the word Customs now.thankyou taobao >.<

i am wondering how i will look like 90days days later.my hair will be superrrr long! haha.maybe go for a good haircut after 90days.LOL.unless super long hair looks nice on me XD

#423

2009-09-19T00:05:00.001+08:00

919.hahahaha.to think i was kind of upset over this day a few days back.maybe i was really too drained out over the past week.so much so that i was unable to think logically XD but i am such a happy girl now that mmm, i cannot describe how light my heart is now.maybe having holidays does play a big part in my mood too.oh i hope i dont get upset when next week comes to an end =X

the crazy me has calculated all the weights of the ingredients that i need to use for this coming holidays.and i am so going to purchase them all tomorrow.hahah.planned out my schedule for the week and there will be 4 baking days.maybe i will include more items.so it will be a packed week.hehe.let everybody around me eat until fat.LOL.can satisfy my cravings at the same time too.lolol.i think it is such a joy to bake for people to eat.hope everything goes smoothly~ i think i will just exercise and bake this holidays.LOL.and also get my daily dose of Straits Times, Today and WoBao.haha.lead back a week of retirement days before i face another 10 gruelling weeks of school.ARGHS =\

happen to chance upon a really niceee song by lady gaga.haha.maybe not really chance upon.i purposely go youtube and listen to all her songs de =X anyway, all her songs are nice.maybe not all, but MAJORITY.lol.maybe i am bias.i only spam her songs on my HP, media player and even online.lol.okay, sidetracked.that song is called Wonderful.i have added that song to my blog playlist too.you can browse for it ((: lyrics below!

If I fell in love with you
Would you understand me, dear
Love is weird

I colored you a valentine
Struggled just to stay inside the lines
I lose my mind

I really can't believe
I lost myself again

Looking for something crazy
Beautiful love and now
I'm talking in circles again
Have my love, baby
Are you hungry for wonderful
'Cause I am, 'cause I am

I wrote a song about your eyes
Ate a slice of cherry pie
I cried all night

On the bench inside the park
I'll kiss you slowly in the dark
I'll never stop

I really can't believe
I lost myself again

Looking for something crazy
Beautiful love and now
I'm talking in circles again
Have my love, baby
Are you hungry for wonderful
'Cause I am, 'cause I am

Baby take me for a ride
Maybe get a little high
In a place we've never been
Time is nothing but a line
We leave everything behind
It'd be so wonderful, wonderful

Looking for something crazy
Beautiful love and now
I'm talking in circles again
Have my love, baby
Are you hungry for wonderful
'Cause I am, wonderful 'cause I am

and something cute i saw at HMV on thursday.hahaha.i didnt know the comic version of lady gaga can be so kawaii^^

it's the comic version of her paparazzi oufit.lol.i kind of fell in love with her paparazzi MV now.it's NICEEE.youtube it! haha.but there are alot of versions out there.the one i like is the original version.the one that starts with her spiralling.not the one on the bed =.=

haha.okay.i am done for my post.the purpose is just to share the cute lady gaga pic above.LOL!

how funny is that when i am totally engrossed in watching tangxinfengbao when my family is embroiled in a quarrel @.@ i am totally not trying to get involved in it.lol.somehow i find them quite childish.even my parents can.i totally silenced their voices out from my ears to listen to my chen hao and zhong jia xin.LOL.seriously, why make life so hard -.- and the funny thing is, i am sitting on the sofa, directly in the middle of their quarrels, where voices are flying around above my head.pretty amazed that i can totally bochap them.haha!

#422

2009-09-18T16:57:00.002+08:00

sian man.i didnt bake today! hahaha.raining so damn heavily and i was super lazy to carry an umbrella out to shop for ingredients =X if only it wasnt raining.maybe i will be enjoying sweetbuns now instead of blogging.lol.but nevermind.there is tomorrow.can accompany my mum go grocery shopping and bake with her in the morning or afternoon? got a feeling that she'll go down my uncle's house tml to visit my grandfather.i hope she'll visit him at night.then can bring some goodies over to let my grandfather try.hahah.tml die die must pull my mum out with me.lol.then she will pay for all the expenses.hahahhaha.ops.plan exposed XD

yea man.closing another preorder tonight.then can relax until the batch arrives le.good.most probably wont be having another one until...i see how is my schedule for next term? if it's busy busy, i dont think i will do another preorder until my school term ends bah.and that will be like december? lol =X

ok.meeting customers later.i think i will drop by ntuc and shop and save to source for ingredients.a pity i cant bake tonight.coz my mum needs the kitchen to cook.if not both of us will quarrel over limited space.LOL.actually i dont mind baking during midnight (since it's the last day of ghost month today).but people will think i'm siao.haha.shall see how.since i brought my toolbox home, i can do anything i like lo.hehheh :p

english sux today.i dont even know what i am writing.lol! dont care.holidays is all that matters now^^

#421

2009-09-17T20:33:00.003+08:00

i am finally feeling so much better today (: i think going out to get some fresh air and having some form of window shopping therapy does work on me.great :D or maybe the idea that holiday is nearing cheers me up too.hahah.are promises meant to be broken? i dont wanna swear that i wont cry over some issues again.coz experience tells me that my promises will break some day =X but i will try^^ be it 5years or 10years.and if i ever get sad again, please remind me to visit entry #421.hopefully i can laugh it off and it will bring a smile to my face.lol.and being at the floating platform area today really makes me feel happy somehow.reason? hahah, it's lame XD

seriously speaking, i am already in holiday mood now.not that i do not treat my english paper tml with high regard.but hmm..i dont know how to study for english? though the passive, active stuffs are tough, i intend to just try my luck out tml.as long as the sentences sound logical, they should be fine i guess? and i intend to bake choux pastry tml! teehee.omg.so excited to bake can.haha.tml will also be the opening ceremony of my kenwood mixer ((: ohmy, i cant wait :D

tangxinfengbao is starting soon.lol.addicted to that drama liao.chenhao and zhongjiaxin! woo~ but before that, i wanna read Today and WoBao.bloodyhell long never read newspapers liao can.i need some world and singapore updates desperately.i dont even know what's going on around me for the past 10weeks.sheesh -.-

#420

2009-09-16T23:45:00.002+08:00

闷。didnt really have the mood to study for exams this time round.i feel so bad.wanted to excel in this so much but i guess i didnt really put in much effort.i'm so drained out everyday for the past week.zz.maybe if all is well, things could be better? i dont know.i cant wait for holidays.i need it terribly.and somehow, i wish to get some calm and peace somewhere.somethings that could make me really smile.haha.i hope i will get better and happier this weekend^^ i am actually looking forward to that.omg.haha.maybe cause you dont really know what happened XD

went to the crematorium to picked up my grandma's ashes (or rather bones).all my cousins have school today or they are still young.i'm the only present grandchild besides the eldest grandson and my aussie cousin.she's having her period, so she cant do the rituals with us.for the past 6days or so, i have learnt and see so much of the tradition chinese funeral customs.and heard so much about some superstitions and rumours too.it's interesting and it is definitely an eyeopener.grandma has moved to a nice home at the cck columbarium.it's a pretty place.honestly speaking, i kind of like that place =X so solemn and peaceful.i could fall asleep so easily there XD unexpectedly, we passed by the police academy on our way there.kinda shocked that i will pass by the academy.didnt expect it to be located at such a ulu area? hmm.

so much things to NOT do for the next 90+days.after some calculations, my next holiday celebration will be christmas.wont even get to celebrate mid autumn festival.my favourite mooncakes T.T ironically, my parents already went in msia a month ago and bought some back for us to eat le (: i feel like baking.HAHA.i know it's crazy.i intend to bake almost everyday during my hols? mwahaha.i can see myself enjoying baking everyday next week.lol.and i need to exercise badly! cant believe i ate so much lately XD food served there are too delicious to resist uh.i believe that next week will be a better week for me.i dont really have enthusiasm in things i do now.so deaddd..tsk

보고싶다.i realise my korean is damn pte ltd.i feel so sorry to mr.kwon XD

#419

2009-09-15T03:26:00.003+08:00

睡不着的我，突然好想到博客写篇文章。而我也突然心血来潮，想用中文来写篇文章。回想起以前的我，是多么的喜欢华文，喜欢写作文。但是如果要我现在拿起笔写作的话，恐怕我的词汇，用词等等都会非常地局限。也应该会有很多错字吧 -.-

不晓得为什么，每当我睡不着，我都会想起一些事。一些我不晓得为何还存留在我脑海里的事。已经快要有六年前的事了。准确一点，多四天后，就是六年了。真不敢相信，都已经过了那么久了，为什么还是一样...而每次只会安慰人家的我，好像并不懂得怎么实践给予人家的劝导。真是逊。但时间毕竟有淡化一切。至少并没有以前来得糟糕？但有时是会想想，要是六年前没碰面的话，一切是否都会不一样了呢？可是，没出息的我好像宁可选择碰面喔。有时我觉得自己还真的喜欢自做虐。虽然很傻，但是就是想要傻下去。或许是一种坚持吧。但老实说，我也不晓得自己在坚持着什么。或许是一种无法接近，无法拥有，无法疼惜的心态，让我如此的坚决。如果说我能把这份坚决用在其他比较有“价值”的东西上，那该有多好。应该会很好。因为那是在于我要不要那么做而已。

有些事情是一种习惯。这世界上因该很少有两全其美的事。虽然很想拥有两种世界，但是我知道自己再怎么努力都做不到的。我不晓得如果自己再一次的努力会得到自己想要的东西吗。可是，心里的感觉是说“不”。因为我有太多的因为，如果，跟顾虑了。想说只要自己做自己要做的东西，生活因该会比较自由自在，比较没有烦恼，比较开心吧。

这几天我感觉到了人生地无常。疲惫的心，应该要放开心胸，看开眼界 (:

#418

2009-09-12T13:46:00.001+08:00

trying to blog with my samsung jet now.hahaha.tooo omfg bored.i am going to have a shag upcoming week.sad.anyway, just wanna share that my grandma had just passed away during her sleep two nights ago.i will be strong, and i have to be coz this coming week is my final theory exams.i cant wait to get some good rest during my 1week holis.it should be 4days to be exact.will be working during f1 period.hee.earn some pocket money and gain some good experience at the same time.alright.crappy entry.i am just toooo bored -.-

#417

2009-09-10T21:54:00.004+08:00

feeling moody today.somebody bloody hell fuked up my day.some people think they are god.they are so bloody good that people wanna sabo them and see how they fall.yearight.i dont even wish or want to have any bloody fuk thing to do with such people.i dont even want to be related to such people or even their things can.do you see me playing WOW? do you see me even want to play PSP? not in the least interested please.i tell you.even if there is a possibility that i will get addicted to them, i wont even attempt to try them out okay

i know people tend to dig out the past when they are frustrated.i admit i do that too.lol.but seriously, why pull me down the water when i have bloody NOTHING to do with what has happened.i am the innocent party okay.so much so that i was so angry that i couldnt sleep last night lah.you think being angry is king liao issit.please, dont scold or blame people for no fuck reason.are you trying to tell me that i need to compensate for things happened 10 bloody years ago? if i need to, TELL ME IN THE FACE.for fuck you complain and try so hard to wake the entire family up.i bet you knew we werent asleep.or maybe you thought i was sleeping and thus you made such irresponsible comments.funny issit? i pitied your plight last night okay.if not i will just storm out and bicker with you liao.i will just throw money at your face.if you think money is so important in life.but i hesitated because i think my money is more worth to open my bakery in the future than doing some useless compensation.not that i cannot understand how you feel.but since you paid so much for security in WOW, you just email them and they definitely can do their best to help you what.what for stirring up such a big hooha? i dont understand leh.really.let those idiots do some work lah.you dont pay them for nothing right.and what really pissed me is backstabbing sia.you think people really wanna sabotage you meh.for fuck sia.really, for fuck! i dont need to sabotage people.i can do better myself.i will do better.at least i will STRIVE to do better.and i dont really care about your life or death.i dont have time for that anyway

and seriously, i really hope to see 2 idiots killing each other at home today if i'm not at home.i think i might get some peace w/o them at home.two retards, two idiots.no use calling me to keep tabs on them.coz i dont wanna get involved in their shit.i might be a good alibi or eyewitness today.but not a mediator.sorry.

frustrations aside, my practicals sucked last evening.marble cake and wholemeal bread was kns.totally =.=|| and i know what is lacking - the feel.hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.lazy to upload pictures.i am so going to buy a harddisk this comex.i wanna transfer everything out from my lappie's HD.a bloody wols lappie pisses me off coz it takes sooooo bloody long for me to open applications sia.can really vomit blood sometimes

fortunate to be able to get drowned in music.status? what are we? truth? i cant deny. honesty? i lied. why? for fear. regrets? no.

#416

2009-09-07T19:41:00.002+08:00

after much consideration, i have decided to open the next preorder afterall.lol.since school holis is coming, i reckon that i will have more time for my BS.heh.and seriously, focusing on the preorder alone is enough.no more opened taobao sprees for me.hahaha.woo! XD

baking mousse cake tml.haha.abit excited leh.but i'm more looking forward to my practical exams this week.choux pastry, butter cake (meringue method) and wholemeal bread.as i am typing those words, i am feeling a tinge of nervousness within my body.haha.i hope something chould be done to the grouping though.3person a table is really too much le lah.summore there are so many things to do leh.i cannot imagine 3 people sharing a machine.time is so crucial? >.< have been consoling myself that it will be a challenging test for me.but..i rather not want my finals to be screwed because of such "challenges" =X

saturday night was funn.hahah.but cant live this kind of life frequently sia.or my pocket will have alot of holes.LOL.maybe just relax at one place can liao.for e.g. sitting by clarke quay is also a good way to relax and pass time.wahaha :D

how i wish i can control some things in life.hmm..

#415

2009-09-04T22:59:00.004+08:00

i seriously feel like piaking myself.i am supposed to be memorising and rehearsing my speech.but i cant seem to concentrate.mygod.summore the speech will be brought forward to 11am tml.that means lesser time to memorise and rehearse.hurhur.i think i am so dead can >.<

and i am itching to start another geo lens preorder.lol.somehow i can sense some excitement =X but it is quite terrible when there are so much orders to handle.even i myself get confused.not to say those people in korea, handling so many different batches orders.somemore i dont only send in one batch of order.i send in quite alot =.= and i think my orders really make their heads bigger.lol.and i bet i'm the most troublesome customer they have ever met >.< seriously supplying is the worse thing that you might ever consider doing.being a middle-woman is not that easy.some of you might not be able to understand what i am trying to put across here.lol.i think it is really hard to put what i feel into words unless you really stand in my shoes.then you know what i mean.my dad says he wants to takeover my BS.coz he thinks i'm too stressed out liao =X but i am pretty lazy to teach him the procedures.it's something that uhh, cant be taught? it should be observed, learnt and built up de bah.i also trial and error from the start.and i really dont wish to end it =\ it's like trusts being built up with customers.and all the effort i have put in all this while.not to say that my dad wont be able to do a good job.but..somethings are better to be done personally (:

andddd.my taobao is really &^*&#$%$^&^.i heard from my agent that my parcel will reach me on thursday.yes.after this thurs, i will gain freedom.wont be organising taobao sprees anymore.i will just do taobao for my friends, family and myself.it is so hard to coordinate the sprees sia.and i am pretty amazed that i completed quite a few of it.lol

enough of rantings.hahahah.suddenly, my heart felt lighter leh.coz i cant really explain my troubles with my BS to people.can you imagine me telling my parents all these.they will be like O.o they will just make my head even bigger.lol.i shall stop giving myself troubles and problems.lol.no more taobao = no more headache.mwahaha :D

some photos again.lol.we had some art lesson during IS today.hahah.i think my piping is ugly.not being humble or whatsoever.i dont know if my expectations are too high or what.but in my eyes, they aren't pretty at all -.- dont ask me why.coz my eyes feel that way =\

my flowers.lol.i cant really call them roses coz they dont look like one XD but i am happy with my creations leh.lol.pretty can liao right? dont really have to be roses? T.T (From right to left: 1st try; 2nd try; 3rd try)

with leaves

maybe if you wonder how roses should look like, these are done by chef bernard (:

#414

2009-09-03T22:15:00.005+08:00

yay~~ i managed to mail out most of the lenses today.left with 5 more to mail out tml.coz i ran out of envelopes today @.@ so happy that i am clearing everything on hand now.i wanna get a good holiday.shouldn't let myself be so preocuppied with stuffs all the time (: but...taobao is really giving me headache.SIGHHHH ):

and i am super sad.coz i lost my pizza dough and wholemeal bread recipes.i remember putting it on the table leh.or i subconsciously threw it away with some trash paper on the table a few days back..i dont know sia.it is totally gone.and i am so depressed.coz i got write alot of notes on it! sigh.the feeling is totally different when you copy down somebody else's recipe =\ i miss that paper of mine soo much that i search for it everytime i walk past my table (even when i know it isnt there).i just hope that it will popout of nowhere somehow =X and i keep thinking about it.tsk.so much so that i couldnt stay still to memorise my speech for saturday.i'm so dead can.recipe! can you please dont play hide and seek with me anymore..i really cant remember whether i threw it away or not.mygod.why cant i remember i single shit! >.<

anyway, baked walnut raisin bread on tues and soft rolls and quiche yesterday.will be learning to pipe words and make maziparn (i dont know how to spell it) roses tml.fun! machiam like art lesson liddat.looking forward to playing in the kitchen tml! teehee :DD

alright.some pictures before i end my post off (:

walnut raisin bread
-final proofing-

-baked product-

-sliced product-

soft rolls
-super big dough for the entire class-

-you know how "big" it is when you compare it with our 2share quiche dough @.@-

-baked product-

quiche
-resting tart dough-

-half baked tart shells-

-end product-

#413

2009-08-30T23:36:00.002+08:00

OHYES! i think i can finally wear contacts tml.mwahaha.so guai of me to wear my specs these 3days ok.all because of the stupid yanzhen! arghs.i also get that.not unusual for me >.< mahaha.and i think these 3days are not wasted.coz it gave my eyes a good rest from the constant wearing of contact lenses for the past 2months.mehehe.although i can still feel a bump on my left eyelid, it is already not as swollen as it is on thursday already :D

after surviving this coming week, i can relax and have some good fun already.mwahaha.coz all the projects will be done by then.mwahaha.then what's left will just be exams.i cant wait for this gruelling week to be over.cant wait.omg XD

this is such a random post =.=

#412

2009-08-28T20:50:00.004+08:00

mwahaha.good news! my FB account was finally returned to me :DDD i bet my mails end up in their junkmail or something like that.this matter would still be unresolved if i hadnt mail them with another email address of mine >.< glad that my account is back and yea, i shall not anyhow spam comments again.they said i "spamed" too much.mm, did i? all i did was to upload my baked goodies and lady gaga videos before i got banned.arghs =.=

anyway, i feel so GOOD today.haha.2projects are cleared this week.YES.lol.left with 3more to go and 3more presentations.haha.then 4 theory exams and practical exam.seems like alot huh? and there's only 3 weeks left.i have never had such a stressful 10weeks in my life before.seriously, O's canont be compared to this.neither are my poly days.i am totally amazed that i can pull this through.what doesnt kill me, only make me stronger.haha.i totally agree with that now.and i remember that was what felicia told me during my wintertime attachment.it's a very good motivational phrase that always remind me to hang on.hahah.serious :D

baked pizzas today.but i couldnt eat them.all thanks to the "pimple" under my eyelid.heatiness ): i think i deserve it.who ask me to eat so much and drink so little water lately.i ought to be punished.but i find this punishment way too harsh >.< i rather get another burnt bruise from the iron =X coz i really couldnt stand the sight of my red and swollen left eye.hurhur.poor eyes.i know i have not been taking good care of you.i'm a bad girl ):

i've also baked bread earlier this week! sandwich bread and wholemeal bread.hehe.prettttyyyy looking breads.i love! especially the wholemeal bread.smells so nice and feels so soft! i bet it's due to the milk that's in the recipe.hahah.lovvveeee milk.omg.seelah, how can i not get heatiness from eating all those baked goodies for 8consecutive weeks.lol.i seriously dont dare to stand on the weighing machine now.i dowan to see how much weight i've put on *dreads* i am so sure that i'll be doing some running at the bball court area tml.haha.since some of my classmates will be playing bball there.i should be doing some good form of exercise too.so that i can feel less sinful XD

alright.craps aside, it's photos time again.haha.enjoy!^^

my pretty sandwich bread with a crispy top! :D

soft on the inside^^

chocolate coffee buns! mass production again.LOL

my pretty and very delicious wholemeal bread :D

baked pizza dough

after putting all ingerdients

yummy pizza! although i didnt eat them, i know they tastes good.from all the positive comments i receive.lol.please left eye, recover tml! XD

why are you held up at the customs..please let it through >.<

#411

2009-08-23T15:34:00.002+08:00

finally finished my speech progress test 1 yesterday :D and one project is down! hoho.but another project is going to due soon for the same module.arghs.must work on it again.lol.all the project deadlines are coming.mygod.they are even scarier than..than...some things that we do not wish to see in the night now.lol.just kidding.i'm trying to say that i am not looking forward to seeing those deadlines.so much things to do with so little time left ):

1mth from now, i will be free from all troubles.lol.i must really go on a hiatus and break free from everything that i'm so tied up with now.i MUST get a breather somewhere.feel like screaming at the sea, watching sunset, and waiting for time to pass by at the seaside.lol.i strongly believe that i am too stress liao.coz these are things that i wont usually think of doing.hahahah.woo! i'm going crazy soon! i want a hell load of time! XD

#410

2009-08-21T21:36:00.009+08:00

baked cream puffs and eclairs again today.haha.i must admit that i'm so proud of my products today.so much so that i am so eager to upload the photos to share and blog on them! haha! also because i'm abit free now lah.i seriously wanna put an end to my BS liao.so sick of running sprees.especially taobao.coz of communications with the agent, the customs, and most importantly, EMS.the shipping and delivery sux to the core man.DHL is way much better.i finally understand what is 一分钱一分货.you got to pay a high price for efficient and excellent service dont you.sigh.and there are problems with the current taobao batch.sickening leh.delaying for so long le.now customs also wanna join in the trouble.i feel so bad towards all my customers now.and it's kinda hard to explain to them too.grr.really inviting trouble to myself when i'm already so packed with schoolwork.i really want to destress >.< ok, enough of rantings.i just wanna get some things off my chest.feel so much better now (: photos time!

beginning from what i baked last week.lol.apple strudels, peach tarts and napoleans.IMO, they are not very pretty ):

and i am so crazy with lady gaga that i carved out her name on my puffs! lol.take a look at them.i lurve tuna so much sia.omg.tuna puff is damn delicious! <3<3<3

tuna puffs and fruit purses (:

and the bonus redbean bun and tuna bun *melts* notice the melted cheddar cheese on the tuna bun! i totally love sweetbuns! especially when there's tuna inside.omg.red bean is my favourite too.hahahah.i love baking sooooo MUCH! and i love eating them too *munch munch*

earlier this week, we baked curry puffs and hotdog puffs.hateee curry puffs.coz they are spicy and i cant eat them when it's done.LOL.luckily there is hotdog puffs for me to eat.lol.my mood is totally kns on monday lah.haha.and i miss my tuna puffs soooo much ): but the hotdog puff is so damn filling sia.coz we wrap 2 hotdogs inside.and the puff is so damn big.it took me around 45mins to finish the entire puff? and vivid was like saying:"chloe still eating the same puff ah?" ya, too big and too filling le >.<

triangular curry puffs and rectangular hotdog puffs.this is taken by Samsung Jet.haha.the above photos are all taken with my mum's hp, SE W660i (:

i realise that i should be fair to all my babies.so here comes my creampuffs and eclairs yesterday.damn shit i know.please bear with them before you scroll down more to see the puffs i baked today.lol =X look at how ugly the swans are..everything is ugly actually.i feel damn emo yesterday lah.i feel super sad.hence, you can see how depress i am in my post yesterday T.T

creampuffs and eclairs are damn easy to bake btw.so we got so much time left to bake curry buns and hotdog rolls after that.teehee.love the hotdog rolls! but not the curry buns.spicy again =.=

curry buns with cheddar hotdog rolls

curry buns with parmesan hotdog rolls

more curry buns

machiam like mass production of buns.lol

ok! the highlight for today! haha.my beloved creampuffs and eclairs^^ just compare and you'll see how much better they are today.practise do make perfect (:

when it's in the oven

pipinghot pretty puffs!

sliced puffs w/o fillings

eclairs coated with chocolate

CREAM-ed puffs.haha.we made mango flavoured cream today! *lurves* and we made it to orange-pinkish color.hahaha.preettty :D

pretty swans! my swan heads and bodies are damn kns yesterday.today's one appeals to my eyes.haha.and machiam like mass production today too.alot of swans and creampuffs XD it's so pretty.i like^^

this is the super fat jumbo swan darius piped for me.lol.i finished it up okay! haha.yummy leh.LOL.but damn fattening =X like a megazord-swan.lol!

that's all folks.long entry with aplenty of photos.hahah.shall do project now! (:

p.s. FB really dont intend to return me my account.haha.so sad.i shall be FB-less now.until further notice (:

#409

2009-08-20T20:11:00.002+08:00

omg.i have been sooooooooooooooo lazy to update my blog recently.lol.it is pretty dead now.hahahha.actually i cant really say i'm lazy.cant really seem to allocate time to blog.lol.i sounded really "busy" =X constantly feeling lethargic.dont know if i'm too stressed out or what.i think i am really capable of pushing myself to my limits.luckily i'm a human being.if i'm a robot, i think i will die of overheating and simply breakdown XD

changed my HP to Samsung Jet on sunday.loving it!:D now i can take as much photos as i liek coz i got 2GB internal memory.mwahaha.and it's free of photos taken in the past too.hehheh.now i'm still trying to get myself accustomed to maneuvering the camera.i must attain the highest level of powerful camwhoring techniques with this new hp.lol.still abit noob using it now.arghs.and i dont have much chances and time to camwhore sia.abit hard to practise =.=

talking about photos, i am reminded of my disabled FB account.YAY-ness.or rather i should say GAY-ness.stupid FB really hates me ALOT.they have banned me from posting comments, desabled my account numerous times ever since last month.and now, 2 days ago, they suddenly lock me out and shut my account.it totally POOF-ed into thin air.my friends and classmates cant even see my profile, not to mention my photos and comments.so irritating can.and i have NO IDEA why my account got disabled.no emails, no warning, no nothing.i emailed them to enquire about this issue and i got NO replies at all.fcuked up man.why am i always the suay one getting into such shit.PayPal also like to limit access to my account.like wtf? i think my credibility online is like....damn cui.why sia? does my email, password, particulars, my name, or even my face look threatening online? do i look or sound like a scam? zZz.it's damn depressing whenever such things happen on me de leh.and i'll be like thinking:"why me? out of so many peopel on earth, WHY ME?" omfg lah.sigh.if FB dont intend to return me my account, i seriously doubt if i'll create another one.i think they will still check on me and ban me too.you cant possibly ask me to fake my particulars..anyway, i dont know how to fake sia -.-" being honest also can get suspected.wth.i really dont know what to say leh..

back to school life, mmm.nothing much i guess.baking and studying and projects.what else.lol.but i am kind of disappointed with myself for the past few practical lessons.ever since last week, and to be precise, it is after my gaga's concert.lol.i cant seem to like concentrate on baking? lol.dammit.tried very hard to be focused by uh, i duno what am i doing seriously >.< i think what i did during IS sux big time.or maybe i set my expectations too high le =\ i dont know ): i just hope i can be like before, enjoy my IS and bake pretty products that i love and can be proud of.not that i'm not proud of what i bake for the past few lessons..but i'm just..hmm.i dont know how to explain.it's just a kind of weird feeling that keeps lingering inside my mind.definitely not a feel-good feeling.that's why i'm disappointed! RAHH! no photos to share btw.coz my hp is charging now.will prolly upload photos next time.haha.anyway dont really feel like sharing coz it's not very pretty IMO =X

i shall work on my projects now.all the deadlines are marching fast towards me.mygod.even more stressful.to think that i still got to handle my BS stuffs..wodetian.i really wish to go on a hiatus during my term break.to really DESTRESS myself and yes, GO ON A DIET.temptations everywhere and it's so..^&$%$&^*&( =.=

#408

2009-08-13T05:29:00.003+08:00

oh no.i am missing lady gaga already.haha.i am so excited to see her last night.and now, i am so dejected whenever i think that she's goign to leave SG soon and i have no idea when i can see her live in SG again.lol.i will seriously pay to go for her concert again.lol.i am that gaga over her :D

i think her concert was great! i was so looking forward to her that the day, 12th of august, really lifted up my spirits as i was feeling so down for the past few days.i think i am feeling a tinge of sadness now because her concert is over.it was so unexpected that my mood is worse off now as compared to my last weekend.why doesnt happiness last forever? ): now that i miss her so, i feel moody.my goodness.lady gaga, please return for your 20,000 strong crowd concert okay? haha.the 10,000 strong crowd just now was not enough! please be back soon! haha.we will sing sing sing-a-long singapore! LOL.and you can have more chillicrabs too.LOL

i replied her twitter! lol.will she read my tweets? lol.enjoy your singapore stay here! we'll miss YOU! hoho.shall upload one pretty video of her on FB later.i dont wanna upload all of them coz i scared there will be some copyright issues.lol.if you wanna watch the videos, i can sell them to you.LOL.just kidding.PM me and i'll find some way to show you the videos.heh

i really admire your effort.your words are the pushing strength for me to achieve my dreams.i will be successful one day.i will.i know <3 loads

#407

2009-08-09T18:23:00.002+08:00

okay, sian.was at home the entire day today coz my mum was like saying she dont get to see me much and talk to me these days.and she's nagging about my taobao items strewn all over the house and how untidy my room and my 2 tables are.yes, i know it's messy! but not that i dowan to pack.some customers haven arrange a time to pick up the items from me yet (i dont know why) and i know i NEED to contact them soon.it's like sooner or later it will leave the house.so what for pack =\ i know my table is messy.i know i need to pack it! but i couldnt find time out for the past few days what.and okay, i must admit that even when i could fork out time, i will be doing something else =X i am super pekcek.i really wanna sleep throughout the day to get myself off from troubles.but i was so energised because i slept the whole evening yesterday after dinner.damn tired and i dont know why.fcuked up.but at least i did productive work today.not packing up my things of course! i will pack when i have the time! serious.actually i wanna pack de lor.i must admit that i felt a tinge of guilt at first.but as time goes by, i think i will still like to do things at my own time.i'll most prolly pack them up tomorrow when i'm in a better mood to do so.happily faced my computer for the past few hours and managed to finish my speech and my parts for two of the projects.great.i only need to do some revision for my food knowledge and look forward to my ladygaga this coming week.I NEED TO DESTRESS mygawd.i think she's the only one that can make me happy now.her songs kind of lift up my day (:

in fact, i wanted to bake today.but i dont know what to bake.and i am totally angry that my existence today was just to show that i can stay at home.wtf.how i wish tml there's school lah.but it's a PH.and i shall be really nice to pack EVERYTHING AND STUDY.then i'll be able to go out on tuesday and wednesday and thursday and be grounded on sunday again =.=

somehow i think that i am living my life in a vicious cycle.do i need to change? or they need to adapt..

#406

2009-08-06T20:23:00.003+08:00

eks.i didnt update my blog for days.i'm so sick and tired recently so i'm kind of lazy to type an entry =X but i'm back today, just for a short while though.will make my entry short and sweet coz i wanna get a good sleep soon.still feverish.sad.i need 2 paracetamols again ):

baked sweet buns on monday.teehee.pretty breads! like those toy breads sold in Action City.HAHA.they taste really good too! i love the red bean bun.hehe.red bean! my favourite.mwahahas.pictures!

before proving

baked products!

pretty hor? i hope i can make good breads like these tml.coz it's practical test tml! omg.nervous can.haha.will be baking these breads and marble cake.mygawd.i am so nervous now.not excited at all.i'm worried that i couldnt finish the 2 products on time sia ):

had theory test today.i was so nervous for the test too.coz it has been quite awhile since i last had a test.lol.kinda screwed the paper up.that's quite sad.i hope i can do better for the final exam.i HOPE =X but i usually say i wanna work hard, in the end i still slack and never really studied.bleah.i need to find a way to motivate myself to study and NOT to sleep.but this fever is giving me big problems..i am feeling so tired as i'm typing this entry lah.can you believe it...

oh, anyway, i baked cookies today.vienese cookies, cornflake cookies and chocolate chip cookies.lol.3 products today.but we ended early.amazing.and time really FLIES today.i got this feeling that i am so preoccupied today that i cant really remember what happened in the morning.lol.everything happened so fast? @.@ but i'm kinda depressed that i lost my big steel spoon.yes, duno which idiot took it.lol.whether it is on purpose or not, i dont know.but please leh, it is just a spoon.return it to me can or not *pleads* actually i have alot of steel spoons at home.you must be thinking why i'm so uptight over a spoon.that's because it's the first time i use it then it's lost lah.abit dots can.i'm like searching for my poor spoon high and low in the kitchen today lah.grr.WHERE ON EARTH ARE YOU?! seriously, next time i will not let my spoon leave my vision.lol.lost umbrella, lost spoon.what else can i lose next =.=

i donot wish to lose sleep though.lol.gonna take my med and rest soon.must have a clear mind to bake well tml! aja-aja!

*i realise i forgot to take pics of my cookies today @.@*

#405

2009-08-02T20:51:00.005+08:00

yesterday evening was disastrous.all i did was to take a late afternoon nap and i woke up with a scary fever.wtf.and i'm feeling better now.all thanks to the 2 paracetamols i ate last night.speedy recovery eh :D

GB-ed last night.wahaha.fun leh.espcially when i keep owning.LOL.lalala~ anyway, i liek that desert fox suit! so kawaii.and they even have the baker suit! so cute lah.i like leh.hahaha.then mk went to buy the entire suit when i told him it's cute.i didnt buy though.even though i am like SUPER rich.lol.i got too many suits to wear le.and i'm happy with my current outfit too.so no point.lol.here's some cute pics to share.i couldnt printscreen and i dont know why.so i just snapped photos of it with my mum's HP:

desert fox outfit

baker outfit! <3

my dream suit donkey years ago.lol.pretty~^^

GB really makes me reminisce of the past.haha.it's part of my teenagehood.i even mentioned it in my O Levels composition! XD

went steamboat again today.i didnt realise chinese garden also have steamboat wor.i always thought steamboat is only available at bugis.or rather Bugis is teh first place we'll think of whenever we talk about steamboat right? haha.the food there is not bad though.haha.moreover, it's in the west part of Singapore.dont really have to travel all the way to town to eat steamboat.actually, a cheaper alternative is have steamboat at home.LOL.some pictures to share:

our steammboat :D

look at the pile of watermelon.i cant believe the guys and MJ ate watermelons for around 30mins.mygawd.i dont like to eat watermelon ):

ate 2 steamboats in a week.just tell me how fattening it is.in addition, i baked and ate tarts the entire week too.ohmysky.please kill me -.- and i just baked eggtarts and apple pie today.they look so appealing and of course, they are yummy!^^

the appie pies with 2 different designs.heh :p

the waiting-to-be-baked egg tarts

the baked eggtarts!

woo~ nice nice.finished all the dough i brought home on friday.it's really a waste to throw them away @.@ but provided i have the time to make them at home lah.my mum even say i should have brought all the doughs back =.= tml i need to lug my toolbox back to school.and i still need to bring my kitchen uniform and business attire.grrr.sian can! and tml baking bread.confirm wont end early de.so i must bring everything to school in the morning.jialat >.< enough said.i still got projects to do and BS stuffs to settle.and i need to iron my clothes too.wth.no time to waste at all.zZz

thanks jerome and kennerd for their prezzie! i like it alot^^ will hang it up in my room! haha :D

#404

2009-07-31T21:59:00.003+08:00

pictures first! egg tarts:

blueberry streusal pie

pretty right? hehe.my mum says they look much presentable as compared to my products yesterday.quite true lah.but i still like the fruit tarts the most! colorful and appealing.what's more, it's yummy! and the fruits just makes me feel less sinful in a way.haha.the crusts are all so fattening omg.even the cream is fattening lah.haha.but i LOVE.lol.cannot stand their temptations can.if i have the power to eat and NOT grow fat, i will gobble all the tarts down.hahaha.i think everybody wish to have that kind of power.am i right? :p

and i swam today! hoho.more like going for the jacuzzi lah.i love that very much.machiam like going for a massage session.and i miss massage.damn LONG never enjoy one liao.haha.maybe i should plan for one soon.need to have some form of good relaxation ((:

nor more absolute BF today.but there's whywhylove! i watch finish that liao.haha.i wanna watch that ethan ruan's idol drama leh.mingzhongzhudingwoaini.why isnt it aired on friday nights instead.grr >.<

ok, i wanna play GB now.successfully installed it last night.woo! OWNAGE people~ :D

#403

2009-07-30T21:29:00.003+08:00

hehheh.d/l-ing GB now.i am excited to play it.mwaha.nazrul manage to enter the game by installing the full version exe on softnyx website.i hope i can enter the game too.the last time i tried (i think it was last year) i couldnt get in.it keeps saying that i DID not have the updated version.but i installed the latest version lah.damn pekcek and thus i gave up previously.hope i can play it later.teehee.60% now.woohoo~ hopefully after this entry, i can start installing it le.heh.and i hope my lappie still have enough space for me to install the game.super laggy now.hurhur T.T

baked apple tarts and banana tarts today.love them! haha.i like the apple fillings.it's like apple pie fillings lo.yummy! haha.and shit lah.i cant seem to stick to my detox plan today.sad.and i'm feeling so tired now.yet i still wanna play GB.LOL.terrible right? i should be sleeping now lor.need to mail 2 parcels out and iron clothes tml morning.so i cant sleep in too late either.bleah.baking egg tarts and blueberry tarts tml.all the tarts this week.so fattening mygawd @.@

banana tart

apple tart (with ken's pretty fingers)

apple tart 2

my dearest partner MC today.coincidentally, belinda's on MC too.so gandie grouped both fiona and me together (: and so gandie also invested a share in us and we baked quite a handful of tarts today to share with him too.haha.quite fun leh.and we're the fastest group today.hoho.prolly coz gandie helped us out.no matter what, 3 pairs of hands are alwasy better than 2 pairs right.eggtarts and blueberry tarts tml.i love blueberries! omg.i think they kind of explodes in the mouth when you bite them.and they are tasteless.HAHA.so cool right.shall put ALOT of blueberries on my tarts tml.mwahaha.woo! :D

#402

2009-07-30T00:05:00.004+08:00

CHLOE NEED A DETOX PLAN DESPERATELY.i am feeling so fcuking unhealthy ever since school started.i'm sorry but i cant help to complain about how unfit i am now! RAHH.i wish to incorporate some form of exercise in my daily life but i CANT see to fork out any time! like wth.i am trying my best okay.but it's a month already and i cant seem to manage my time well enough.enough said.i'm just a dumbass in time management

just had a super full steamboat with xiongs.only met up with 4 of them today.it's our dear xinyi's birthday today.haha.and all the photos are with the birthday gal.i think she must be busy rushing her project now.lol.i'm so looking forward to the photos can.looking forward to seeing them on FB.haha.i kind of miss NP days.miss the times where i still can oversleep and pon lectures.LOL.it's like a daily ritual can.now i attend every single lesson in SHATEC.wow.now you know how great the word "PASSION" is.really.it changes a person.it changes me.haha :D

today is a really special day.i have never had such a unique birthday cake.or rather cakes.LOL.

i only like the chocolate cake and the strawberry shortcake.the tiramisu one tastes weird.probably due to the bitterness of the wine inside it.the mango one looks so nice on the outside but it tastes kind of sucky.and worse, it is HOLLOW inside.wtf?! the heart shape strawberry mousse cake looks nice and taste not bad too.haha.but i still prefer the choc cake and strawberry shortcake more^^ the cheesecake is not as nice as bakerzin's oreocheesecake.i know bakerzin uses philadephia cheese cream for their cheesecake.this fourleaves one does not use that.coz the taste is so different.LOL.dont ask me why.i just know it.but i like the texture of its cheese.it's so soft and smooth.it's like tofu liddat.haah.i like.but if the taste of it can be like philadephia cheese cream, it'll be the best.HAHA.okay, when i'm that pro enough, i will make the best cheesecake in my own standard.LOL.i will do it *with much confidence*

wanna look at out steeammmboat?

there's nothing left inside coz we literally ate EVERTHING.lol.the thought of it and the look at this photo still makes me feel FULL.and i am so energised now that i couldnt sleep.tml i still had IS at 8am.wow.i hope i don get drowsy in class.moreover, i end school at 7pm tml.grr.and my dearest ST and Pauline are sick.so i'll be alone tml.sad.for a moment, i hope to be sick too.but i dont wish to coz i dont wanna miss any lessons in school.like OMG right.chloe is actually looking forward to classes.HAHA.this is so crazy XD

alright.i need to do some BS stuffs now.see lah, i think i am making myself busier.and all my grp B mates are sleeping now.lol.i guess i'm the only active one.i'm not sure if i can sleep tonight.skarli tml night i will just drop flat on my bed after school.HAHA.sorry in advance to all my customers if i did not provide prompt replies.i am not a good multi tasker.i am just human too alright (:

#401

2009-07-28T17:47:00.003+08:00

omg.i didnt blog for 3days.wanted to blog VERY much but i was really too tired to do so.and i was so tired yesterday taht i slept at 8.30pm last night.and i woke up at 7 today.heh.it was a sleep long enough to replenish all my energy.but now, i am feeling lethargic again.maybe coz i really had a hard time packing all the taobao parcels.wahlao.that is how my head gets bigger zZz now i need to dispatch everything again.maybe i'm stopping taobao le.wanna see if eric's suggestion of selling cakes online works.haha.it'll become a food blogshop.HAHA.and it'll be fun too! :D

i really wanna go for a swim today but i have too much things to do now.grr.i need to research on proj, compile proj, do my BS stuffs and ughs, alot of other things lah.i need to start on some revision too.lol.all the tests are marching towards me..wanna siam/run also cannot.die.and i wanna stop using singlish liao.it has been unknowingly creeping into my speech.lol.sadsadsad.how i wish time can be put to a halt.and i'm officially twenty today.even sadder.i am no longer a TEEN.hurhur.i HATE to be twenty.i wanna be forever seventeeeennnnnnnn.

okay, before i end my post, i wanna post pictures of the tarts i did yesterday.the fruit tart is so delicious can.and it look so appetizing too! dont drool! lol

my fruit tarts

christine aka miss kind's fruit tarts

my walnut tarts.i seriously feel bad for kapo-ing those chocochips to replace the walnuts during practical.i made gandie angry.and i fel so bad =X worse still, i followed somebody to put the cooking pan inside the store and got caught by gandie.i cant blame anyone.i OUGHT to know where to keep the pans.and sadly, i dont know where to keep them after my 3weeks in the kitchen.wtf right? LOL.this only goes to show that i never heat things up in th pot before.and that's VERY bad =X

ms lin's gave me this maz-something almond flower today.it's so pretty~ and she say we'll be learning how to make it in the future.heh.i cant wait to learn how to make it :D THANK YOU ms lin! <3

ok.and this is a super random pic.since i'm uploading pictures, i thought i might as well upload this as well.lol.this grasshopper hopped inside my kitchen on...friday night if i not wrong.and i was super stunned to see it.but we just let it roam in the kitchen.the next morning, it was gone =X no idea where it went.LOL

ok.enough crap.i need to finish up all my BS stuffs now and get some rest.birthday also so tired.damn sad leh.birthday still need to meet customer.more sad.birthday still cannot sit down and enjoy an hour of TV.even sadder.if i type summore, i will have lesser time to rest.lol.SADDEST -gone-

#400

2009-07-24T21:51:00.004+08:00

i finally went swimming today! haha.been wanting to enjoy a good swim ever since school started.and i feel exceptionally happy coz i have been taking in so much sinful food recently and i finally get some form of exercise today.lol.GREAT :D i miss badminton though.but i dont think i have the time to play it.unless tues or wed afternoon.haha.can organise with sidney and co.heh :P kinda miss badminton.but i dont have a raquet.which is bad.well, not unless i borrow from my elder bro...but dont feel like doing so.our cold war has been on for 4months already =X

damn suay today.keep injuring myself.morning i kena scalded by iron.on and off there were bouts of pain.but it was still bearable.but when i was at the jacuzzi just now, the water is so strong that the blister burst -.- it wasnt' very painful at that time.but when i go bathe, i screamed.lol.lucky there isnt anybody in the toilet.bloody fcuk painful.summore it was hot water that came down and omfg.there was no skin on my blister and the hot water is in direct contact with my bare meat.somehow i thought of how we cook meat at that time.i imagined how painful the pork, beef, chicken, fish, mutton will be *ouch* maybe i think too much from a small injury of mine.lol.but hey, that helps me to divert my attention from the pain to some useless thoughts.LOL =X

then during IS i scalded my left hand index finger.i always forget to use the bloody GLOVES before i touch the piping hot racks or baking tins.tada~ the result is getting scalded lah.pain but i deserve it.and i'm those type who is once-bitten-twice-not-shy.bleah.maybe i need to create a Safety Folder inside my brain so that i can remember to put on a glove whenever i intend to touch something hot.lol.and i'm really a dumbass.i can even scald myself when i shift the brownies on the cooling rack.coz i shift too fast =X and when partner ask if i scald myself yet AGAIN, i said no =X coz i scared kena scolding by here again XD anyway my palm's and fingers skin is super thick.lol.so the pain is bearable.and no blisters.teehee.unbelievable that i can be still so proud to get scalded sia.lol =X

today's brownie and fruit cake is a big success! happy.i think i'm getting the hang of baking in the kitchen liao.great.feels good to bake delicious and pretty end products.and it feels better to let people try them.i hope i can bake for more people in the future.when..tell me when can i achieve my dream >.<

anyway, pictures to share again!^^

brownie - before decoration

brownie - after decoration w/o nuts

brownie - after decoration with nuts

pauline's brownie - after decoration w/o nuts

pauline's brownie - after decoration with nuts

fruit cake! haha.ours is specia.coz we put choco flakes on it! i like the baking result of it sia.it looks really nice.and the chocolate cracks prettily.haha.it's a new design (:

alright.i need to settle my bs stuffs and do some printing work soon.later got 绝对男友 on Channel U! haha.i like that japanese drama.i catch it every week okay.haha.it's nice.and i like the girl inside who aspires to be a good patissier.hee.i also wanna be patissier^^

#399

2009-07-23T19:07:00.004+08:00

i guess i was too tired last night that i forgot to mention about these 2 big bunches of bananas i saw at the coffeeshop beside harbourfront bus interchange.the banana is DAMN big can.i was looking at it in awe when the uncle walked past me with them O.O just look at how big the banana is.u compare the BIG banana on the table with the smaller ones hung at the stall, on the top left hand corner of the picture.what a stark difference right?

anyway, baked pandan chiffon cake today.but mine is not green color.i made an orange color pandan cake.teehee.i wanted to bake pink color de.and i thought 2 drops of the red coloring will make the bater pink color.but it turned out to be orange.lol.i like orange color! haha.my bag, my carrier and my socks are orange color today lah! so crazily orange today XD but i think i pink chiffon cake will look cute leh (:

my lovely orange chiffon cake.i think the small green piece is darius' green chiffon cake.haha

i dont know why my cake is so "weak" it cracks whenever i try to slice it.sigh.maybe my slicing technique is wrong.or i didnt cut the sides nicely before i get the cak out from the tin ): i dont know why.i feel so sad to make my cake so ugly.ray's one was so nice! he is really talented in getting the cake nicely cut out and sliced.arghs.i wanna learn those skills too XD u can see ken's and pauline's pretty fingers over here too:

nevertheless, i still love my cake.haha.today chef ask each of us to bake one chiffon cake all by ourself.so this is my child.haha.love it's soft and fluffiness.it's just a pity that i destroyed its appearance =X sad.and chef is sick today.even sadder.i miss him! i like his teaching style.the relief chef today was...lol.i hope chef will be back tml ((: it's fruit cake and choc brownie baking tml.haha.both cakes which my mum and me "mastered" in baking liao XD such a coincidence that they are put together and taught in the same lesson.i think my recipe taste much better.seriously.if i can, i dont mind baking it tml for the whole class.not to show off or what.but i like to share good food with people! haha.nice stuffs must share.that's why i'm here! that's why i wanna be a patissier.it's not for fun =.=

i was being so slack for the past few days.i shall go have my dinner now and start on projects after that.must be hardworking le.RAHH~

tml morning must iron clothes.lol.haven iron my clothes this week.abit sian.i cannot tahan seeing my clothes crumpled =X

#398

2009-07-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

i think i am eating a lot recently.that's bad.fattening foodies + lack of exercise makes me super unhealthy.but i cant possibly give up my love for pastries and cakes.i will eat them whenever they appear in front of me! but provided they are delicious lah.if it's not yummy, i rather not eat it =X i know i am picky.but cannot blame me also.i just wanna let my brain and stomach enjoy good food.haha.they are created to enjoy delicious food arent they? and i like to spoil mysel.happy to spoil myself too XD

dined at terra cafe in vivo today.food was okay.i think i put too much cheese onto my lasagne.it tastes salty.lol.and i thought it was the chicken filling that was salty until the friends say CHEESE is salty.are they? i swear i dont know cheese is salty.i thought they are supposed to be creamy and umm..cheesy? i like to eat cheese alot.but never have i thought its taste to be salty leh.i just enjoy the milky feeling of cheese =X and i really had a good cheesy day out today.i almost finish the entire bottle of powdered cheese.lasagne is cheesy too.and i had cheesecake after that.lol.i feel like a mouse today XD really have to thank my poly mates for making this gathering a good double birthday celebration too.been quite some time since we last catched up.and it's really nice to see everyone together again.i just love gatherings *chatter chatter chatter* ((:

i need to go look for a steel ruler and a good small and cute calculator now.lol.dont know where on earth they are sia.better find them so gandie wont be angry tml.i heard he is not very happy with group A today =\ we had better make him happy tml! make a nice chiffon cake, make him happy and give him half of it! teehee.hopefully dont have crocodiles outside the fishtank tml.irritating =X

#397

2009-07-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

watched potter today.i think it is comparatively much more boring as compared to the past few sequels.lol.the next sequel should be the finale.already looking forward to it.even if it's boring, i'll still watch it.i dont know the reason either.probably coz i have caught each and every sequels in the cinemas.i dont wanna miss out any of them.LOL =X

there are so many nice movies coming out soon.omg.i feel like watching almost all of them lah.i am already feeling broke.sad.and when i think of projects, i feel even sadder.sigh T.T

english class was super funny today.i laughed until stomachache can.lol.even the teacher also bth.laugh until bang the wall.u can imagine how funny sweetsweetthing is.so funny and cute can! very engaging and enjoyable sia.i like.it totally makes my day a happy one XD

i am very bloated now.lol.full with fries and water inside my stomach.burps.i know that's random.and here's something MORE random, you're so cute! hahaha <3

#396

2009-07-20T21:12:00.008+08:00

i think i am having very bad moodswings lately.all thanks to some people who can amazingly make my blood boil.seriously, it has been quite long since i last lost my temper.i must say that i'm someone with a very good temper (although it's usually not the case with my close ones =X) shall see how everything goes.you know what, i am so goddamn pissed that i hope i can just kick people out from my group.lol.you should know who you are.i dont understand why some people cannot keep their promises and they cant seem to set their priorities not.it's not that i like to nag leh.and you think i like to care so much about what other people do meh.coz it affects me indirectly okay.i am like so in love with baking and i really wanna do well.honestly speaking, i put baking and studies in front of my own self now.so tell me how can i have the heart to allow people to affect something which i put before myself.i dont even allow myself to affect myself? LOL.what the shit am i talking about..zZz

anyway, i baked choco coffee swiss roll on friday.i dont think i got put up pictures for it.there you go~

nice hor? but it doesnt taste as delicious as our original vanilla swiss roll.i swear that is the best although my classmates all say this is very delicious.lol.i think the standard should be more or less around the same since we are following the same recipe.sometimes, it is just the beating and folding method that makes a little difference in the taste and texture.other than that, i think all the end products are more or less the same (: but i know that the folding for chocoswiss roll is not that "perfect".heh *nudges my beloved partner* luckily we had a backup to save ourselves^^ still very proud of ourselves and our products <3

baked emulsified swiss roll and sponge cake today.i dont like them at all.so commercial sia.so chemically modified.hate it seriously.so unnatural! machiam like a cake that has undergone plastic surgery to "look" nice.lol.i think this is the most apt description i can think of to describe my cakes today.lol.so fake omg.though the result is amazingly good, i think it will be better to be natural instead of using all those chemical induced stuffs =X

this is my emulsified swiss roll, before rolling of coz:

damn funny when i was piping the chocolate to do decorations today lah."C & P" means Chloe and Pauline.then after decorating, chef bernard walk past and ask why we didnt put his intial.then he very sad.a pity i got aga-aga the space before i pip the words.if not i will leave a space for his "B".then partner say cannot make our godfather sad.so we decided to write a big "B" with a big heart in the middle of our sponge.heh.then godfather was so touched! then he say he love both of us.so he suggested to add both our initials inside the big heart.lol.so cute can.but afterall, the big heart with the "B" will be rolled inside and cant be seen on the exterior lo.only the bottom part with -heart- C & P -heart- can be seen.lol.and i just realise i didnt take a photo of the final rolled product.lol.but here's chef's swiss roll.damn nice! but our batter is very little today.so the sponge all damn thin.doesnt make a nice, pretty swissroll ):

my emulsified spongecake! haha.much better than our first volcano spongecake on our first practical.we had redeemed ourselves today! so proud can.haha.but it's such a pity that it's an emulsified sponge cake.if it's the natural one, i will love thyself and the cake more.lol.but the cake is super soft today.i <3 *muacks*

swee swee.and i didnt know salad was having a mini competition in the class to find the best cake baked today.my group won^^ hehe.i must say that cake baked with love and passion is great! now you understand why i strongly believe the Chinese Proverb:"有志者，事竟成" :D

this is mingkai and junhao's spongey cake.looks damn cute right? i like leh.lol.look so fluffy and nice to me^^

then i joked about their "lovebite" cake.haha! funny leh.and we dont know how on earth the dent got itself there =.= not i poke de! really.i thought is mk poke de lor! but he say he didnt.so i said i lovebite the cake.HAHA.nice XD

but hor..their cake wasnt sliced nicely -X if not i think it'll be a really nice, pretty and delicious cake.coz the top texture is like so much prettier than mine! i really like the top alot.LOL.but i didnt try its taste out.should be all the same i guess.dont know why people say our cake more delicious =\ and we dedicated a cake to share with the class.half of it was given to our godfather (loves!) and half was sliced and shared with the class.haha.nice lah, just that it's not natural.so too bad.i love natural stuffs^^

last of all, i need to thank our dear mingkai for taking the machine and bowls for us this morning! haha.really very touched sia.we always very wols in getting them and need to wait for others to use finish before we can start beating our batter ): and i guess we need to thank our dear bud, ST for hinting mk to take the machine and bowls for us.teehee.LOVES :D

#395

2009-07-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

wah, my mood i supposed to be so-so today one leh.but after a phonecall, my mood totally changed 180degrees can.my blood is still boiling now sia.i am so goddamn pissed and irritated.totally feel like slaughtering people can.seriously, if i had the world of time, i can do all projects by myself.i'm serious.but i am just human.i have only 24hrs a day.what can i do.cant keep my cool now.so long never lost temper liao sia.dowan and dont like to flare up one leh.but some amazing people can manage to do this to me.WOW

had orientation today.i seriously feel scammed.i want my 180bucks back.lol.i can do so much with 180bucks lah! a stupid notebook + tee + some running and perspiration W/O food costs $180.wtf? i think if i were to take my temp now, it'll be 42degrees liao.feeling damn hot lah.zZz

i wanna do my ppt slides to cool myself down liao.lol.funny to do project as a way to destress right.coz i can play with the layouts and my photos.lol.need to destress liao sia.if not i sure have an outburst someday

it is not worth my effort.TOTALLY.

#394

2009-07-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

teehee.i'm happy today.lol.VERY happy in fact.i dont feel like sharing the reason coz i think it should be kept inside my heart =X cant believe the reason that bring smiles to me.totally....melted omg.haha.as usual, i think it'll be for a while nia.as time passes, it should be less severe =X

great.i found back my twitter no.lol.i can update on twitter again! hoho.and i just realise that lady gaga misses ny from her twitter update.i wonder how i can get her updates on my hp sia.the system like cant send her update to my hp.sad T.T i cant wait to see her in SG! but looking forward to seeing her means looking forward to my project deadlines which is sucky >.<

did chocolate coffee swissroll today.teehee.yumyum.quite proud of it leh.i personally think that it's nice.and when my classmates commented that it's yummy, i feel even happier^^ i didnt try their swissroll though.so i have no basis of comparison over here.haha.i think swissroll will become my favourite cake soon.lol.anyway i love that bengawan solo pandan cheese swissroll.damn nice.but damn ex.it's a treat for myself once in a blue moon when i have cravings for it.lol

and chef bernard is so cute today.haha.we're going to have a daddy soon.LOL.gandie maybe.lol.and we shared our swissroll with bernard today.he shared it with the class and some tourism people who are watching us baking at the corridor.we're really like fishes in the fishtank XD and hoho, i remember the malay guy who requested to have a slice of our swissroll! so funny.it's a great feeling to know that the products you bake is in demand sia.a tinge of satisfaction.and significance! a new word that i learnt from the lifeskills workshop today ((:

watched a horror movie today.the 2nd horror movie of my life.and until now, i still dunno the movie title.abit diao sia.first time i was so rushed to watch a movie.lol.missed quite a fair bit of the first part.so was kinda "lost" in that horror movie.i still feel like watching potter =X

most prolly opening the 4th preorder soon.i'm amazed with my efficiency @.@

#393

2009-07-16T23:36:00.004+08:00

yay~ i have just finish packing all the items that has to be mailed out.heh.initially i wanted to do all the mailings on sat.coz i can slowly mail things out at my own sweet time.now that i had lessons on sat morning, i had to literally chiong to singpost tml after school to mail everything out.how great is this.it is definitely going to be very rushing.and i can foresee that there will be alot of people at singpost tml.damn sian can.then need to wait superrrr looonnnnggg for my turn to mail out the items which is super frustrating.zZz.i hope singpost will be "empty" tml.hahaha.and i need to cash out a money order too.sounds cool right? i am eggcited to cash out too.gonna experience something new tml.heh.it is really interesting to learn new things, which people dont normally get to learn in their daily lives.it feels...hmm, really cool (:

and some good news over here.if i settle everything fast, i might consider opening the next preorder sooner.but that has to depend on my mood =X i'm sorry to say that but you know, projects are like HELL recently.i dont really wanna get myself so occupied with other stuffs.first time i put studies before anything else.lol.i am APPALLED by my attitude too.i guess that is really what we call passion.i dont think i can survive through this without passion.oh, as i say on, i am getting so proud of myself.LOL.wtf

baked swissroll today^^ it's very pretttyyyy omg.haha.my dear partner can really fold well.lol.envious can.my folding is totally kns.will be baking swissroll tml too.hee.funfun.i like.but it is super high in cholesterol sia.so many eggyolks! i crack eggs until i shake head today.it's damn scary when you see the amount of eggs we use.somehow, i felt a tinge of heart pain for the hens =X

swiss roll

nice hor? i think really can sell liao leh.lol.and it's omg, delicious! haha.and as i'm typing this entry, i'm munching on a slice of it.teehee.envious? hoho.but i seriously feel damn fat nowadays.dammit.i miss swimming.i miss badminton.i am so unhealthy and unfit T.T

i dont think i have shared photos of my pound cake and marble cake yet? there you go~

pound cake

marble cake

cross sectional view of them:

the marble cake is nice! haha.in my opinion, i think it tastes better than pound cake.and the funny thing is, the pound cake has a harder bite feel than marble cake though it is baked for a lesser amount of time in the oven.weird huh =\ nevertheless, it turns out YUMMY.i like^^ haha.i really feel like i'm in heaven everyday.LOL.so crazy XD

here's a bonus photo, another group's pandan swiss roll.haha.nicely sliced.heh.pretttyyy :D

love the custard filling as compared to the vanilla filling^^

#392

2009-07-15T15:32:00.002+08:00

sians.i think i am super suay lately.i feel sad.zZz.monday HP spoilt.tuesday kena banned by FB to make comments.today some arsehole stole my umbrella.wtf.i am really curious to know what's in store for me tml.can anything worse happen? the umbrella is a rare species in the umbrella family lah.coz it's not designed for rainy weather.it's to shelter people from fireworks sparks.i got it from one of the NDP show several years back.tsk.duno which idiot stole the umbrella lah.hope he/she gets diarrhea for 49 consecutive days sia.lol.damn bastard sia.umbrella also wanna steal.i know it's unique and nice lah.but STEAL umbrella?! damn lowclass can.wth

damn tired today.i think i am going to sleep soon.will be receiving my parcel tonight.so will mail all customers tonight yea.it's so terrible to lose all my sms contacts.i can only blame myself for not updating my sim card contacts frequently.once bitten, twice shy.i will never save contacts on sim card liao.as far as possible, i'll try to keep them on my sim.lol.but sim also has a limited number of contacts one sia.sians.alrights.i shall have some good rest now.need to finish my project part tonight ah.must pia finish.lol.so tired to the extent that i will just fall flat on my bed after this =X

#391

2009-07-13T20:43:00.002+08:00

hehheh.baked 3 products today! marble cake, pound cake and chocolate banana muffins! very satisfied with the outcome :D the muffin is damn nice leh! i like anything that is baked with banana lah.haha.like banana cake :p it's super super yummy.omg.and i didnt say that because i was hungry at that time.i really find it delicious.lol.should have like baked choco banana muffin that day instead of the choco walnut muffin lo XD

no pictures to show today.which is quite sad lah.coz my HP is officially spoilt.dammit can.i wanted to buy a new HP this weekend de.but my mum wants me to wait till the plan is up so she can cut off the singtel line and switch to m1.if i'm not wrong, i signed up the singtel line for my lilbro on 12th aug 2years ago lor.need to check liao.i am really super depressed.i dont know what's wrong with my phone at all! it can navigate on it's own, like switching on the bluetooth itself, searching for bluetooth devices around, attempt to connect some weird device with password; make calls to super long no.s like 124253424332; go on the web; and even play music on its own.absolutely FREAKY.although i should have expected such things to happen since my camera started showing blackout signs a few months back.and the camera breakdown happens quite several times summore.super sad.i am sad over an array of reasons:

- losing all my customer contacts (i know i'm an idiot.i dont save contacts in my sim card.i save them in my phone T.T)

- losing some precious smses

- losing my precious photos

- losing my videos

zZz.i really feel like crying.serious.i might really cry in before i sleep later.and ironically, my hp still can play pokerface on it's own.not other songs, but pokerface.funny eh.it really knows that i love lady gaga alot.and hurhur.it's playing such a cruel trick on me.now tell me how can i survive.my bro's having reservice and i can get my L760 back from him.unless i use my mum's hp now.sian can.i think my tears will start to drop if i continue to type on.. T.T

on a lighter note, i had a good mini class outing yesterday.although everyone was kind of shag, we're still pretty enthu in sticking around and hanging around together.lol.honestly speaking, i had a hard time to pull myself out from bed today.but bobian sia.practical in the morning.still had to pack uniforms, pack bag and stuffs.and i even forgot to bring my containers today.tsk.we should have another outing soon XD

FINALLY AH.the parcel can be traced liao.necks becoming ultra long le.lol.i think their old system is better.much more efficient.had to wait so long this time round.it's so hard to explain to customers and i feel so bad for the delay, which i can do nothing to help hasten the process at all.sucky feeling

#390

2009-07-11T22:25:00.001+08:00

omfg.embarrassed to the max.i dont know why i tweeted to my classmate! lol.damn funny lah.lucky i wasnt commenting on some weird stuffs.lol.just tweeted that my sponge cake was good today and i am looking forward to ktv tml.haha.and he very cute arh.he replied me.lol.and luckily i'll be going singing with them tml.so it was NOT so bad afterall lah.what was i seriously thinking and doing just now..must be dreaming @.@

school was argh, tiring today.for the past 3days, i have been sleeping at around 3am daily.i miss waking up at 11am or noon daily! still cant get accustomed to schooling hours sia.months of retirement life is not that easy to shake it off =.= and i miss swimming loads ):

baked my sponge cake today since i wont have time to bake it tml.it was definitely much better than thursday's practical.but still not as fluffy and chef bernard's one leh.i dont know why.grr.abit sian but still happy that it can at least rise and become a soft sponge cake XD

i dont like theory ):

#389

2009-07-10T21:54:00.005+08:00

YIPPEE! haha.scones and muffins were so successful today! happy ok! haha.very happy in fact.coz it wasnt a disappointment like the sponge cake.lol.now i understand the true meaning behind "期望越大失望越大".sometimes, we just cannot pin our hopes too high on something.or the failure will really be very hurting ): hurts until i cant get the spongecake issue over for 2days already.zZz.sunday come faster please.lol.i really wanna make it a success.i know i am very very VERY naggy about this.i cant help it too.i will have an outburst if i dont "declare" it.LOL

here are some pretty and yummilicious pictures to share:

choco walnut muffins

raisin scones

so happy leh.i cant believe it.jialat man.i think i am really going crazy baking everyday.crazy in a HAPPY way.lol.i will be like over the moon, living in heaven each day lah.haha.provided everyday is a successful day.must strive to make it good.we can do it! :D

i think i also cannot neglect the pitiful volcano cake lah.here is an embarrassing picture of it.lol:

sponge cake

so poor thing right? haha.anyway i think i dont need to worry about meals (especially supper) for the coming year liao.everyday got my favourite food to eat.lol.dinner bobian.my mum cooks daily.if i ps her for my pastries, she will just slaughter me i think.lol.i can seriously just live with pastries, cakes and breads *smiling naively* i will still survive i think.probably with diabetes or high cholesterol at the end of the day.LOL.loves loves <3

my handphone is going to be 2years old soon.at 1 year and 11months old now, i have taken around 11373pictures and still counting.that amounts to 16.247 pictures a day.is that an amazing figure? lol.i personally feel that it is quite amazing leh.i'll prolly wanna take on a challenge to have at least 24photos taken a day.that equates to 1photo every hour.haha.now, my hp lacks memory space.so sad.i really wanna get a new hp soon.lg icecream? samsung ultratouch? i dont know.i just want a phone which i can decorate my blings on! haha.my blings are collecting dust for 2months liao =.=

class from 8 to 4 tml! power lessons.i think i'll dabao my scones and muffins to eat in school.HAHA.yumyum :P

#388

2009-07-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

yayness.i did a volcano cake instead of a sponge cake today.cool leh.purposely make my cake stands out from the rest.yea, right.lol.that's how me and my partner console ourselves! XD damn sad leh.it is supposed to be like a simple sponge cake and we can even screwed it up.i think i really need practice.maybe i'll try the same recipe out at home this weekend.cant believe i cant make it work.lol.i am like so determined to make it a success can.cannot rest my mind whenever i think of my does-not-look-a-teenie-bit-like-sponge-cake-cake.lol.terrible english used over here i know =X damn depressed lah.and tml another baking session again! SCONES.haha.as usual, chef mentor baked delicious scones in today's demo lah.i somehow have this bad feeling that mine will be a flop AGAIN tml.damn sad.i think i'll really cry if i cant get it right tml.i will just bang my head against the wall seriously.coz i'm just such a dumbass -.-

love the kitchen uniform loads.just that it's really damn hot outside the fish tank when i'm donning it.perspire like mad and can really die of heat lor.although pastry kitchen is air-conditioned, i cant feel the aircon coz i'm feeling damn hot working around the station.abit =.="|| right.tml must bring own scale and some other equipments tml.if not got to chiong for those stainless steel bowls etc.lol.i think we need more utensils in the kitchen sia.i am still depressed over my sponge cake lah.wth.stupid cake! >.<

as promised, here's a photo! haha.taken with pauline's hp.coz i didnt carry mine with me.and my hp is damn dead today lah.red batt.i cant even receive calls.hurhur.pathetic.i wanna change hp soon! :D

#387

2009-07-08T23:07:00.001+08:00

i am eggcited for my first practical in the morning tml.hehe.CANT WAIT.and i seriously wonder if i can sleep tonight.haha.i know it's just a sponge cake! but but..i dont know.lol.cant wait to don the kitchen uniform too.heh.shall wait the pants to school first.then i'll wear my jacket over in school and change into my boots.oh, and i think i need to tie up my hair at home too.tried tying it up today and ohgosh, it's amazing that i do not have alot of hair poking out here and there.it's pretty neat i would say.and with the hairnet, i'm pretty sure that my hair can be kept in place well :D my head is big enough for the hairnet.lol.not the other way round.wow O.O will take a picture of myself in full uniform tml and i'll post it here! HAHA.i think it's so omfg cool lah.group A students all look so chef-like today can.i cant wait for morning to come! and i hope i can wake up sia.die die also my drag myself up at 6.30a.m.i hope my hair dont give me problems in the morning.lol

and projects.yes, gonna kickstart them soon.deadlines on the 5th week is like UBER fast? it's like a week before my lady gaga concert.if i wish the concert to come sooner, i am actually hoping my project deadline to come SOONER.dammit.i wanna the deadline can.hello, it's already going to be end of week 1 soon.i am feeling abit shitty now

waiting for news.hmm.it's taking pretty long for them to process this time round.probably due to their new system.arghs.why do they have to change T.T

#386

2009-07-07T19:28:00.004+08:00

i think it is pretty hard to describe some things in words sometimes.pictures does say a thousand words.and i'm referring to my timetable over here.haha:

i like my timetable leh.actually friday my group is supposed to have practical in the morning de.then the other group had to do theirs in the night.however, they already have 2 night sessions on tues and wed =X if they friday also night lesson, then their timetable will end at 7 or 8 on every weekday lah.that is terrible can.i think after exchanging the timeslot with them on friday, it is more fair and reasonable lah (:

i have DYED my hair black today! it's chestnut black.haha.i love black hair now.omg.it's been sooooo long since i had BLACK hair.lol.it's super black in color.so black until i feel so unnatural XD i've always thought that my natural hair is black in colour.but from what i see, it is not REALLY that black in color.now i know why people say my hair is not black before.it really isnt.i cant even recognise myself in the mirror just now =X i think i look like a secondary school kid sia.haha.black hair really makes a big difference.or maybe it's because i haven seen myself in black hair for years liao =\ here's how i look like now! pardon me for my oily face.that's how i look like being drenched in the rain not once, but TWICE:

talking about being drenched, just how suay can i get to get drenched twice.and i didnt bathe after getting drenched.i ironed my clothes first.lol.i seriously love ironing clothes.ironing MY OWN clothes to be exact.i dont enjoy ironing my family's clothes.hahah.funny huh.anyway my purpose of ironing today is to iron my kitchen uniform.hee.it's not crumpled now :D but there's a big problem.how on earth can i bring my uniform to school? if i fold it, it'll definitely get crumpled.but if i buy those suit covers for my uniform, it's a little bit over right? =X but i really love to wear it ironed.i will seriously buy a suit cover for them sia.and i'm more than willing to like carry it with my hands to school - even if my school moved to toa payoh next year.lol.that just shows how much i love IRON-ed clothes >.<

the moon is damn yellow and round tonight.coz it's the 15th on lunar calendar.haha.took a picture of it when i was out just now.but my lappie's bluetooth abit sot.cant connect with my HP.grr.oh, and i nearly forgot to mention that i have not only uploaded the ndp photos on my 4th attempt on FB, i had also uploaded 2 fireworks video.heh.so proud of myself last night ok.patient freak.lol

#385

2009-07-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

uhh.somehow i feel that i've not been blogging for years.lol.and these few days seem to pass VERY fast.i'm feeling as if i only had 12hours a day T.T

went NDP preview 3 on saturday.thanks who sidney who got us the ticks! haha.i kinda like the ndp bag leh.i managed to remove the ndp logo and the sponsor slip thinggy on on the bag.heh.now it looks like a CHIONG crumpler bag XD bright orange colour summore! i like :D and i have the urge to get other colors like blue and pink.LOL.need tickets..haha.and we saw jimson on duty that day sia.he took our temperatures.and he still can tell me jokingly that i'm 36.1degrees.haha.no fever ok! i really took good care of myself for the past few days lah.haha :p

and i was damn pissed on sunday.wanted to upload those NDP pictures.but i dont know what the fcuk is wrong with FB.it doesnt want to upload my photos.dammit.guessed how many tries i had? THRICE.and i am uploading them the 4th time now while typing this entry.i HOPE it can succeed.i've been trying to upload it for so many times already lah.so sick and sian to click all the pictures can.i dont even bother to scan the nicer one out.coz it'll be damn sian diao if i were to spend time scanning the nice pics out yet FB still doesnt want to upload my photos successfully.you'll know how irritated i feel when you get 3 unsuccessful attempts uploading around 100+ pics i guess? you will really feel like throwing your lappie against the wall =.= let's see if it is successful.if it is, you can view the photos on my FB.i wanna upload videos of the fireworks too.but PROVIDED the photos are uploaded.if not i dowan to waste my time uploading liao.damn fcking pissed can.zZz

first day of school today.hah.lessons are more like icebreaking sessions.relaxing lah.and it's really challenging to know how to use the locker.maybe i'll get more fluent in using it as the days go by :D

and GOOD news.my timetable is not that jialat is i thought it would be.teehee.practicals are divided into 2 grps! which means i dont have to study 8am to 7pm/8pm daily.hehheh.GOOD.i am gonna have some good mahjong sessions and outings :D at least got some life + some healthy lifestyle sia.makes me feel so much happier XD and the best tings is, I CAN ATTEND MY LADY GAGA CONCERT! omfg.hahaha.end school at 1pm every wednesday! woohoo! i wanna see lady gaga real soooonnnn!!! i cant wait to see her omfg.haha.but thursday morning is my practical =X it's okay though.as long as i can get priority entry to the concert ground and get in time for her concert, who cares about zouk! (or maybe i can go lah, at most thursday become walking zombie in school @.@) i am soooo looking forward to 12th Aug! it's like a more important date than my birthday.haha.who cares about my birthday please.it only reminds me that i'm a year older.fcukit.i'm like OLD.hate to be going into the twenties.i wanna be forever 17 or 18.i am envious of some of my new friends.17years old..it's good to be young.really (:

and as i'm going to end my entry now, the fcuking FB got hanged uploading my photos again.wth.i am really ANGRY.i really dont bother about uploading liao.lagshit and waste of my time.dammit.4tries! wtf.i cant believe my patience in them.tsk

i need to do something about my blogshop i guess.lol.been neglecting it for a few days liao.omg! p.s: i have not been doing advertisement tagging for my blog for a month already! pathetic XD

#384

2009-07-02T23:49:00.003+08:00

just received my timetable today.i will be lying with OPEN eyes if i say i am not SHOCKED when i see my schedule.just take a look at it:

on average, i'll be spending my time from 8a.m. to 7p.m. in Shatec daily.wow.i thought nine-to-five jobs were bad enough.it is not even a 5days week.this is what i called speechless.lucky shatec is at bukit batok now.i cant imagine my life at toa payoh next year.omfg.why cant i enrol into Shatec a few years earlier - NP wont move campus right.OR rather, why cant Shatec move in 2011! XD

besides being dumbfounded by the timetable, i am actually pretty looking forward to the demo baking classes.see the 5-straight-hours block on my timetable? there are six of them, and they are the demo baking classes.heh.the first thing that came across my mind is FOOD.yes, i'm a glutton towards all sorts of breads, cakes and pastries.HAHA.provided they are delicious of course :P

and bad news.my lady gaga concert falls on a wednesday.the concert starts at 8pm.but i end school at 7.15 =.= and since i've got early bird tickets, i can get priority entry to the concert grounds.tell me how on earth am i gonna make it in time -.- unless i get myself an MC that day or i might need to request to leave class early =X but my reason will be damn cui lah.i cant imagine myself telling the in-charge:"may i leave class an hour earlier today? Coz i had a date with lady gaga later!" XD mygod.howhowhow.and thursday school starts at 8a.m..i seriously DONT THINK that i can make it for school the next morning.MC for 2days lah =X then i'll have ALOT of class to makeup for.hurhur.i really dont know what to do now.howhowhow.i really dont wanna miss ladygaga.coz who knows when she'll be performing in SG again! RAHH.所谓船到桥头自然直.maybe i shouldnt think too much about it now =X but i cant help to think how funny it'll be if i get demerit points if i left class early to attend lady gaga's concert.wtf -.-

anyway, read the student handbook too.APPEARANCE.lol.they only state that hair must be neat, long hair should be tied up (i will TRY to tie my hair).and most importantly, hair cannot be in outlandish colours, like purple, red, pink , blue etc.PHEW.my hair color is none of those lah! haha.so i'm pretty sure i'm safe! (i hope) =X

getting it over and done with soon.stay with me.bring me through (:

#383

2009-07-01T22:01:00.004+08:00

SAD.i've got fever.it's not h1n1.lol.i swear.coz i THINK i know why i fell sick.the COLD ktv room + my own problems.haha.anyway, fever is not the main symptom of h1n1.h1n1 is like a flu strain.and given that i am so proned to getting fever, it's just a normal case for me.just that i feel lethargic every now and then, which is bad.and when i feel lethargic, i will eat and sleep and eat and sleep! haha.shit.not a good feeling to feel unhealthy when i'm sick.and no airport trip for me tml.doing myself and the public good.being socially responsible okay.maybe a lil bit irresponsible by not visiting the doctor :X

and i'm pretty shocked that people can tell i'm sick today.i tried to be as normal as possible already.but i guess my voice gave myself away =.= and i had to lie that i'm not sick! XD my reason was:"coz i just wake up lah.voice not open yet.." lol.bought my story :P

i had better take better care of myself these few days.and i had better finish what i had to do before school starts.i dont wanna drag and drag until i cant even study in peace =.= and gosh, i dont have a thermometer.sigh T.T

oh, i guess i forgot to mentioned that i've watched transformers.i think it's SO-SO only.i suppose guys will prefer the movie more.lol.but i like optimus prime.LOL.i think he's cool :D i can say that i grow up playing transformers toys okay.no kidding.i can still remember the miniature optimus prime toy i had last time.it's around 4cm by 1cm by 1cm i think.super miniature.and there are 2 or 3 more transformer toys.then i'll always play and transform them to fight with one another.lol.i think they are lying somewhere inside my storeroom now.LOL.a two decades old toy.omg.i bet it can fetch quite a sum now.HAHA :P tamiya cars, transformers, captain planet, power rangers..okay, most of them are boyish toys.can't be helped coz i'm surrounded by boys when i was YOUNGER.i insist that i'm still young now XD brothers..cousins..kindergarden days..lower primary school days..sums up to around 7-8years sia.i cant believe it @.@

the power to stay on..YOU! incredibly AMAZED.you made me strive and pull through every day O.O addicted to youyouyou (:

#382

2009-06-30T22:04:00.003+08:00

i think nothing can describe how i am feeling now.zZz.it's worse than shit.i'm like a ship sailing on the ocean freely and suddenly i kena two big bombs one after another.darned.lol.and i have not enough power to repair my ship and move on.i need help.and the help is coming reallyyyyyy slooooowwww.so wols until i feel like ugh, wishing i have the power to solve everything.it's time to test your inferring skills XD

top1ktv was not bad wor.it's better than what i have expected.i definitely prefer it more than kbox.lol.and i cant believe that 11to6 was NOT enough for the 3 of us to finish singing all our songs @.@ and i am even more SHOCKED to see lady gaga's official poker face and just dance mtv there.WOW.previously i can only watch those mtvs on my pathetic small lappie screen.and today it was on a large tv.cool~ ohya, their tv is so much better than kbox's.and i like the system they use to pick songs :D and i really got a kick today singing pokerrrr face and just dance! haha.NICE leh.and somebody cant believe that i can sing them.lol.it's fun sia.i think i wont patronise kbox anymore, unless there's peer pressure =X coz i'm so in lurve with top1ktv now^^ p/s: it even has Super Junior's U! but in chinese version though.i wanted to sing the korean version but when i saw the chinese words, i totally SIAN half =.= at least put hanja there or just the romanized lyrics so i can sing lah.i'm totally -.-""|||||| when i see the chinese words can.and it's super weird singing the chinese words.maybe it's just my fault for not remembering the lyrics of U.hurhur.i want another KTV dose.HAHA.and i'll definitely bring my jacket along! fcuking cold there lah.the 2 of them damn power.can tolerate the cold.i am shivering even with chunlong's (i dont really know how to spell his name) jacket on.SUPER FREEZING COLD.i think they purposely make the room cold so that we wont drink alot, yet we will still visit the toilet alot.LOL.scheming sia =X but i like their service there.hah.so it's okay to be a lil scheming XD

i am like super FULL now.ate too much for dinner -.- i guess i cant have supper later T.T

#381

2009-06-29T12:33:00.003+08:00

i've been a lil bit lazy to update my blog for the past few days.lol.i'm even lazy to tweet.LOL.any spare time i had was to just rest, relax and watch some teevee.and to EAT also.lol.if i didnt munch anything i think i'll just fall asleep.last night ate too much and couldnt sleep at all.sugarrush XD and i got myself entertained at sgclub.hoping to pass some time inside there by reading interesting posts.HAHA

somehow i feel that short hair is the craze now.lol.probably coz it's SUMMER and the weather's bloody hot.i guess i'm the only crazy one who wants to grow my hair =X i love dadong's new hairstyle.i think he looks better in short, layered hair.lol.cuteee looking.and fanfan looks better with short hair too.lol.but i still wanna have my hair totally LONG.and it's abit kns now as its not long nor short and i dont wanna to trim it coz i want it long.damned

school is like starting real SOON.next week, at this time, i should be in school already.mygod.here comes the end of my retirement lifestyle.lol.not really VERY sad, but i'm actually quite eggcited for school.i'm VERY curious over how the theory lessons are like and also looking forward to practicals.hehheh :D

talking about practicals, i finally cleared the cocoa powder and millac cream last afternoon.yes, another brownie.it's funny.i dont faeel good during the batter preparing procedures.yet the cake turned out to be that moist brownie - not a look-more-like-chocolate-cake in my last attempt week or so back.shocking can.and mum my attribute this "success" to her presence.like..uhh..okay lah.haha.if she wanna puts it this way, then it shall be XD i'm pretty surprised with the outcome and i'm glad they like the cake.and i'm also glad that ahma and ahgong loves it! :D however, the weird me still prefer my not-so-successful-banana-cake.lol :P

ooh.and i LOVE to iron clothes.lol.i realise that on saturday.haha.actually i loved to wear ironed clothes very much.it just gives you more confidence and makes you look more presentable doesnt it? but i'm just PURE lazy to take out the iron board and iron to start ironing.and since my mum had finally resume her ironing session on weekends after a hiatus of 6weeks, i took the chance to join her! i haven worn ironed clothes for bloodyhell long.i guess the last time was my ironed secondary school uniform.LOL.sad right.in fact not that long lah.on and off got do some ironing.but it isnt so frequently done that i could REALLY remember.for e.g. CNY then iron clothes =.=

i guess i haven upload pics of of the Lady Gaga concert ticks.i'm so kiasu that i collected my ticks at lot1 the same afternoon, after i had place order online the same morning.lol

quite alot of stuffs happened recently and i dont think i've shown much patience in doing things =X my bad ):

#380

2009-06-26T16:43:00.003+08:00

wahrao.i think i have reached the ultimate level of being so tired that i couldnt sleep anymore.lol.funny right.i am tired but i just couldnt get to sleep.hurhur.i was so tempted to continue my sleep in the morning yet i had to drag myself out of bed.and when i could take a short nap just now, i totally cant sleep.wtf

now i understand why some adults can suffer from workaholic symptoms.sometimes i wonder if it is worth to work for the sake of money.but in my case, i dont think i am working for money.i am working for my bakery..lol.now i know what is called NO PAIN NO GAIN.you really have to sacrifice something to achieve another thing.the first time i find the world to be so fair and equal.LOL.all of a sudden, i hope i can have 48hours a day.and i will dedicate 24hours to sleeping.hah

anyway, the first thing that i saw on the net today was the big news that micheal jackson passed away due to cardiac arrest.i am SUPER shocked.it is quite scary to know that death can happen so sudden.i suppose the media and people around the world will be very concerned with this issue for the next few days..

so you'll wonder..you've worked so hard all your life just to earn money for a better future.but you must also make sure that you have the life to spend it >.< but you also cant spend away whatever you earn.save also dont know if you have the chance to use it in the future not.LOL.what a dilemma =.=

is transformers really that good and nice? i dont seem to have any positive or good feeling towards watching that movie.lol.shall see on monday ya.skarli i'll get addicted and go online to watch its first movie.HAHA

yesterday was matriculation day.i love the kitchen uniform! haha.tried the full set on last night and i think it's damn cool omg.haha.LOVES.but the boots is abit..ugly =X and the textbook is fuking ex lah.before i purchase, i even thought about looking for a similar book on TaoBao.wth.too reliant on TaoBao is not a good thing.lol.anyway, i'm considering to stop my TaoBao spree already.coz school's starting and seriously, it's the first time i wanna really concentrate on studies.but preorder will be ongoing as usual depending on the demand.i can do private one too.so it'll be like accomodating to my schedule and not something that is fixed and i'm committed to do (: i cant wait to learn and bake new things soon! i wanna learn how to bake danish.seriously i think i will be over the moon if i learn how to bake pastries.and to bake them well! haha.happy happy~ :DD

slowly realising a dream...

#379

2009-06-24T09:46:00.003+08:00

i bet i lived up to the word KIASU today.lol.and i'm glad i did :D from 8.57am onwards, i was refreshing the sistic page like mad.lol.coz i want to book the lady gaga concert ticks FAST.haha.and i guess i'm really fast enough.i wasnt even that enthu when i was applying for my tutorial classes or electives in poly.lol.the transaction was smooth.waha.everything was like "one-click-get-through".after i've made payments for my booking, i actually went back to the page and try to "purchase" a few more tickets again.and this time round, i couldnt get through to the booking page.heh.lucky i woke up early.if not i'll be screaming in front of my laptop and banging the table now.LOL.now it's getting even more "laggier" on the sistic page."Bad gateway" it states.i bet alot of people are trying hard to load the page.and there i am, contributing to the already slow SLOW page loads =X i should have like bought 100tickets instead.LOL.just kidding.if i do that, my mum will kill me when she sees her credit card bills next month.i think she'll kill me this month already T.T very sad.but i'm so happy to get the ticks! haha.but i'm starting to regret not buying more ticks.LOL.lalala~ WHOA.at 10pm now, no more early bird ticks.ALL SOLD OUT LE! omfg fast.so glad to be one of the early birds.coz i can get prior entry to teh concert ground and free entry to zouk on 12 aug! :DDD i am GAGA now.hahaha

in fact, i am very tired now.but i am too happy and eggcited to sleep.lol.and i better not sleep.coz i had to pack my stuffs.lol.matriculation day tml and i haven even prepare my documents.great.i think i can forget about sleeping tonight.i'll be a walking zombie at shatec tml.zZz

i think i'm a spoilt brat.a very spoilt one ): i think i am treating myself too well.too well to the extend that i expect similar treatments from others.everytime i try to satisfy what i want and it has become a big issue overtime.because it is me, i can control.but i cant control people.so i cant expect people to do things i want them to do.i guess i need to learn to be more understanding.and i need to be nice.yet i cant seem to be nice at times.i hate that too.but i dislike people asking me this and that when i'm busy doing my stuffs.i'm like already busy and you are adding to my workload? and it's not that i dont want to stop, but i've already started so i'm determined to finish what i'm doing before i take a rest.and i know sometimes it's like neverending.by the time i'm done, it's already donkey minutes ago :X how i wish i can be more fluent in multitasking.then i can strike a good balance and i wont feel so bad anymore.i will try ok.then i wont be ignoring and neglecting people around me.there must be a way to have a win-win situation.and i will know how :D

actually, there's something that has been on my mind for quite a lonnnnggg while this year.i've been wanting to bake for someone for quite a loooonnnnggg while.maybe it's not very long bah.just because it keeps going through my mind and i think it's long already.LOL.see how i always give in to myself =.= i wanna bake a birthday cake for a special somebody.heh.who? you'll know when the time comes.this is one of my greatest wish this year.i hope to accomplish it.hee :D

waiting patiently(:

#378

2009-06-23T16:55:00.003+08:00

OHYES.the taobao parcel has finally cleared customs and arrive in SG.a big saga with the China customs.i'm so sorry to my customers for taobaoo spree #o4 for the delay.but i doubt they'll see my apologies here.haha.i will email my apologies to them later.wont be free till this weekend.so i guess i'll only have time to pack on weekends and dispatch all items on monday.i hate to delay too, but arghs, i've got no time =.="||

just baked my banana cake and it's lol.not enough banana again.wtf.the first time i put 4bananas and it's too little.last time i put 8-9bananas and it's too much.today i put 6bananas nia.still not enough! which means i must put 7? lol.sian lah.how i wish i can turn back time and put 7bananas in.grr.anyway i think i set the temperature too high just now.lol.used the same temperature i used to bake my brownie.and it's LOL.shit lah.but it's still edible! lol.not bad i would say, but it's not as good as i thought it would be.so i'm DISAPPOINTED.really.and i really dont feel like bringing it to cck stadium tml.it's such a...a...throw face XD but i know what i can do to make up for it :D

no pictures as i'm charging my hp(:

i think i'm going to bring alot of stuffs tml.big bag + 2 small bags.i am abit sian to do so.i need to bring the cakes, my shoes, my clothes, my towel, my shower gel and stuffs.i wanna wanna move my entire fridge and wardrobe to cck stadium can.and i haven started packing yet.HAHA.lazy lah.summore i still got things undone..dammit

i am pissed off.some retards tagged nonsense on my bs.and i had to delete and ban that person.whoever that person is, go eat shit can.get a life elsewhere if you are too free.count yourself lucky that i didnt manage to track down who you are.there are some details that i've tracked out but i dont think it's appropriate for me to list it down.if you left down your particulars, at least i can get in touch with you.you inconsiderately left anonymous comments and you expect me to give you respect? noway.if you happen to read my blog, target me instead.

#377

2009-06-22T20:57:00.003+08:00

wtf.i didnt realise that i forgot to publish my entry yesterday =.= i thought i clicked the orange button so i axed and continued to do my stuffs.zZz.forget it.anyway i think we're having a super belated father's day celebration this year.i dont know when lah.we are all so fickle-minded.lol

HAPPY today.haha.coz i went swimming~ whee~ lol.it's damn cooling lah.it's the first time i had goosebumps inside the water.haha.i was feeling cool all the while until i stepped into my house.i started to perspire =.= wahlao eh.totally sian can.machiam like stepping into oven liddat.how i wish i can stay in the pool forever.haha.provided my skin dont get WRINKLED =X

there's quite alot of people at the pool today.coz it's still school holidays.people-watched and see the kids doing funny stunts.lol.it's quite entertaining actually XD

gonna bake banana cake tml.heh.i wonder if i should put coffee emulco into the cake.coz my mum want me to bake coffee cake.but uh, i wanna bake banana cake? since she bought bananas, i dont wanna waste it.that's why i dont wanna bake brownies either.i've only heard before banana chocolate cake.banana coffee cake? it should be a unique concoction.maybe it'll turn out nice? haha.hope it'll be nice lah.coz it'll be shin yen's birthday cake (as requested by sidney) on wednesday.lol.so egg-cited to bake the cake tml.haha.and this gives me a good business idea..heh

there's no BBT for me today.instead, my dad did ice-blended orange juice for me XD it was quite nice, just that he should put lesser water and more ice.lol.he'll be doing ice-blended coffee for us tml.waha.looking forward to that too^^

i wanna swim again tml.hoho.let's see if i can make time for that :D need to work now.bleah.clicked the orange button! XD

#376

2009-06-21T21:58:00.019+08:00

it's Father's Day today! haha.but we're gonna have a delayed celebration tml.supposed to go Ikea for dinner tonight.but my mum suggested Hilltop for dinner tml night :D

so shag yesterday that i think i was doing things subconsciously last night.lol.i literally chionged to bed after finishing my daily work.tired can.and i know why i'm so tired.coz my right eye got "injured".i didnt know my contact lens chipped off at it's side.no wonder i can feel pain on and off at times yesterday.i thought some fine sand must have made its way into my eyeballs =.= so i merely gave it a hard blink to make the pain less "severe".lol.and this morning, i woke up with pus at the side of my right eye.ugh.it's disgusting.poor eye.i feel so bad.i should have put some eyedrops last night when it's already hurting.at least the moisture can ease some friction between the slight "blister" under my eyelid and my eyeball >.< sorry eyes1 anyway i have thrown that pair of lens away liao.it's my Freshlook lens btw.not GEO.haha.never experience lens chipping on GEO lens before.i dont wanna experience it either.i dont want my eyes to undergo such incidents again.it's just not VERY right to have pus coming out from your eyes @.@

i think my skin will begin to peel off soon.coz i'm feeling pain on my shoulder and shoulder blade ): not looking forward to the ugly peels.but i wanna swim soon.i miss swimming! XD

let me recall what happened at sentosa yesterday.haha.the first thing we did there was to play luge.before that we had to take the skytrain.denise and jerome was before me and kenneth.when you sat down on the bench, there is this black handle that the helper will pull down to keep us safe during the ride.denise is tall you seeso the handle kind of brushed across her head when the helper pulled it down.i saw what happened and i was laughing? lol.i know it's mean.there's 2helpers - one who marks the ticket, and the other who pulls the handle.then the guy helper who marks ticket shake heads when he see me laughing.lol.he even commented,"wah, so bad arh.laugh at your friend" =X hahaha.but it's really abit funny mah.then the other helper gave me a shock when he "confiscated" my volleyball.he told me that he need to take it from me coz i cannot bring it up.and i gave him my very common and usual reply nowadays,"ah?! really arh?" in fact i dont mind leaving the ball with him sia.but he returned to me and say he's just kidding -.- they are 2 very funny helpers.and they look young.looks around teh same age as us.so i was thinking and asking kenneth if they could be attachment students.LOL.then he say maybe work parttime de lo.i wouldnt mind working parttime leh.but i wanna work under shades.LOL :P then there was this camera that will take pictures of you halfway through the skytrain journey.i didnt realise kenneth was pointing the camera and asking me to pose a few seconds before the camera snapped a photo of us.so i was totally unprepared and the photo was super unglam can.damn embarrassing.and i knew the existence of the camera only when there's a super glaring flash.lol.when we reach the "top", i embarked on my first luge ride.it's quite fun leh.and we were like racers doing F1 on the luge.haha.since it was my first time,i didnt know there's a camera in the near the end of the ride.so i didnt stop to pose lah.i just chionged through lor.i think the helper there must be wondering what's up with me - why didnt i break.haha.anyway, that is not the funniest thing.jerome, kenneth and other lil boy was in front of me.so they had a photo taken when they slightly break their cars.so when i when back to the station to look at the photos on the screen, i was actually taken by the camera! i was at the extreme top right hand corner on their photo! it's super small can.the timing is just right.coz if i'm a sec slower, i would have been cropped out of the photo.if i had been faster, i wouldnt have been at the extreme top right hand corner of the photo XD after the first ride, we decided to do our 2nd ride at a later time.so we walked down to siloso beach, and then to rasa resort sentosa.on our way there, we saw daniel ong.i didnt realise it was him until jerome or kenneth told us so.and denise said no wonder he looked so familiar.lol.it was only when i recalled him driving past us, then i realise he was daniel ong.LOL.98.7fm was having the hotbods competition yesterday on siloso.we didnt know that XD i only know CLEO is having an event there this coming sat.lol.so when we're about the reach rasa resort, we saw the tent setup by 98.7fm.then there was the Kotex balloon structure there (i forgot what is the term called).and i was asking denise why on earth is kotex sponsoring for this event.will the female winner get a year of free kotex supply from them? hahha XD

so what on earth were we doing at rasa resort.we wanted to have buffet at this shangri-la hotel.but it was ex lah.so we went to eat at the food junction near underwater world.the food there is omfg ex.no wonder singapore concentrates so much on the tourism industry.haha.after a filling lunch, we took the tram back to the luge and had our second round.this time round, we switch partners on the skytrain ride.me and denise, jerome and kenneth.and the same helper who mark the tickets for our first ride is still there.this time round, he's helping to pull the handles.so when both of us sat on the bench, the guy told denise that i laughed at her just now.LOL.and i told denise why.then again, the handle hit her head.LOL.so i reiterated why i laughed just now, and laughed again XD i now i'm bad.haha.but that proves that you're tall! it's good! =D this time round, we manage to pose for the camera when we're on the skytrain.the photo is nice! haha.but we didnt buy of coz.lol.and this time round, i manage to pose for the camera near the end of the ride too.haha :p

after that, denise had to leave.we sent her off and we took the minibus to palawan beach.strolled the beach, took the bridge and went to the "southernmost" point of SEA.it was super windy on the tower.how i wish it could be that windy everyday in singapore XD but i read on the straits times that el nino is coming.hurhur.so i guess the heatwave is gonna stay for a long while.sigh ):

then we saw 2 women doing handstands and walking on the beach.it's omfg pro.haha.they are foreigners.blonde if i'm not wrong.damn power XD after that we went to the stand to wait for the minibus to pick us up and take us to tanjong beach.the "secluded" beach as what kenneth said.lol.but i think it's more of an animal beach.there's so many pet dogs there! XD while we were waiting for the bus, i was trying to pump the volleyball as it was abit "soft".when i was about to pull off the pump needle, the needle got detached from the pump and it got stucked on the ball -.- what's worse, the air i just pumped into it was coming out.like wth?! it was damn funny lah.and it took us quite some time before we get a way to pump air back into the volleyball.damn retarded but quite fun lah XD

i remembered it was about to rain when we got up the minibus for it to bring us to tanjong beach.so when we're on the minibus, it started to rain.then we decided to go back to the monorail express station.but when we got there, the rain stopped.thus, we didnt alight from the bus.the uncle was like,"what are the 3 of you doing on my bus? dont you wanna get off?" kenneth told him that we wanna go back to the beach.we can feel that the uncle is abit pissed when he's shaking his head.lol.we're not doing it on purpose, nor are we enjoying the aircon.LOL.maybe i'm the only one enjoying the aircon.bloody hot there.haha.raining makes it more humid @.@ so we alighted at tajong beach and we had our beach soccer (with my volleyball), beach volleyball and beach monkey.we were bored.really.then we decided to play with seawater, make sandcastles with our hands, and then, we went for a real swim in the water.after that, we had a short tanning.haha.we dot have any mats.so we just laid on the sand XD then i started to bury my legs under the sand.initially, it was a small hill nia.then kenneth and jerome joined in and a mountain is formed on my legs.haha.i call it sand therapy.it's quite enjoyable.lol.my legs feel damn shiok under the sand.haha.after that, i was damn sandy.LOL.went for a bathe and left tanjong beach, left sentosa

had dinner at carl's junior in vivo, then we strolled vivo.i realise vivo is not that big afterall.we seem to walk back to the same place again and again.LOL.the best thing that happened in vivo was the subzero national geographic enclosure.$1 to experience subzero degrees for a min in the enclosure.and you'll experience how it's like to be an animal in the zoo.lol.it's quite interesting.but i doubt the enclosure is in subzero degrees.coz you'll usually find the cold air "biting" your skin if the surrounding air is in negative degrees.but i dont feel so even when the fan is blowing hard at me XD or maybe that's the difference between natural cold air/wind and manmade cold air/wind =X but your body can feel a big difference in the temperature.before i entered the enclosure, i was shivering cold walking around vivo.especially in topshop =\ but after my visit there, i nearly perspired walking around vivo again.hahah.it's not exaggerating.it's true.i believe that i'm cut out to live in cold countries :D

then, we had home sweet home! haha.damn shag.and i'm tired again *yawns*

#375

2009-06-20T22:24:00.001+08:00

went to visit my grandparents last night again! ahma looks much healthier now.i'm not sure if it's due to the illusion that she's lying down =\ but she looks "meatier" to me.prolly because she has been eating for the past 2 days.that's good! haha.and she made great improvement by eating 6 mouthfuls for dinner last night :D anyway, it was a short gathering before my australian auntie made her departure to australia this morning.heard she's returning in october.i wonder if my cousin will come back too.haha.she's like so grown up now lah.haha.and her mum says she's abit taller than me.hurhur.she's turning 16 soon and she cant wait to buy a cooper and drive.i am turning twenty soon and i am not VERY interested in learning to drive.what a stark difference =.=

just look at the box of fried rice below.once you see it, you'll feel full immediately lah.damn scary.the famous $10 fried rice.HAHA.it's like over the brim of the paperbox can =.=

sentossaaa was fun today! the funny things is, my face wasnt really "sunburnt".and i didnt apply sunblock on my face.instead, my shoulder kena sunburnt.and i applied sunblock on it -.- weird huh.and i think i got turn a lil blacker lor (maybe redder).but my dad still say i'm white.he expects me to be charcoal-ed =.= i am very happy with my skin colour now can.oh, and i realise that i still have the "LUGE" word on my right hand.i wonder what kind of ink they use for the stamp sia.i have swam in salt water, played in sand, perspired like mad, bathe in sentosa, bathe at home, and it's still there! wth.it's abit unbelievable huh.anyway, luge was fun.heh.if only the ASA card is still available.then i can take unlimited rides (i think).RAHH.will try to ask my mum to see if she can get the sentosa pass.then we can go sentosa play again.TEEHEE.i am already looking forward to the next trip.heh.and i've just burnt a big hole in my pocket today T.T hope i can earn enough to cover these expenses and hope i can earn ENOUGH to start my own business after i graduate.hee.from what i see, it is quite possible if everything goes smoothly.rights, ganbatte~ :D

i am starting to grow my hair.hoho.if it happens that i dont like my full long hair look again, i will snip it spiky =X maybe hard lah.coz i wanna have taylor swift's nice tresses.it's the first time i find "maggi mee" lookalike hair to be so nice.LOL

i am so looking forward to wednesday!to buy my lady gaga concert ticks! haha.found people to accompany me le.heh.YAYAYAY! 12aug, here i come!!!^^

#374

2009-06-19T12:32:00.004+08:00

i think it was quite childish of me make absurd assumptions a few weeks ago.who on earth will wanna purposely fall sick to seek attention =.= the result is out.my ahma is having cervical cancer.and that affected her diet - whenever she eats, she feels pain;if she doesnt eat, she doesnt feel pain.that's why she doesnt want to eat.upon knowing the ACTUAL reason, i think some comments i made was kind of irresponsible.it's quite mean and bad of me to do that ): i always hated people to assume things and malign me.but i myself cant even do that.if i cant stand in other people's shoes to know what they are really undergoing, i guess i better not joke around with something that is so serious.and i suppose we'll just be letting things be as it is.no chemo, no treatment, no operation, no nothing.coz ahma's too weak and frail to even undergo a half body anaestetic..so.. it makes me feel that we should really cherish time and what we have around us (:

take a look at my poor flower:

that was a picture i took yesterday.actually i wanted to blog last night, but i had something to do.so i only had time to type an entry today >.< it was my first time seeing a flower that is so DEAD.lol.poor thing

and this is the healthy flower 2days ago:

the flower is very pretty! i seldom praise flowers coz i dont really like them, unless they are brightly colored and beautiful.heh.and i dont think flowers smells nice.they have those very raw flowery smell =X and this flower doesnt have those floral smell at all.teehee.so how on earth i got this flower? i happen to walk past this guy distributing flowers in front of Guardian in Westmall on Sunday.since he offered, i just take.LOL.

this was a funny/weirdly shaped tomato i saw in Shop N Save last evening:

it's like SOFT when you touch it.and the color is like transparent.as though it doesnt have a orangey reddish skin like its peers.it must have a genetic disorder.HAHA.summore, it's not round is shape (or whatever shape you call it) like its peers.it's like SQUARISH?! i didnt but that tomato of course.my mum will kill me if i do that.haha XD

#373

2009-06-18T14:35:00.002+08:00

i think i'm really getting old.yesterday's badminton session totally drained me.i losttouch with badminton for like YEARS.and i slept so well like i've never done before last night.lol.TIRED.and i'm so unfit that my right arm still feels sore today =.= nevertheless, it's still a good form of exercise.haha.looking forward to another session next week :D

anyway, yesterday's calorie-burning session was kinda futile lah.as usual, i had my BBT and also Ramily burger for supper.LOL.sad can.i'm already hoping for next week's session to do some good to me.hah.and hopefully this sat's sentosa trip can be good too.hee :D

the blister on my middle finger is giving me BIG problems.hurhur.tell me who gets blister just by holding the racquet -.- i feel so speechless to earn myself this blister lah.and the first thing that came to my mind was, "i cant bake for a week".lol.shitty.i'm glad that i've baked my brownie and chococheese tart (more like cake) last weekend and early this week (:

i've been really lazy for the past few days.lol.not been doing much productive work.hurhur.lazzzzzyyyy poke.gonna kickass and make this afternoon of mine a fruitful one! XD

#372

2009-06-16T19:15:00.001+08:00

omfg.cristiano ronaldo and paris hilton? how come those 2 names doesnt sound like a couple to me =.= but i truly hope that both of them are SERIOUS with each other.i think i sound damn naive here.haha.just imagine - both are filthy rich & both are gorgeous people.their offspring will be like WHOA.haha.i used "WHOA" coz i think there's no other good words available in my dictionary to describe how lucky their children can be XD and i guess the only thing i like about c.ronaldo is that he's a portuguese? HAHA.and well, he's leaving man u for real madrid next season.i dont know why, but it seems like most of the so-called "world-best" players will go "downhill" after they joined real =X

great news! lady gaga will be holding her concert in SG on Aug12! i am definitely gonna go for her concert.HAHA.anyone wanna join me let me know.LOL.must save up and buy the MOST expensive tickets.HEHE.and did i forget to mention that she got really nice voice? haha.i like her character, her accent, aiya, everything lah.LOL.and it's sad that she's leaving SG today (if i'm not wrong).she'll will be in Korea tml.she's like having an Asian tour.Japan, Singapore, Korea.i'm not sure what's next.haha

i've learnt alot of things these 2days! so damn cool.haha.didnt explian too much on my tweets.but i am totally AMAZED with technology please.hahah.i'm so happy to step into a new environment.a totally whole new experience for me.hopefully i can learn more and well, excel in it? haha.interesting and enjoyable.hoho.a way to widen my horizons and open the windows to the world.kewl(:

need to rush stuffs again.bleah.i'll prolly need some good rest later.if not you'll see me flat on the court tomorrow @.@

#371

2009-06-15T21:13:00.005+08:00

lol.lady gaga tweeted on 13th June.and inferring from those news articles i've read today, she's already in SG on the 13th.just that she attended the singtelamped showcase on the 14th.and i believe that she tweeted after using singtelamped - judging from the time she tweeted.hah.and wow, she like singtel's new service.too bad i'm a true-ORANGE M1 fan.i'm gonna like end my line with singtel this coming august.coz i signed a line 2years ago under my IC for my lilbro's phone =X anyway, i dont understand what she tweeted =.= i dont get what she's trying to bring across? XD

baked my so-called chococheese tart today.it was supposed to be a "father's day cake".but my dad say the cake is too cheesy for him.like baby's vomit liddat =.= i know i cannot expect everybody to like dairy products like me.his level of tolerance for cheese products is not as high as mine XD and i dont think mine is that high either.coz my mother thinks it's okay too.lol.and it's funny that he added,"this kind of highend cheesecake is not for me.i only eat those lowclass one.like those cheesecake sold in giant".lol can.those are like not pure cheesecake.if i put flour i think mine will be less cheesy.but this is quite easy to bake.damn fuss-free.and the preparation time is damn short too.hahah.i'm so "free" that i'm able to take pictures during each procedure.pictures below.i'm such a failure at making designs on the cheese mixture lah.it's supposed to be very nice choco designs on top.but mine is kns.should have kept some of the cheese mixture in case my design failed.then i could just pour the remaining over the design to cover up.LOL.didnt thought of that at the time.bleaghs >.<

#370

2009-06-13T19:12:00.009+08:00

2nd post of the day.lol.this is truly amazing.so amazing that i had to blog! i am so awed! i feel like screaming, "I WANNA PLAY THE PIANO TOO!" watch this and you'll know what i mean.wth.they are so awesome!

this is the piano version of just dance:

and this is the piano version of poker face:

both pianist are like..GOD.haha.especially the latter.it's totally omfg! i really dunno how to describe them can.i shall just admire their talent.LOL

i like just dance's mtv.i'm not sure if it's the official one.i'm having a hard time to find a good mtv on youtube lah.grr.but i especially like this one.i wanna learn the dance! XD it's damn cool omg.haha.if i'm super free, i will replay replay & reply the mtv and see if i can learn the steps.HAHA

and poker face's mtv is nice too! this is definitely the official one coz singtel amped also featured it on their website :D cant get a good one on youtube thus i sourced elsewhere :P

last of all, lady gaga is coming SG tml! haha.in like less than 16hrs time? heh.i cant fcking upload my hotmail contacts onto the contest thinggy lah.irritated.i guess there's no way to see her in person in SG.LOL.sad T.T

#369

2009-06-13T15:50:00.005+08:00

i can swear that this is my best baking session today.i think i have mastered baking brownie liao.lol.i can do the procedures fast and smooth.heh.goddamn efficient today and i am damn proud of myself.and this is definitely the best brownie i've ever made.exact temperature with good timing.it's not too hard atthe sides, and it doesnt crack too much into the middle.it's soft to touch from the top.i immediately can tell that it'll gonna be a moist brownie.not like the one i made previously.it's quite hard.no wonder my tastebuds doesnt like it.i believe i will like this particular brownie very much.i'm still waiting for it to cool before i can try it.hope i wont be disappointed.but i had a very special and different feeling when i bake today.it's a feel-good feeling.so i know this is gonna be a cake with lotsa love.teehee.i even kissed the cake! XD mwaha.loves <3 will give some to my grandparents to eat.hee.hope they'll love it :D

a pity i do not have cream cheese with me ): coz the weather is not really good in the morning and i didnt make a trip to ntuc/shop and save to buy it.arghs.really feel like baking the chococheese tart.i got a feeling that i will be successful.grr.if anyone gives me that now, i'll bake it immediately XD sigh.maybe next week bah.and i wanna bake my sugee biscuits again.lol.feel like baking banana cake too.hmm.too much stuffs to bake le.i think i'll turn my kitchen upside down if i do all the 3 items in a day XD and it's abit sian to dedicate one day each for each item.probably banana cake and chococheese tart can be made together.sugee is really tiring lah.the procedures are worse that baking cakes can.it's the first time i felt so drained out baking sugee a mth+ ago.bad experience and i'm not looking forward to that kind of experience again.i must be really cool and calm to bake sugee.if not i can really die multitasking - roll out the sugee, take not of timing, test and check if the sugee is baked till good, put in tray, take out tray, clear the tray, cool the sugee, pack them into bottles.it's not fun at all lor.the only fun part is enjoying my yummy sugee after a tiring baking session.i am really so not looking forward to this.yet i still wanna bake them =.= maybe that's called 自做虐.but you can look at it from another point of view: 先苦后甜^^

changed my bedsheets today and hah, i've never been so happy changing bedsheets.lol.firstly, i do not have to change my lilbro's bedsheets too.YES.machiam like i've been sleeping on "both" beds for the past few years of my life sia.and it's great to see him having problems changing his own bedsheets.now he know what i'm going through for the past few years of my life.he think it's easy job sia.easy for me lah.i only took like 5mins.he took around 20mins liddat.wth.i dont even need so long to change both beds can =.= a pity i dont work in he hotelier line.HAH XD damn full of myself today.LOL.and changing my cushions reminds me of my secondary school days.lol.i think i've got lots of cushions and softoys on my bed.but it's so much better and neater than last time.i've cut down quite alot of unwanted rubbish on my bed already.what's left are what i'll really hug to sleep.teehee.and some are just there to "pose" nia.especially the cushions.if i put on the sofa it'll confirm get dirtied =X i'm abit of a clean freak lah.it's like "only i can touch".i'll think it's dirty if other people touch it.unless i authorise the person to touch XD hahah.aiya, my family knows my pattern lah.they very auto one :D they know how sensitive and how pissed i'll get if they step on my tail.hee.i wont disiao the if they dont disiao me (:

i think my brownie looks like a bread when it's baking! haha.a cut big squarish brown bread XD

you cant imagine how happy i am baking.that's where i'm supposed to be^^

#368

2009-06-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

i seriously hate my injection wounds.they are still blueblack lah.i think it shouldnt be this way de lor.but what can i do..irritated.zZz

i am all geared up to do some baking tml.teehee.besides those stupid blueblacks, my left arm feels strong now.heh.and i'm baking for a reason too.i wanna let ahma try.hee.and let ahgong try too.but i'm not very sure if they will like what i bake not..coz it's like choco and cheese..lol.not very hmm..healthy for the elderly huh.but i still wanna bake.hopefully ahma can eat them.i will feel sad if she throws up ): so it's a challenge.really hope to make a good one, make her like it, and make her eat it! lol.i think it should be okay lah.it's just a cake afterall (: in fact i feel like baking now lah.but my mum will definitely say i'm siao to bake at this time.i better have the same mood i'm having now tml.LOL

weather is goddamn hot.it was 34degrees 2days back! and 35degrees yesterday i think.wahlao.and australia there 2degrees nia lah.i am so envious can.coz my couzzie didnt come SG with her mum (my auntie).and there she is, enjoying her 2degrees cool weather! here in SG is like....like......volcano lah.really feel like dying.lol.how i wish i can take a plane to australia now.zZz

eagerly awiting for replies and ugh, time to do some productive work

#367

2009-06-11T21:56:00.004+08:00

tired.seems like i'll always feel drained out whenever i visit SATA.lol.and the medical report shows that i'm a healthy gal! haha.a pity i cant see how my xray film looks like.the report only states that i had a normal size heart (like duh.) and no active lung lesion is seen.it's like only 2 short lines of description for my health report and it is printed on an A4 size paper =.= i think 2 LINES isnt a correct term.should be 2 phrases nia -.- and there's a even better one.remember the blood test that i took? one whole syringe of blood and the result is only ONE pathetic word - NON-REACTIVE.thanks alot lor.until now my left arm joint still abit pain sia.and all i get is that darned word.at least state my blood type lah.until now i still haven seen a doctor/clinic/hospital confirmation of my bloodtype sia.but i should be a B since both my parents are B.unless both my parents are not pure B.hmm.i shall talk about some bio here.haha *recalls being a Bio rep in my secondary school days* pure B, like BB & BB will result in 100% B blood children.however, if it's BO & BO, it 75% will be B blood and 25% will be O blood.sounds cheem huh.it's actually easier to explain with drawings.haha.this was one of my favourite topic in Bio.i can still remember it's one of the last few chapters in my Bio textbook.lol.bio is so fun! i miss labelling the eye parts, hearts, and all my crap explanation for different processes taking place in our body.bio is such an amazing subject.i love it soooooooooo.haha.and i am actually very disappointed that i screwed up my O Level Bio.sad.i felt that i let down mdm quek lor.a subject that i had interest in so much and yet i cant perform.sigh.that's one of my regret in life ):

made a trip down to my grandparent's house today.sigh.it makes me feel sad to see how they are doing now.i empathize them.and i really dont know what i can do to like help them in a way or another? it's really sad.why do they have to go through all these? will everyone go through these type of suffering when they get old? i imagine myself in their shoes and you know how terrible i felt? whatever i do, i need someone's help.even simple thing like drinking water, i need help.i need help to walk; i need help to sit on the wheelchair; i need help to go toilet; i need help to eat.i even need help to wipe eyedirt off my face.it's a "i am so useless" kind of feeling.and although i wanna do these simple stuffs myself, i cant seem to complete these tasks as i am too frail and weak.can anyone imagine how helpless that is? and i am so so shocked to touch ahma.she feels like bbq-ed marshmallow.i'm serious.so soft can.her muscles are like...totally degenerated? and all these happened coz she doesnt eat for 2months.hello, it's 2months! not 2days.she had shed so so so much weight.she totally doesnt look like my ahma i knew before T.T and she still remembers me.she still calls for me before i left.i felt so so sad.yet i had to pretend that everything's good.ohgosh, i'm already on the verge of crying now.what we are all afraid now is that her body absolutely cannot take food now.coz she vomits what she ate.and i saw how she threw out solid food today.why? but my mum said it's good progress when she managed to ate just ONE banana today.banana is soft.i think it's easy for her to swallow.the good thing is, banana is nutritious! but just 1 banana is insufficient for...for anything you can name.it's insufficient in nutrients for a day, insufficient to keep one full...and what else.ahgong dont even recognise me ): from what i see, he is constantly in a blank mind state.i really dont know what to say ): they make me feel that i should live life fully now.i read something on a magazine today - "Add life to your day, not add day to your life".something to ponder about..

so tired now.bleah.and my arm hurts zZz let me regain my strength soon! RAHH.looking back at life..

#366

2009-06-09T23:18:00.003+08:00

it was definitely a right choice for me to go SATA today.if not i couldnt have swam and jacuzzi last night.lol.and it was my first time dining at hilltop restaurant.if it wasnt because of the vouchers, i doubt i'll ever eat there =X and we'll most probably be dining there within these few weeks again coz we still had vouchers to spend and they are expiring on the 2nd of July @.@ i like their scallop.the way they presented that dish was nice.so pretty until i forgot to take a photo of it.LOL.and so pretty that the first thing i did was to take it up and EAT.lol.so what's left was its shell.haha.better than nothing to show over here lah.haha

today was a scary day at SATA.it's purely my own problem lah.and i believe it's my first time doing a whole body checkup.it is not those body checkup that nurses come to our primary or secondary school to conduct on us.the difference is that this checkup consists of X-ray, Blood test and Urine Test.X-ray was quite fun.i didnt even know i was done with it within a few seconds.i admit i was still in a blur state when the nurse told me that i can leave the room already O.O what i merely did is walking into the room, hugged something that the nurse asked me to, take a deep breathe and TADA, i'm done.and i need to go down on thursday to get my X-ray, other reports and stuffs.and this memorable SATA experience costs me $64.80 =.=

Xray was still okay.although i felt abit empty when i changed into the Xray robe.lol =X and everything happen so fast sia.coz to complete my medical checkup, i need to visit 4rooms in total.Xray was my first room.and before i could sit down and have some rest, i saw my number on the screen again.this time round, it is to do my blood test.and the funny thing is i do not even know i need to do a blood test! i expected myself to receive the typhoid jab there.so when i was inside the room, i see people before me having their blood "drained" from them via a syringe.i am omfg freaked out.my shoulders raised as i watched the blood flowed out from the vein into the syringe.and it's not a little bit of blood.it's like ONE WHOLE syringe.i nearly fainted.and i thought that:"heng i dunnit to do blood test.only take jab nia".so when the nurse told me to take a sit on the "hot" seat, i asked if the typhoid jab would hurt.it was then she told me that i'll be taking a blood test.WTF?! i totally cannot believe that the guy will be drawing blood out from me.i nearly wanted to cry.coz it's so scary! if there's anything that deterred me from studying at Shatec, i think this would be it.i kept asking if it would hurt and they kept assuring that it'll hurt only abit and everything will be over very fast.i do not have to worry at all.and i was like thinking how can i not be worried?! a syringe of blood leh.and i even saw how other's blood are drawn.it's like omg..i totally cannot describe how frightened i was at that time.feel like dying.really.and other people in the room saw how scared and frightened i was when the guy draw blood from me.there's like 6-7people waiting for their blood to be tested in the room.so damn embarrassing.but i couldnt care less.coz i'm really scared! you cannot expect me to put up a strong front.and i nearly cried.but i held my tears back.if not i think it'll be more embarrassing.now i know i am afraid of syringe.and my wound still hurts now.sobs.it's painful and i really feel like crying.you will know why later T.T and i cant believe that i still wanna donate blood.i'll probably faint on the spot.hahah XD

and i was supposed to press the wound for like 5mins after my blood test.but when i stepped out of the room, i saw my number on the screen again! i am due for anotehr checkup in another room.it's omg fast.i dont even have the time to sit.not to say press my wound lah.so i asked the nurse inside the next room if it's RIGHT to have blood seeping through the plaster.then she asked if i got press for 5mins not.of coz i replied no.and she ask me to press for 5mins before i go and collect my urine inside a cup.like omg.the bloodtest was already a shock to me.then now urine test?! how on earth am i going to urinate...and you cant urinate as and when you like right.there's already a problem to force out urine.and still got to collect it in a cup..summore i just got a syringe of blood drawn from me...i totally felt like giving up the test seriously =.= and i dont know where comes the courage for me to pull it through.it's totally embarrassing to walk around with your cup of urine =X then i took my height and weight.hah.i also took my pulse rate and the blood pressure thinggy.and next, the typhoid vaccination.i dreaded that.i dowan another injection sia.my poor left arm.and i was like asking if the vaccination will come out from the wound where my blood was drawn.lol.it's lame i know.but i'm just curious.coz the blood was taken from the main vein from my left arm.if she inject on my upper left arm, logically thinking, it might leak out from the other wound? =\ but i'm glad she injected the vaccination on my left arm.if not both my arms will be weak now ): after my vaccination, i felt tired.really.but i still had to wait for my last room visit.and when it came, the doctor just checked my breathing with the stethoscope and pressed my tummy.lol.i bet he can feel shit inside me.LOL.and that marks the end of my SATA trip.hurhur.i felt so drained when i stepped out of SATA.and the thought that i might need to return to get my thyphoid jab again in 3years time totally makes me sian.why cant the vaccination last for a lifetime T.T

so just now, i was shocked when i removed my plasters before bathe:

can anyone guess which plaster is for my bloodtest jab and which is for my typhoid vaccination? i am quite shocked sia.the one the right is the typhoid one.and the blood on the plaster is so bright red.like fresh blood liddat.i didnt expect more blood from the vaccination.coz the vein where blood was drawn for my blood test is visible.so logically speaking, it should bleed more? it's funny.and i really wanna cry when i see the wound.sigh.especially my typhoid wound.it's like blueblack lah.it shouldnt be like that one right? and the amount of blood on the plaster really worries me =X look at the ugly wound:

i still dont get why the vaccination wound is more serious than the bloodtest.grr.i hate it.and i hate it even more when my left arm hurts.furthermore, it is weak too.i hate this kind of feeling.i dont even dare to exert force with my left arm now T.T i feel like shit now.not sure if i should bake tml.if i do, i also cant do much bah >.<

#365

2009-06-07T22:54:00.001+08:00

before i begin my entry, i wanna share a photo that i just took.heh.can you tell which is the real and the fake lizard in the photo? if you didnt manage to spot the lizards in my super-poor-resolution-2MP-photo, here's help.one is on the floor while the other is on the TV set.i think it is quite obvious lah.answer's at the end of my post :P

eks.5th consecutive day of bbt.not bangbangtang but bubbletea XD i think i need to stop drinking them le.firstly, it is taxing on my purse and secondly, it is detrimental to my weight too =.= i bet i have gained a few extra kilos because of them O.O hmm..since i like iceblended so much, i can actually go supermarts to buy those syrups, blend ice at home myself, and make bbt myself.haha.but there wont be pearls for me to munch =X and i think my addiction has nothing to do with the hot weather.coz even during a rainy day like today, my darned legs still unwittingly walked me towards sweettalk -.- and how can i be not tempted to buy when there are no customers at all! hahha.i literally chionged to place my order.bahh.i hope my legs wont let me down tml.i shall NOT drink bbt tml.i promise (:

i think i'll most prolly go down SATA to get my thyroid injection and X-ray tml.need to like fill a medical form and submit to SHATEC when school starts.i am already looking forward to seeing how my X-ray looks like.HAH.i think there's gonna be alot of shit inside me :O not kidding.hahah.it's like damn cool lah.either tml or tues bah.see if i'm in a good mood for checkup tml.heh :P

i think neo garden's logo is cute.so cute until i cant bear to use the serviette to wipe my mouth:

and i saw the type of yummy beansprouts i ate in korea a few years back! so glad that SG imported this food product from korea! it's really yummy.i think you just need to waterboil it and you can enjoy the natural goodness of it.super nice.it's like a must eat sidedish for me EVERY meal in korea.lol

watched the 1000th and 1001th episode of WAHSH.well, it's just 2 episodes that showcases their talent.nothing much leh.i expected something more grand than just having performances =X and i think yutu, yongtu, hongshi and tangguo makes a good group.even MFBBT have choc7 after lollipop already.maybe WAHSH needs to have a second group too.moreover WAHSH has aired longer than MFBBT.and it's quite sad that fanfan is leaving MFBBT.i will miss her "heyhey" and "shibushis".lol.classic.and the way she hosts is just so fanfan-ish.LOL.anyway, i kinda like yongtu's appearance on the 1000th episode.to be more exact, i like that lady gaga lightning makeup on her face.HAHA.i think it's damn cool lah.and lady gaga is comign to SG! 14th to 16th june.woo! i like her and taylor swift.i think they have really good vocals.and their songs are uber nice! ahha.and can you believe it, i actually signed up for the singtel amped in hope to win tickets to her exclusive showcase! omg.haha.that crazy over lady gaga @.@ but i dont think it's easy to win the ticks.LOL.but well, worth a try :D

as mentioned earlier, here's the answer **drumrolls** the real lizard is the one on the floor! haha.this baby lizard has been treating the floor like her own house sia.coming in and out (from behind the cupboard to in front of the tv) as she like.and she's quite daring.so small in size yet so emboldened to travel.not long ago there's this big lizard who's "staying" in that area (i'm not sure where it has been now.been quite a while since i last saw him =X), and he's damn shy lah.he always like to hide and sneak out once in a while to grab his meal.and he's damn agile.damn BIG in size too.lol.and as i'm typing this sentence now, the baby lizard is out again, strolling along the cupboard.i think she really dont know what is called "getting into the hands of my lilbro".he'll be like so happy to catch it if he's not gaming now.lucky baby lizard.and honestly speaking, i'm pretty afraid of such daring lizard.coz i scared she'll just crawl and crawl and somehow appear under my chair.i will scream man.LOL.so tiring to look at my keyboard, look at my lappie screen, and checking out what the lizard is doing all the time -.- i'm giving my eyeballs a good workout here =.="""|||

#364

2009-06-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

alamaks.i just hope all my grandparents can be healthy this year, next year and every year.they totally make me understand the true meaning of 人老多病 =.= and i think it's not they want de lor.who would want to be sickly..some more at such an old age.生老病死 is just part and parcel of life.and some people would prefer to just die than to be sick.i am one of them.haha.it's like you just dont wish to suffer at that kind of age..right? that brings out the topic on euthanasia.but something bad about euthanasia is that NOT everybody can choose this path.they got criteria de sia.not bad right.lol.here's the definition of euthanasia from OneLook.com:

noun: the act of killing someone painlessly (especially someone suffering from an incurable illness)

heyhey, you must be suffering from an incurable illness first wor.if your illness is "curable" you cannot die as you wish.let's say i'm already 80years old now, and i'm bedridden (choy!).then i caught a flu.eh, just a normal flu.but you know catching a flu at an old age is like a big illness too.i mean if i catch a flu now, it's totally small case lah.and i'm feeling so terrible, so much feel like dying but i cannot die? HAHA.then i will need to spend quite a sum to recover in the hospital.and when i recover, i will still be old, frail and weak.what's the point..it's like wasting money and resources =\ but a life is still a life afterall.the role of doctors is to save people, including saving people from longterm suffering (euthanasia!).hah.anyway euthanasia is not allowed in Singapore.i forgot which are the few countries that accept euthanasia.sometimes i feel that euthanasia might not be a bad thing afterall.you are saving your loved ones from pain and suffering.however, i am only open to euthanasia only when the patient himself feel that he would like to take this route.it is when the patient feel that he doesnt want to waste his family's time, resources and money - provided it is an incurable illness

one more month from now is my first day of school O.o my nails are starting to grow long.lol.and my hair is growing longer too.so my hair is also getting blacker - i THINK.hah.never had i wanted black hair that badly =.= actually i still love purplish and brownish hair >.< not sure if i will have to chance to dye my hair in the future.arghs

i'm falling in love with floral prints lately.specifically floral prints bandeau.omfg gorgeous lah.i think it's starting to overwhelm my love for checkered items.lol.but to wear the former at its best, i think i need to have really long hair with bigcurls.and uh, i do not have them now -.- the best my hair can go is to look straight and rebonded.it's easy.just wax/gel/spray my hair down.hah.but since i have it short and a lil spiky now, might as well style.and i still have like 1 more lucido hair gel to use..i shouldnt waste it.lol.but one bad thing about the gel is that it doesnt really have styling power.and it makes me itch to get a gatsby wax.and if i'm not wrong, it's cheaper in msia.hairstyling products are somehow cheaper in msia.lol.i even do market research for that when i'm travelling @.@ maybe i shall grab one of them in my next trip.woo~

i am so so so obssessed with floral print bandeaus that if i could get one i fancy, i seriously dont mind wearing it everyday! haha.PRETTYYYY XD and i wouldnt mind to grow my hair and get my curls.teehee :D

bubble bubble teaaaa.i feel like drinking it now.lol.drank it for 3 consecutive days le.haha.milk tea is not bad lah.although i prefer iceblended.and i'm so addicted to it that i die die have to buy even though the lady told me no more iceblended liao.coz they are closing already.only can make me milk tea if i want.and of coz i want! lol.i think she has never seen a customer that desperate like me.haha.i can vividly remember the comment:"buying and drinking bubble tea at 10.30PM?!" lol.dont care.i continued to be a happy lil girl drinking my tea, chewing my pearls.HAH

this is such a haphazard post.lol.and it's gonna be a long day tml >.<

#363

2009-06-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

my lilbro went for his sec3 camp today.camp at somewhere in changi o.O that reminds me of my OBS camp in sec3.hahah.we're one of the lucky classes who got into residential.heh.residential was somehow like "heaven" at that time.we get to have breakfast, lunch, dinner and even supper every day.eat until we're chubby and fat okay.lol.and those kitchen staff really think that the food is free.the amount of food they gave us is like a hill on our plates.i think during dinner time, we could still feel breakfast inside our stomach.hahah.just kidding.most of the girls requested for a smaller share lah.coz it's kinda wasted to throw food away when we couldnt finish the mountain of food.LOL.but i somehow prefer mobile leh.coz they get to eat biscuits.lol.i prefer biscuits/breads to like rice, veges and fruits.lol.and i remember kouping biscuits from the mobile peeps.i forgot who i kouped the biscuits from though XD i think it's quite bad of me to do that coz they're already lacking food =X

kayaking is the best.heh.though i was in a subconscious state like 70% of the time? zZz.seasickness.what else.and my dear partner also kena seasick.so just imagine 2people who are having seasickness, kayaking along the island.and it's not like 1-2hours.it's 6-7hours.mygod.but we had a great sense of achievement after we reach our destination.i believe i was abit sian at that time coz we still had to kayak back to our residential homes the next morning.really can die.and dinner wasnt that fantastic i must say.somehow i feel that i was eating sand, not rice.lol.and that was the first time i ate mcvities digestive biscuits and i realise that it was a heavenly yummilicious biscuit.LOL.enjoyable lah.i'm not sure if i've blogged on my OBS experience before.must track back on my blog archives.but i dont think this blog have lah.may2006..i'm already in poly le? must be either in my previous blog/s or FOD XD

GREAT.i'm gonna have the whole room to myself tonight and tml night.teehee.i can do whatever shit i want.LOL.whee~

i am having a headache now =.=

#362

2009-06-03T00:46:00.003+08:00

i'm pretty addicted to bubble tea lately.MUST be due to the hot weather lah.lol.i think the lady at the bubble tea shop will recognise my face very soon.3cups of bubble teas in a week.is that alot? or soso =\ anyway, i feel quite sinful lah.and i like the chewy pearls alot! i even dreamt of bbts lately.omg can.tell me that i'm absolutely normal XD

met lyn just now and it's a definitely good way to catch up on our lives.or maybe i should say wintertime's life.lol.alot of things happen sia.i seriously hate office politics.but that's part and parcel of life i know.things has already been over for like damn long liao.why try to rake things up again =.= maybe i have taken wrong steps or made some wrong decisions along the way.but what's done is done.i seriously feel that if people are curious, they can just consult me.no point asking through people.dont make it hard for people around me, and dont make it hard for yourself, and also myself.真真假假，假假真真..真的很难知.sommore, 人心难测 ah.but that is human lah.everybody has their own flaws.i have flaws too.nobody in this world is perfect lah.i cant control what others say; neither can i zip other people's mouth.sometimes, it is quite saddening to see people's real colors ):

anyway, i have already submitted my photo for the LG contest.after my complaint on brainblock, a dumb idea managed to come across my mind.lol.and since i totally have no idea what to do for the theme, i might as well go with my dumb idea, since a dumb idea is still an idea! XD i know it sounds desperate =X the choice of photos also makes my head big @.@ now that submission is done, heh, a load off my mind and i shall see if i'm lucky enough :D i dont really feel like posting the pic here coz i think it is omfg dumb >.<

my lappie is starting to play tricks with me again.funny arh lappie.dont liddat leh..dont give me blue screen error..at most i'll be more gentle with you (: and it's even funnier when problems arises after my warranty period.grr.i suppose May was the last month of warranty for my lappie.i cant believe my lappie is 3years old now *sayang*

was on the bus yesterday when i happen to hear what an auntie asked the bus uncle,"this bus got(will) reach interchange not ah?" what funny question is this.i thought all buses will end their services at their respective interchange? of course the driver replied yes.actually, the bus will pass by Bukit Batok Interchange first and then it'll end at CCK.yes, it's bus985.i bet the driver dont even know which interchange the auntie is referring to =.= the auntie should be more specific in her question.skarli she wanna go JE or BoonLay interchange.but the driver is not wrong also.coz his bus will reach an interchange ultimately.well, the more correct term should be bus terminal.anyway, if i'm the bus driver, i will ask her,"which interchange your referring to?" XD

#361

2009-05-31T14:48:00.004+08:00

i totally dislike OralB.yes, it's the toothpaste brand.no offense to those who are pro-OralB users or those who are in any way affliated to the OralB company.i dont think the toothpaste really cleanses my 28 pretty little teeth.lol.Darlie is so much better.but i just have to survive this month or 2 using OralB.grr..i better double the amount of paste i usually use so that it could be used up fast so that another tube of toothpaste can be replaced.hopefuly it'll be Darlie lah.if it's another OralB then gg liao.then i'll use triple the amount! XD just kidding.anyway, i happen to chance upon an article on the newspaper a few days back, stating that Colgate was the no.1 brand in Singapore.if i didnt remember wrongly, it was a survey asking Singaporeans to name brands which first comes to their mind.i cant believe Colgate topped the survey.even The Straits Times was in the 7th or 8th placing.like OMG?! i dont remember myself using Colgate before.maybe i did but i just forgotten about it =X but i am so sure that i'm more of a Darlie user.my parents always like to buy toothpastes that are on promotion/discounts [saves money you know :P].Darlie probably holds promotions often and Colgate is pretty inactive in this sense =X maybe cant give promos coz TV ads are so expensive! XD ops.i'm like indirectly shooting 2 big companies over here.maybe Colgate does give promos lah.but the price they offer after discounts could be still pretty ex as compared to the other brands, so my parents didnt buy it.lol.doing some tai-ji over here to kind of save my ass from potential fires :D but i didnt do any market research before i type this entry lah.so i'm actually not very sure on the pricings of various toothpastes and whatsoever promos they have.who's so free to go look at tootpastes every day/week/month to check out their prices.not unless i'm in the toothpaste industry or some market research companies.hence, this is purely my innocent thoughts.one whole chunk of para just to bring across the point that i'm a Pro-Darlie user.hah.get that? XD

i am scratching my head real hard, thinking of what kind of photo i can submit for the LG Crystal contest.a photo related to the Crystal/Transparent theme..like huh..i am stucked, w/o any ideas what i can do with the theme @.@ can my crystal clear skin be used a photo? just kidding XD i think it'll be so damn embarrasing to post a photo which is like totally unrelated to the theme for the contest.lol.so i've got to think really hard now :(

does anyone know how it feels when your heart starts to race? a kind of feeling which is like so different, so special and so hard to describe in words? XD it has been quite awhile since this kind of special feeling came back again.lol.it's a good feeling of course.but it'll gradually become bad in the long run.and during process, the feeling will kind of die down.all these are kind of expected, given the numerous times i've been through it =.= i am so speechless.gahh.and it made me reminisce of the past, of the sweet and fun times i had; and not to forget the terrible times too.i think it is all just part and parcel of my life.i strongly believe that i must have done really terrible things in my previous life T.T

recently my parents were kinda into a type of liangteh.i forgot the name of it liao.my parents told me that it is a super cooling liangteh and kinda "psycho-ed" me to drink it.since you know, the weather is bloody hella HOT.i didnt wanna drink it initially coz i dont really have that feel to drink it.but they say until it's so good that i just took a few mouthful of it.lol.i only like the cooling sensation that it gives me - not because it is a liangteh, but because it has been just taken out from the fridge -.-"|| and they are funny.they bought two different brands of the similar liangteh and always use a packet of each brand each time to make a big bottle of the teh and put it inside the fridge.they say that if i drink either one of the brands alone, it doesnt taste nice.must combine both then it's nice.lol? then i told them to combine them then resell it as our own brand :D anyway, i dont find the teh as nice as luohanguo.hee.i can like drink bottles of luohanguo at a go.too nice to resist XD

i've got weeks never watch MFBBT and WOHSH liao.i think the addiction period is over.HAHA

#360

2009-05-30T01:58:00.007+08:00

omg.GSS is here! haha.but it's not going to be a big difference to me.coz i doubt i will be contributing to Singapore's GDP =X it cant be blame.coz there's cheaper sources elsewhere to get my stuffs :D but there are some things which i still doesnt mind buying.my only consideration - $$$.lol.that sucks

friday was "Eat with Your Family" day.today is National Family Day.i bet alot of people don't know these.and i happen to know it because i won some tickets for the NFC celebrations.and my mum also got ticks to Wild Wild Wet.seems like the Government and those pro-family organisations are damn pro-active towards this celebration.it also shows the importance of FAMILY in a nation.and i wonder is it because today marks the beginning of holidays, that's why the government set this day as National Family Day.makes sense huh.coz childrens do not have to attend school for a month; they have just ended their SA1 or mid-year exams; and it also marks the beginning of havoc and holiday time.HAHA.sleep-in late lah, computer games lah, class outings lah, overseas trips lah.wonderful huh.i make it sound so great to be a kid again.haha.in fact, it is great to be one! provided it is primary school kid.LOL.little or no stress + relaxing kind of lifestyle.i think retirement life also cant match up to a primary school kid's life.hahah.retirement is good only when you have tons of money to spare luh T.T

i am pretty amazed with the efficiency of DHL.maybe it's because we PAY for the efficiency.and it's a hefty sum okay.my mum is already nagging me.coz i'm digging into my own pockets for additional expenses and she is unhappy with it =X i promised her to increase my pricing next time.that should be able to make her happy.wondering how come she'll know all about my finances? coz i slash payments with her credit card! LOL.bobian leh.that's the only visa card i have (she made a sub-card for me).so every month when she see her bill, i will get a dressing down =.= i hope customers can understand my plight >.<

read wobao today and realised liangwenying went iluma to shop during her trip to SG yet AGAIN recently.iluma! i went there like last week? i think there's nothing much to walk sia.why bring her there..maybe because there's not much people at iluma.so easier to walk about and film etc.iluma is machiam liek ghost town liddat.not much people de.and i think the levels are built super high (<- i think there's a problem with my english here.but i cant seem to get the correct term.lol.correct my sentencing if you like XD) it is worse than vivo lah.why build the ceiling betweens levels so umm..high? singapore dont have that much yaomings.and i think yaoming also dunnit to have such a high ceiling lah! it's a total waste of retail space/square feet.moreover SG is already such a small island liao (notice that i used ISLAND).we should like maximise every land space lor.i think 2levels in iluma can be rebuilt into 3levels lor.just imagine how many more retailers can open their shops there.isn't it better for the company and also for the customers? hmm..if some employees of the company behind iluma happens to read this paragraph, do give me some enlightment.LOL.i felt emptiness when i visted iluma lah.and the super long escalator that stretches from the 1st to the 4th storey is really an eyeopener.never had i taken such a long and HIGH escalator.and i am totally amazed when i realise i was on level4 all of a sudden.lol.maybe i'm suaku lah.but seriously, i'm SHOCKED O.O"||

i finally gymed today, after a looonnnngggg 5months break.5mths is so shockingly long okay.that shows how unhealthey and unfit i am for the past 5mths.tsktsk.and it must have been due to this that i felt so damn weak during my gym session today.and did i forget to mention that the gym was non-aircon?! wahlao.i should have asked if the gym was air-conditioned int he first place.coz i assumed that all gyms are supposed to be air-conditioned! isn't that so? or is it just my misconception.well..NP does have a non-airconditioned gym..but i only go for the air-conditioned one.hehe :P and w/o aircon it is so damn unbearable lah.it's like asking me to run on imaginary tracks.in that case what for i gym sia.i gym for the aircon okay.lol.but you know, since i made a trip down, i dowan to waste my trip.so i gymed in the end.BAD feeling, BAD session.and yes, i am finding a reason to console myself that i am still pretty fit after a 5months break.hahah! lamer =.=

i'm beginning to like my right profile more than my left profile.lol.it has always been the other way round, but recently, i'm kinda falling in love with my right :D maybe it'd because i totally screwed up my left profile lah.testing to cut a failure side.and see, i totally had a hard time to get a nice left profile today that i had to dig out photos of my side taken a few days ago =.=

my beloved right profile now:

and i think my left profile doesnt look good if u look at at it straight.you need an angle to make it nice.like this:

and i love this pic alot.it's my favourite of all now! haha.i think out of 1000pics then can take 1 such nice pic.lol.although the focus is abit "seng-eh" (a.k.a. slanted) i still love it.haha (p.s. i love the face shape! XD)

okay, i am satisfied with being narcissistic.lol.on a lighter note, i'm kinda disappointed with my videoshoot! >T.T<

#359

2009-05-28T17:36:00.001+08:00

this year has been a year of hospitalisation for my grandparents, for both my paternal and maternal grandparents.now i understand why some people are afraid to grow old.they will become weak.and sometimes, it's not that they do not want to be healthy.when you grow old, your body system deteriorates.even a simple flu can sometimes de devastating.my maternal grandmother got hospitalised last night.it was kind of expected but we didnt expect it to happen so fast.she didnt want to eat for the past few weeks.like around 6weeks? getting old, getting weaker is one thing.but not eating, not getting enough nutrients is worsening the situation.you must be thinking, "why dowan to eat?" well, if i know, i can be a professional psychiatric now.and if we could get her to eat, she wouldnt get hospitalised.things are not that easy as it can be said.i was also once curious why she doesnt want to eat.i mean, you can like "force" her to eat some what.why is it so difficult? just get what she wanna eat and let her eat? isnt it as simple as that? but you know, some elderly are quite stubborn.if they refuses to eat.you cannot like pry open their mouth and force food down their throat.it's just not the right way to solve things.and ahma quite funny arh.why cant she just eat..she has lost so much weight.even the muscles also start to "degenerate" in a sense.if there's anything i could do to get her to eat, i am so willing to do that anything.it is so not worth to play with life like this.and my mum keep saying that she got a gut feeling that ahma might not be able to pull through this year.but my mum also say the same thing when my paternal grandfather got admitted to hospital last year and this year too.and it always turns out otherwise.hahah.so maybe my mum said that in hope that my ahma will pull through too.well, it doesnt just depend on the drip on her now.i think the onus depends on her will to live.she needs to start eating.and ahgong also.his memory is not that good now.he cant even recognise my mum.and my mum is always the one who takes ahgong to hospital for his checkup once in a few months.i make it sound so scary to grow old =X but whenever i think about them, i feel a tinge of sadness within me.i think anyone with conscience will feel pity and sad when they see an elderly "suffering" in their old age.i still remember ahgong holding my hands during CNY, when he dont even recognise me.he was holding me so tightly that i just couldnt bear to let my hands go, until he release me.i thought maybe he just need sme support and i told myself maybe that was the least i could have given him.i also remember ahma holding my hands tight during ahgong's birthday celebrations this year, asking me to come back frequently to visit them.and i still replied,"yes, i will.i will come back when i'm free".i am not a good granddaughter.it has been months since i last visited them.i feel bad.i think ahma is pretty lonely.i mean ahgong doesnt have good memory now.logically thinking, ahma will be bored and lonely at home, and that's why she wanted her children, or even her grandchildren to visit her frequently.sometimes i wonder if that is the real cause of why she hasnt been eating.she needs our attention? and it's not that i dowan to go back.it's funny for me to suddenly pop out of nowhere to see them? my hokkien aint that good either.communication wise is a big problem liao.thus, when i have nothing to say to them, and sometimes i cant get what they are trying to tell me, the situation gets really tensed up.and i dont think they wanna see me in person and not communicating with them at all.machiam like show face there.they will see me until they sian bah.and well, a lil bit of vice versa too =X maybe i need to put in the effort and try hard on my side bah.or i really think that i might get struck by a lightning in no time @.@ sigh.i think there's no point to look for any reasons now.the priority now is for ahma to pull through and to recover

i'm so sorry to pangseh anqi for ktv today.we shall go on some other days ya? >.< and i feel really bad to ps again.that time mj cancelled, you and cal suggested to go cityhall walkwalk.yet i also cant go ):

some people commented on how antagonising it is when Friend A owed Friend B money, and Friend A refuses to pay up, yet still can show off to Friend B and co. that he is able to bring his girl to dine at restaurants.see how money can cause disputes among friends, and also the level of anger it has.in comparison, if this incident took place amongst siblings, the results should be worse right? at least you dont get to see friends everyday.that means you do not get to see your debtee everyday.but when your siblings owes you money, they SEE you everyday and they kind of pretend nothing happens.how do you feel? i just wonder how they can be nonchalent about it.hmm.maybe it's because they are not the debtor.it's not their money what.actually i dont think it is "谈钱伤感情".it should be "欠钱不还才伤感情".something to ponder about.. XD

#358

2009-05-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

tonight, or rather tomorrow morning is champ league final.although deco has left barca for chelsea, i still support barca.once you've supported a club before, you cant say you dont have feelings for the club anymore.moreover, barca is really good.that's why the won the spanish league, that's why i like them.hahah.man u is not bad too lah.but somehow, most of the players i like end up in arsenal.and my beloved deco is in chelsea.so yea, i support those 2teams in epl.but i'm not so into soccer lately.to be exact, i'm not into league matches.i'm more interested in international/world or euro matches.those matches whereby national team play against national team.the battle between 2countries.isn't that more excited to watch? haha :D

happen to saw the singapore idol audition commercial on ch8 just now.and i didnt expect my mum to say:"eh..eheh...isn't that the singapore idiot?!?" LOL can.quite true arh.it's pretty idiotic.no offence to those who intend to go for the audition.and come to think of it, i cant seem to recall any great achievements from the past 2 SG idols.abit sad arh =X maybe yes lah.i only remember those 7eleven commercials that taufik starred in.other than that no more liao XD

it's dragon boat festival tml! haha.i've been eating enough rice dumplings for the past few days *burps* fattening + sinful.but it's a once in a year indulgence.so yea, talk about dieting later XD and i've just eaten the long awaited nonya dumpling from my neighbour's mum.waseh.still as yummy.i strongly believe that the ones given to us last weekend wasn't made by her mother.it just taste horrible, totally not like the one i had just now.that was totally heavenly.i'm sorry but i have to say that i am very picky towards food lately.i do not eat things that didnt cross my self-proclaimed edible food standard =\ this does not mean that i must eat all those atas food.not exactly.i eat things that suits my tastebuds.i dont see a reason to go against what my tongue and stomach wants.life is short.we should maximise it by doing what we like and eating what we like.that is called enjoying life.hah.maybe i left out one word - "retirement" life.hahah!

i am gonna sing till i'm shiok tml.HAHA.there's so much nice songs for me to sing lately lah.but i think i'm abit rusty liao.lol *clears throat* looking forward to tml!^^